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fenderjaguar


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Wish I could have mushrooms :(
#22408369 - 10/20/15 09:21 AM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm a 34 year old man, who last tried ingesting liberty caps when I was 17. I used to suffer from anxiety a little back in those days, and I always disliked my LSD and mushroom experiences.
On saturday, I decided to go up to the moors and pick some liberty caps. Though it's been 17 years since I last ate one, I'm pretty much an expert on identifying them. Even just their appearance gives me a magical feeling. Every autumn I sometimes go looking for them, but all this time I've been too afraid to eat them.
To stiffen myself up, I bought 4 x 500ml cans of special brew, which is 18 units of alcohol. I also have about 10mg of etizolam. I didn't ingest any of these before the mushrooms.
Anway, I ground up 15 or 20 quite small lib caps in some vimpto and other juice, in a blender. Really shook it up and ground it up hard.
I ended up with about half a pint of liquid, which I stirred up with a spoon and took a TINY little sip. Like the smallest most pathetic nip you can imagine. A few minutes later, I did the same again. I barely drunk any. I can't really have ingested more than 1 mushroom.
Well I'd say around 15 minutes later I was really starting the panic. I haven't smoked cannabis for years, but it started to feel a little like that. Weird sense of time, deep dark vivid colours. Felt like I was watching myself (figuratively). Constantly checking my pulse.
Even though I was on my own in a secluded house the panic continued and I regretted it so much. I drank 2 cans of special brew in about 5 minutes. But at this point, it was hard to judge the time, and it wasn't having any anxiolytic effect, so I chewed up 1mg of etizolam and put it under my tongue.
Finally, I started to calm down. Breathless, I felt stupid for underestimating how powerful these mushrooms can be. Maybe it's just me and my anxiety and panic attacks that overreacted, but it was like a whole room full of people could have got stoned on what was in that half pint of liquid....
I just sat there to myself repeating in my head "I'm just not ready for the world, I'm just not ready for what is out there and I never will be..."
I don't think I could do it again. But I'm itching just to pick one and eat a tiny bit of it, after taking the etizolam first this time...
Edited by fenderjaguar (10/20/15 09:23 AM)
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4HO-DMT


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Re: Wish I could have mushrooms :( [Re: fenderjaguar]
#22408427 - 10/20/15 09:31 AM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Often, low doses are anxiety provoking. IMO, higher doses are easier to handle. When you start to feel anxiety, take deep breaths. Tell yourself that you won't die and the experience will be over in a few hours. I mean, what's the worst that could happen? Anxiety? Sounds like you have some etiz to combat that if it happens. Learn to let go. If you are struggling with the trip, it will make it that much worse. Seriously, take deep breaths. Focus on your breathing so that your mind can relax. Good luck mate.
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Peyote Road
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Re: Wish I could have mushrooms :( [Re: 4HO-DMT]
#22410188 - 10/20/15 04:52 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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of course you panicked. you set yourself up for it by fearing the experience. i went through a period in my life like that, i got anxiety from smoking too much weed and then was afraid to smoke weed or trip and any time i would smoke weed or take a tiny dose of mushrooms i would instantly panic.
the mushroom was actually trying to help you by amplifying your fear and making you face it, but because you took a small dose and added CNS depressants you once again avoided it.
If you want to get past this, take a larger dose but go in with the attitude "im gonna trip and its gonna be awesome and I am gonna face whatever fears come up". Then you will truly be terrified, but after the terror passes and you realize youre still alive you will experience great euphoria and happiness.
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west coast hunt
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Re: Wish I could have mushrooms :( [Re: Peyote Road]
#22411693 - 10/20/15 11:00 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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I have had terrible anxiety around mushrooms for a very long time. The best thing i have found is meditation.
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Carbonobo
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When I first started taking mushrooms, I had a lot of problems with anxiety, accompanied with what I can only describe as debilitating nausea. For quite some time I was convinced that the nausea was cause by the mushrooms, and on top of the initial anxiety, I would start to fear the nausea that I knew was coming, and get extra anxiety based on that. It wasn't until maybe my 4th trip that I realized the nausea was almost entirely psychosomatic, besides the light nausea that is pretty common during the come up.
Agreeing with what peyote road said, the best way to combat this from happening is you have to just accept whatever is coming, realize that it might be rough and/or uncomfortable, but that you can handle it.
I'd suggest getting a scale for some precision measurements, measure out a nice ~2 gram dose, and enjoy.
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SnowDaze
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Re: Wish I could have mushrooms :( [Re: Carbonobo]
#22412034 - 10/21/15 12:57 AM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yeah honestly I am pretty scared of mushrooms too. And as said above, you set yourself up because you feared the experience to begin with. I do it too
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Seriously_trippin
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Re: Wish I could have mushrooms :( [Re: SnowDaze]
#22412218 - 10/21/15 03:34 AM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Shrooms are just so damned unpredictable imo, it's always really awful or really amazing but both are so intense.My acid trips almost never involve throwing up,demons,bad ego deaths or several other things. Out of a lot of acid trips (30 or so) I only had a bad trip 3 or 4 times due to bad set,setting and pre-existing mood. Almost every acid trips have been full of laughs,it just reacts to my body and mind more predictably. Imo CEVs are best with shrooms though
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Grow mushrooms yourself. Its easy af.
All you need is a pressure cooker, brown rice flour, sterile environment, still air box, alcohol lamp, vermiculite, wide mouth 1/2 pint mason jars, a drill, spore syringe, perlite, light source, and a fan.
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