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JustForToday
New Life, New Beginnings


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The obsession to use returned..
#22390587 - 10/16/15 09:05 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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So this week in my life.. things started off really haywire.. I just started taking vistaril again to help me sleep because I've had horrible problems with anxiety lately since all that happened in my life.. Monday I woke up and I just had like the best dream i've had ever.. but I couldn't remember.. I felt odd.. so i'm off to work.. And I'm standing at the bus stop.. Next thing I know. I remember I was high on pain pills in the dream. And all of a sudden my heart started racing. And I Felt like I NEEDED those pills right away.. But I've been living in Florida and sober the whole time. I don't know where to get drugs at down here. So I see the walgreens pharmacy.. next thing I know I'm planning to ROB this fucking place for pills in the pharmacy. I couldn't believe it. Ive never commmitted a criminal act like that in my entire life. I immediately recognized this as a serious red flag and called my sponsor right away along with other people. It was the strongest cravings i've ever had and I just celebrated 18 months sober last thursday... now I understand how people with 30 years go back out..
We deal with alocohol.. cunning, baffling, POWERFUL.. wow..
Thanks for letting me share.
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Sheekle
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Re: The obsession to use returned.. [Re: JustForToday] 1
#22390594 - 10/16/15 09:06 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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ur sponsor is a real slick cat with a real slick back alleyway waiting for a real slick meatstick to make it's appearance in it
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Malcolm_Xtasy
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Re: The obsession to use returned.. [Re: JustForToday]
#22390667 - 10/16/15 09:19 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Life must really be tough when you're thinking about robbing a pharmacy for anti histamines
Be a man and get addicted to real drugs
-------------------- I'm stupid, Enlil is smart. I'm ugly, Enlil is beautiful. I'm a loser, Enlil is a winner. Someday, I hope to be like Enlil but secretly know I never will.
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Psilosopherr
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Quote:
Malcolm_Xtasy said: Life must really be tough when you're thinking about robbing a pharmacy for anti histamines
Be a man and get addicted to real drugs 
thought he said it was for pain pills?
I'm in the same boat right now OP. Been off of heroin for about a year now and all of a sudden some hard cravings hit. started dreaming about it too.
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