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saynotodrugs
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Bad trip mushrooms'first time'
#22414659 - 10/21/15 05:21 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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I am a male of 18 years old and took 22 days ago for the first time 7g of mushroom called 'mush magic' strongest in rotterdam coffee shop. i'll try to give a quick trip report.
the day i took them that day before i had alot of stress. i took 7grams at once in like 5 minutes just chewing it with water. the moment i took them and before i was very nervous and shaking like damn i hope this will not fuck me up and worrying about the negative effect. clearly i wasn't good prepared i had stress and i already was in a small depression i smoked weed with it and before i took the schrooms, some very good quality weed. i had 3 friends who were there with me it was at a appartement. i started feeling good had to laugh for alot but then i stared feeling very useless like i wasn't a good person and that people saw me as a complete misserable person my emotions went crazy this continued for over 1 hour i think can't really remember had no sense of time. ''''i am a very sensitive person already so my emotions were very negative and very strong in a sad way.''' eventualy i tried to vomit to get the effect away did not help i askedmy friends to leave because i was feeling very very bad with them around because i tought they saw me as a misserable person i had flashbacks of sad moments in my live and like everything on tv was ment for me had extreme coinsidence emotions like every thing they said on tv was ment for me still got it a bit today' felt so alone, i always like the sound of a shower it mostly relaxes me 'not anymore at this point'. i went to take a shower and had suicidal toughts very scary cuz i never had these before. i just felt o depressed but depressed in a way i cant explain.
i went to sleep and woke up very depressed like nothing was going to be okay. had pain in the belly couldn't change my negative toughts. the day after i tried smoking weed cuz this would help me relax like ussualy but i went back again on a bad feeling,negative toughts, and panic attacks. these are the effects i had the day after had these effect for a week untill i went to a docter that gave me an antidote on shrooms once i took them much but much better ! -panic attacks. not gone -ups and downs-not gone -evening i mostly felt better-bit gone -heart beatings-not gone -no hunger-gone -warm and cold body heat-gone -sweaty hand-not gone -negative toughts-defenlty not gone -couldn't relax-not gone -no motivation-not gone -instrests in tv and things i liked before-not gone but i can find intrest in serval things i like before but not as much as before. -paranioa-pretty much gone -tv always has to be on-not gone -every minute of the day in bed-not gone -recalling my dreams'nightmares'-mostly gone -not sure if i am normal again-not gone ''but i feel it getting better' -feeling that things wont get better-not gone the reality doesn't look the same-not gone -no sexual intrests-not gone but i dont care that much its just weird -hard to stand up-getting better -feeling better alone-not gone -suicidal toughts -not gone yet its not like i have it every day but its stil present when i feel things wont get better i know someone who killed him self maybe thats the problem feeling that i dont care about anything-almost gone headache-gone time awareness -not gone. always laying in bed-not gone. worrying-not gone. when i look into the mirror i know its me but its weird to see myself same thing when i look at my hands. i know its me but its weird. not eating healthy-not gone ''cuz i dont want to move from my bed i'm lazy. problems to go sleep when normal people fall asleep-not gone i mostly go sleep at 2:00 and wake up at 14:00. maybe its because im on the computer every day every minute for the last 22 days.
now i'll talk about the days after the first day after the bad trip.
2 days after. i tried smoking weed but my herart started beating so hard and i even was more depressed and had suicidal toughts once again. so i stopped then 3 days after i still felt bad but then at a point i felt very good but really good and tried to smoke again , and once again i felt bad and depressed like i wasn't really myselfs had no intresses and couldn't relax i always had negative toughts and i always worried for nothing like if i was small i would get heart beatings and i tought i would die haha but i could relax myself now i cannot. btw my imume system is very strong just wanna let u know i never get sick maybe once or twice ea 6 months roughly.
i went to the docter a couple days after the bad trip she gave me an antidote and quetiapin sandoz 25 mg. she gave me some homepathy and felt much better instantly! less worrys etc. 2 days after the docter i felt good and ready for weed and smoked and went negative again and bad toughts since then i stoped smoking weed.
now 22 days further i'm still feeling bad i have ups and down its like i ain't myself anymore and i wont get better i read that people are stuck with this for the rest of there lifes. at this moment i feel very depressed and im very worried about my future i can't really relax and have no intresst exepct laying in my bed the whole day this has been going on for 22 days the staying in bed problem. i dont eat healthy and troubles with falling asleep. i feel lost and not the same. i dont feel like its getting worse but its just like it will not be resolved. and the worrying hits me the most.
will this go away ? how long will it take ? anyone got same problem or had ? what can i do to get my intrests back?how do i get motivated again ? how can i return to the old me?will i? how can i relax? i tried meditating it works for a while but when i meditate i still worry when trying to relax these negative toughts just wont leave.
sorry for the bad english tried my best thanks for reading if anyone wants to talk to me or if u need to talk to someone about this i'm open for everything i will gladly help you
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Re: Bad trip mushrooms'first time' [Re: saynotodrugs]
#22415552 - 10/21/15 08:26 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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So sorry that your feeling so low. Psychedelics are powerful substances. Don't worry too much though. You will adjust over time. Eventually you will look back and wonder why you felt so bad. Everything is going to be okay though. The mushrooms show you stuff that is hidden in your subconscious. My advice would be to face these demons head on. The psychedelic experience is a tool that will show you things in your life that you subconsciously want to improve. The things that surfaced, like feeling that you are useless and not a good person, try and make changes in your life so that you don't feel this way. The mushrooms are reflecting your own opinions about you. Take this as an opportunity to fix the those things. It may sound impossible, but it isn't. Do it one day at a time. Make small goals to improve your life. As you do this, you will feel a little bit better each day. Trust me. If you keep working on improving you, you will feel so much better. It will take some time though.
You will be able to smoke weed again. Take a little break though. When you are ready, you can smoke some herb. When you are high, if you start to feel shitty again, stop and ask yourself, "How can I improve myself so that I don't feel this way?" Then do what you need to do to feel better.
Keep your head up friend. Things will get better. I'm sending you good vibes.
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Re: Bad trip mushrooms'first time' [Re: 4HO-DMT]
#22697407 - 12/25/15 04:19 AM (8 years, 1 month ago) |
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i have suffered from magic mushrooms very similar (or even worser).
however, on the other hand, i admit seeing some nice visuals, rainbows, nature looked very beautiful. but this positive experiences, compared to the psychical damage which i suffered,
is really not worthy. do not to risk to suffer so much with many years lasting mental damage.
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