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OrgoneConclusion
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Personal Power 2
#22456198 - 10/31/15 12:10 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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It could be in your bankroll, your position, possessions, accomplishments and so forth, but the problem is: they were all expressions of you in a certain point in time and may or may not reflect your power level today.
As in a hypothetical situation wherein a plane load of people crash and survive in the Siberian wilderness. Onlt the ones who carry the most personal power during that time will survive = not the richest, most beautiful, or surprisingly, even the fittest. It will depend on those who have the strongest will.
The beauty of will is that is the one thing you can forge in good times and bad and is NOT dependent on external circumstances.
Does it guarantee you success or survival? Of course not! Life is all about a game of playing the odds.
In my own case, for those of you have been following my love story, here is what I have discovered. She glimpsed ,my past wherein I had tremendous personal power, but a man who I had lost faith in. Then I instantly showed her that I had little personal power. Why? That retarded act is for another thread.
I realized two things:
1. Your personal power is measured by your weakest area and not your strongest. In my case, my physical and mental prowess were finely honed, but I was soft and flabby emotionally.
2. THe likelihood of getting and keeping things you desire is directly proportional to the amount of personal power you have.
Picture yourself holding a pot and it is always raining. You hold out your pot and it has dozens and dozens of 1/4" holes drilled in it. You scratch your head and wonder why the pot holds so little water. As you slowly determine where and what the leaks are, the pot automatically starts filling; and if you plug ALL THE HOLES, life will overflow for you.
What are the holes? I will give an example list if needed, but your homework is to share what some of your holes are. And what you are going to do to plug them.
OC
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OrgoneConclusion said: In my case, my physical and mental prowess were finely honed, but I was soft and flabby emotionally.
I was just intending to comment on how I relate to this. I see this now through my work with my therapist as although I am not flabby, I am soft here, due to having very unempathic parents. I developed an overly aggresive exterior to protect this fact for a lot of my life thus far.
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OrgoneConclusion said: What are the holes? I will give an example list if needed, but your homework is to share what some of your holes are. And what you are going to do to plug them.
Then I read this. Fucking AMAZING question man. I'll try to bang them out. I'm gonna go cook some food first though, I need to think about this.
Right, I got a full belly now. Here is what I think:
1. Unable to read body language/flirt 2. No good at making people laugh [intentionally] 3. Underlying agression 4. Quite selective when it comes to those I can 'gel' with 5. Tendency to get high a lot 6. Can seem 'aloof' or 'distant' 7. Sometimes [unintentionally] condescending tone of voice (I hate this one, can't seem to catch it)
I don't know what I'm gonna do with them right now. I suspect the blossoming of the self love that has just budded in me will negate all these issues in one fell swoop.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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In my case, and I suspect is true of everyone, is that the key is simply choosing.
Captain of your own ship... 
Hypothetical scenario: a gifted runner easily holds local records, but occassionaly smokes cigs and pot. He is headed towards the nationals. If he chooses to be the best runner he can be, the smoking naturally falls away without a thought. If he waffles or fails to choose. the result will be less than optimal as he is giving/leaking personal power away to a habit that NO LONGER SERVES HIM!
That is the secret. Choose to spend your time (not obsess or overwork) by doing those things that move you towards your personal goals.
I have spent the majority of my life in self-sabotage mode. Recognizing certain mental/emotional habits and projections is the first step. Then looking to move beyond such self-limitations into new and grand possibilities.
Thus Spake Zarathustra
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Jokeshopbeard
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Get ya list out for the lads OC!
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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OrgoneConclusion said: If he chooses to be the best runner he can be, the smoking naturally falls away without a thought. If he waffles or fails to choose. the result will be less than optimal as he is giving/leaking personal power away to a habit that NO LONGER SERVES HIM!
That is so true. Well put OC.
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That Vernon Howard no longer reads the comments for Youtube on his self realization videos is the bummer, "One of the shaddesht shongs I ever hhheard."
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Re: Personal Power [Re: falcon]
#22458220 - 10/31/15 03:36 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Lol..I feel I am strong empathetically..but when it comes to precision I have a form of adhd so I can forget things or make silly mistakes..other than that I am a straight A student..and have a good life..with family and friends..
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Picture yourself holding a pot [...] What are the holes?
My holes are the pot 
Maybe I should put down the pot?
