Tonight's the night. I've been looking forward to some experimenting with my first batch of MXE and my new scale.
20:20 (T0:00) Allergy test. 5mg sublingual
20:30 (T0:10) Feeling relaxed. Slight anaesthesia under tongue.
20:40 (T0:20) +- now. Warmth in my face and silence seems slightly more profound than usual.
21:10 (T0:50) No apparant allergy. This seems to be the real deal. I decide to go for 20mg sublingual.
21:20 (T1:00) I swallow what's left under my tongue including the little lake of saliva that's built up in my mouth. The taste reminds me of MDMA.
21:30 (T1:10) +. I notice a slight delay when turning my head, just like a slight intoxication on alcohol. Considerable mood lift. I feel great. Walking feels funny and I simply cannot wipe that typical psychedelic smirk off my face.
21:40 (T1:30) Coming up nicely. Solid ++. A pinch of euphoria as the intoxication intensifies. I'm starting to grasp the insightful nature of this drug. It seems that when I lie down and close my eyes, the intoxication and the euphoria are completely gone and what's left is a peaceful serenity. I find contemplation a lot easier with eyes open though.
22:00 (T1:50) +++. Reminds me a lot of ketamine. Very, very insightful. Cannot write now, need to think.
22:40 (T2:30) The last 40 minutes have been simply amazing. I was able to reflect on my life and the path I'm trying to walk as objectively as never before. This is substance is magical. It enables me to view my life and its entailing possibilities in a completely new light.
23:10 (T3:00) Talk about synchronicity. I just hit up a friend to talk about an idea I just had and ask him what he's doing. He replies that he's about to do pure ketamine straight from the ambulance. It's his first time trying out a dissociative and I just happen to ask him what's up when he's about to try it and I'm on my first trip of MXE. 
23:20 (T3:10) Feels like I'm coming down now. Back to ++. Quite the gradual decline. Much softer comedown than MDMA.
00:00 (T3:50) Back to +. I am exhausted. It was a long day, even without the trip. I go to bed.
Next Day: I woke up feeling ill, like I had the flu and didn't feel well rested at all. I was hot and utterly dehydrated. After breakfast and hydration I started to feel a little better until a sudden rush of tiredness grabbed hold of me. I napped for around an hour and felt just like before. I am not sure this "hangover" can be attributed to MXE though since it was a rough week and I dosed Kratom thrice a day Monday to Friday. Such regular and frequent use of Kratom is unprecedented for me as I usually only dose occasionally and not so many days straight. I am convinced the little hangover was due to said Kratom use.
In conclusion, I truly enjoyed the experience with MXE and I can't wait to experiment further with it. Throughout my trip I was listening to some excellent Deep House sets which harmonized very well with MXE, although at times I was so deeply engrossed by the music that it somewhat hindered introspection but this first time was just exploration anyway and there many more experiments yet to come. What I love most about MXE is its insightful nature which at 20mg I should have only scratched the slightest. I reflected a lot on my life and I can say that I have been positively influenced my first experience with it. Recently, I have been plagued with doubts about the choices in life I have to take and I am very afraid to make a decision just because I fear it might be the wrong one. MXE made it clear that even a wrong decision is better than no decision at all and it assured me that I should pursue the things which I believe are worth pursuing and truly interest me and that anything else is just self-denial. It also showed me that I need to make a few changes in my life if I want to be truly happy and for that I am very grateful. Until we meet again, dear MXE...
PS: Now I finally get this smilie and can only strongly reaffirm its implicit meaning:
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