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JustForToday
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Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not.
#22295876 - 09/26/15 08:59 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I haven't been on here much. Or on facebook. Something so tragic happened in my life I still feel like i'm dreaming. I've made so much progress spiritually and in my program. Just as I was starting to feel at peace.. serenity was filling me and also happiness. My mom passed away sept 11. Had a heart attack. Couldn't save her. Wow.. How does that just happen so quick. I've been a shitty person. I've done alot of bad. And now i'm being punished. Sooo depressed lately. I haven't been doing gym and i've been eating like shit. I don't care anymore. But i'm still sober. I'm calling people. I'm going to meetings. It's really hard for me because I just don't know what to say to anyone anymore. I mean how does my mom just die over night like that no warning, NORMALLY THERE IS WARNING. Or a chance to live. There was none. And I hadn't seen her even once since I was in Florida. I've been here for 18 months now. I'm really in pain. I'm really in my head. I wanna quit my job, sell all shit and just go somewhere. But I have to believe she is in a better place right. Damn.. idk what ima do now.. I could really use more friends right now so I Can make it.
-------------------- Hey Shae, Are you still doing that hand thing? I heard you was doing that hand thing today. Oh God what is that?!
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nicechrisman
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: JustForToday]
#22295913 - 09/26/15 09:06 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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“Cosmic Love is absolutely Ruthless and Highly Indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not.”
― John C. Lilly
-------------------- "Cosmic Love is absolutelely ruthless and highly indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not." John C. Lily
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: JustForToday]
#22295967 - 09/26/15 09:19 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Youlle adjust and be back to your happy self down the road,  dont give uup
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        And to everyone who thinks life is just a game, Do you like the part you are playing? This is the time in life I am living! And I face each day with a smile My music Library of Synthesizer goodness
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: nicechrisman]
#22295970 - 09/26/15 09:19 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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nicechrisman said: “Cosmic Love is absolutely Ruthless and Highly Indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not.”
― John C. Lilly
The toughest most softest thing.
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: JustForToday]
#22295988 - 09/26/15 09:22 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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My deepest condolences, JFT.
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: 404]
#22296013 - 09/26/15 09:27 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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try to stay focused and grieve when you can. it might suit you to take off work and deal with what's going on in your mind, as well as be with other grieving family members. i would not suggest hitting the nuke button on your life, it might just make things more harder to deal with.
seriously, i'm sorry that happened to you.
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: 404]
#22296034 - 09/26/15 09:31 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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start with what makes you happy. could be anything. pay attention to the little things.
then just expand from there
-------------------- smack a hoe out this dimension continue my ascension -bhad bhabie rip. todcasil, acid sloth, st1llnox, zappaisgod, big worm (sketch), tim b
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: JustForToday] 4
#22296047 - 09/26/15 09:33 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Do things with your life that would make her proud (make yourself proud).
-------------------- "What appears impenetrable to us does exist, manifesting itself in the deepest wisdom and the most radiant beauty" Einstein "The conservatives of 70 years ago would be outraged at what has come to pass. It embodies everything they took up arms for to defeat"Asante
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: Envix] 4
#22296049 - 09/26/15 09:33 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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OP I hope you do better but just a short time ago you were bragging and posting pictures of your abs and your apartment and saying how much better you were then everyone else.
I hope things change for you and you are happy again tho brotha.
-------------------- Taking acid and thinking you are a better man is a lot different then actually becoming a better man.
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sh4d0ws
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: Bitter Cactus] 6
#22296114 - 09/26/15 09:46 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Kind of like you do on a daily basis, minus the pictures?
very sorry for your unexpected loss OP. in time all things get better.. hang in there
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: JustForToday]
#22298459 - 09/27/15 12:53 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hey man just stay strong, you're doing all the right things in staying busy. If you were to use this as an excuse to relapse or try to run away from your problems I am pretty sure you'll regret it in the end as things will only get worse. You've got to be able to process these emotions, which luckily you're in a good position to do even if it seems difficult right now. Your regular routines will help but also try and spend some time relaxing, doing things that you enjoy, and take time out to do some ritual or something that has meaning for you to help you remember your mother.