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enlightened seed
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Re: Personal Power [Re: DisoRDeR]
#22459187 - 10/31/15 08:11 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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my pot has no bottom to it and when it rains the water makes its way to my entheogens. besides i like the rain!
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Hobozen


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2. THe likelihood of getting and keeping things you desire is directly proportional to the amount of personal power you have.
Been thinking about my holes...
Habit and laziness are two big ones I can think of. Just when I think I'm on top, the undercurrents sweep me right back into powerlessness. While I feel I have more power than I did in the past (as evident by my increased ability to move through negative emotions and thought patterns) , it's still very fleeting, so "getting and keeping the things you (I) desire" is also fleeting. We can have immense power, but that doesn't mean we have access to it at all times. Unless by "amount", you mean our ability to maintain the power. So it seems like there's different paths... a path of developing a power that comes and goes depending on the weather (gained by insightful/reflective experiences not of a strict discipline/practice)... and a path of learning to maintain the power and keep it within our grasp.
If I wanna master this stuff, I have to make the decision to follow a strict path, and I think monastery life would be a motivating way to go about it. Not saying the grass would be greener and it'll be easy, but I could see it being a big help, at least for a while. The thought of practicing every day with a group of like minds is more interesting than the thought of going it all alone surrounded by noisy distractions. A quiet environment would provide more "room for growth"...
Maybe I won't like monastery life, and my old habits and desires will eventually lead me astray yet again. We'll see when the time comes... but for now, I don't have enough drive or desire to master myself. As long as I practice enough to maintain the little power that i do have... it's enough to be satisfied a decent amount of time. I don't know about you guys but I find that I have to be really careful not to slip into my old ways. I've been through some serious addictions, and have to remind myself how easy it is to slip. Which is also a motivator to stay afloat.
Overall great post, and touches home. Thanks for sharing
Edited by Hobozen (11/01/15 01:58 AM)
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Re: Personal Power [Re: Hobozen]
#22460949 - 11/01/15 08:28 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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I've been thinking about your holes too...
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Re: Personal Power [Re: Jufin]
#22460966 - 11/01/15 08:32 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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My holes, or my hOles
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Re: Personal Power [Re: Jufin]
#22461027 - 11/01/15 08:45 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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A lack of a sense of self or personality.
Now a lot of you will say "Oh, personality is something that comes with life experience". I do agree but even children have personalities - or rather traits that make them unique. I did too then bad shit happened and after many referrals and examinations and hospitalisations I eventually got diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.
I did try my best not to see it as chains and to try step back and see things objectively (which I'm actually pretty good at) but constantly I notice interpersonal shit I do that is fucking textbook. The attention seeking, the seeking of shallow validation, the alcohol (not touched in a few weeks after an overdose and a bizarre change in mindset - much more positive and higher bullshit tolerance. It's actually how I ended up here), the self harm behaviour, the sensation seeking. Anything so I just don't...don't what? What am I running from?
I know very well what I'm running from but for legal reasons I can't sort this out. It'll lead to the exact same chain of events that messed me up.
That's a lot of complaining isn't it? Lol.
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lovelaughlibs said: A lack of a sense of self or personality.
Now a lot of you will say "Oh, personality is something that comes with life experience". I do agree but even children have personalities - or rather traits that make them unique. I did too then bad shit happened and after many referrals and examinations and hospitalisations I eventually got diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.
I did try my best not to see it as chains and to try step back and see things objectively (which I'm actually pretty good at) but constantly I notice interpersonal shit I do that is fucking textbook. The attention seeking, the seeking of shallow validation, the alcohol (not touched in a few weeks after an overdose and a bizarre change in mindset - much more positive and higher bullshit tolerance. It's actually how I ended up here), the self harm behaviour, the sensation seeking. Anything so I just don't...don't what? What am I running from?
I know very well what I'm running from but for legal reasons I can't sort this out. It'll lead to the exact same chain of events that messed me up.
That's a lot of complaining isn't it? Lol.
Come on get yourself together now.
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Hobozen


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Reminded me OC's creation of this thread, at the beginning there...
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lovelaughlibs
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I can't see videos on my phone for some reason, what's it called on youtube?
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Re: Personal Power [Re: Hobozen]
#22461815 - 11/01/15 11:42 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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blankk said: Reminded me OC's creation of this thread, at the beginning there...
From The Beginning - ELP
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