Maybe plant a tree if she liked the outdoors, or make a piece of art to memorialize and help remember her. You're doing good man I'm sure she'd be proud.
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Seriously_trippin
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: moonrockmushy]
#22298527 - 09/27/15 01:07 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm dealing with a very very close death that has completely broken me as a person. I know how bad it can be.Trick is building yourself back up and making your mom pproud of the life she gave you. Even if it's flying kites do what you love in life in her memory. I know that's a lot easier said then done. Might want to think about therapy(that's what I'm doing), it helps a it.
Also pictures probably hurt right now but you will be surprised how much a picture evokes a loving memory of a memory of the good times. zit's very life shaking and I know it's going to take a very long time for me to fully deal with her death. I quit my job and didn't hang out with friends for 6 and a half years to take care of her,day in and day out. In a weird way that might've been easier to let her go because she was suffering but I also have had my step brother at age 24 commit suicide. Life does happen,it's not fair,it's not predictable and it's not fun but that doesn't mean it's going to be a bad life. Embrace chaos and roll with the punches as it were, you can make a good life yet.
Also Idk if this helps you or not but when I get really depressed about the whole thing I talk to her as if she could hear me.
stay strong and make her proud
-------------------- R.I.P Zombi3, Blue Helix Modest Mouse Zappa Slothie That Kid With The face ShLong Le Canard split_by_nine & Big Worm Forever Etched in the sands of time in the shroomery and ever so beloved and deeply missed by many
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: moonrockmushy]
#22298532 - 09/27/15 01:08 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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very sorry for your loss.
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: millzy]
#22298553 - 09/27/15 01:13 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I pretty much cried for you man. Why do horrible things happen to people who are trying to do good and straightin out their life. I just don't get it. I feel for you. Just know we are all her for you. There are things we can't explain in life and that is when we need the support the most.
I am sorry for you loss.
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: JustForToday] 4
#22298560 - 09/27/15 01:14 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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She passed seeing her son get sober and accomplish / defeat major obstacles. What more could a mother ask for before her passing?
Honor her memory and keep her in your heart.
I'm sorry for your loss. Keep on keeping on.
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JustForToday
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: Peachette]
#22304906 - 09/28/15 08:09 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Why is this life so painful to live?
-------------------- Hey Shae, Are you still doing that hand thing? I heard you was doing that hand thing today. Oh God what is that?!
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: JustForToday] 5
#22304935 - 09/28/15 08:15 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Because if we didn't know pain,we could not fully appreciate happiness.
-------------------- R.I.P Zombi3, Blue Helix Modest Mouse Zappa Slothie That Kid With The face ShLong Le Canard split_by_nine & Big Worm Forever Etched in the sands of time in the shroomery and ever so beloved and deeply missed by many
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Alcohol kills t cells
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Quote:
JustForToday said: Why is this life so painful to live?
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Seriously_trippin said: Because if we didn't know pain,we could not fully appreciate happiness.
Very well said.
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Re: Life happens.. Whether we are prepared or not. [Re: Roostertail]
#22305081 - 09/28/15 08:42 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Stay strong man, there is a lot of good advice in this thread.
Try to not dwell in the sadness and focus on things that make you happy.
Trying to start eating healthier and working out again could be a good start once you find the motivation.
I am sincerely sorry for your loss and I hope you hang in there. I am sure she is at peace in a better place now.
-------------------- Don't worry about me, I've got all that I need. And I'm singing my song to the sky You know how it feels, With the breeze of the sun in your eyes. Not minding that time's passing by I've got all and more, My smile, just as before. Is all that I carry with me I talk to myself, I need nobody else. I'm lost and I'm mine, yes I'm free
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