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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: Luueschen]
#22286004 - 09/24/15 08:40 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Luueschen said: Yeah I will, i just have a little more partying to do, to get out of my system. i want to be able to control and enjoy my drug and alcohol habits but it is difficult because im depressed. thanks, ill think about this tonight
Classic addict logic. Seriously. Psychiatrist. Now.
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: Luueschen]
#22286006 - 09/24/15 08:40 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I mean... I'm not saying "Don't get fucked up". I'm saying "Don't fuck yourself up".
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: Luueschen]
#22286009 - 09/24/15 08:41 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Go see a doctor. And, 18-21 is nice because you're young. But, by all means, it is not necessarily the best years of your life. I'm willing to bet that you are still young and have your whole life ahead of you. I would shy away from any psychedelics for the time being. Good luck OP, I hope that you find some inner peace.
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: Luueschen]
#22286020 - 09/24/15 08:45 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Luueschen said: Its that LSA isnt as dangeous as LSD...
This isn't true. Neither of them are dangerous. But, you can put yourself in a dangerous situation on either of them.
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: 4HO-DMT]
#22286056 - 09/24/15 08:56 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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4HO-DMT said:
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Luueschen said: Its that LSA isnt as dangeous as LSD...
This isn't true. Neither of them are dangerous. But, you can put yourself in a dangerous situation on either of them.
They are dangerous, as evidenced by OP having had mental illness precipitated or worsened by LSD. Let's be realistic, psychedelics aren't harmless.
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: LSDreamer]
#22286070 - 09/24/15 09:01 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Did somebody say HPPD?
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: The Moose]
#22286081 - 09/24/15 09:02 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah i guess guys. I just want to be happy...
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: Luueschen]
#22286085 - 09/24/15 09:03 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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HPPD sounds logical
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: The Moose]
#22286087 - 09/24/15 09:04 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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The Moose said: Did somebody say HPPD?
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: Luueschen]
#22286093 - 09/24/15 09:05 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Luueschen said: Yeah i guess guys. I just want to be happy...
Recreational drugs are not what're going to make you happy. Trust me, I tried.
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: LSDreamer]
#22286495 - 09/24/15 10:56 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I refuse to accept reality and substitute is with heroin. At least that means I can actually do half the equation and take care of all my responsibilities. Who needs anything when you have the sweet blissful white rock to make everything better.
I wouldnt recommend it but works for me
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: kakashi68]
#22286512 - 09/24/15 10:59 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Solid words of advice right there.... Heroin will fix all your problems!
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: Detached]
#22286546 - 09/24/15 11:07 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Detached said: Solid words of advice right there.... Heroin will fix all your problems!

no no, not fix... POSTPONE. Till hes past his "glory years"
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: Luueschen]
#22286548 - 09/24/15 11:08 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Luueschen said: ...thoughts of hurting myself as well as paranoia, etc etc, when I try to meditate I have twisted thoughts, gory, gross, unsettling, embarrassing as it could be... if anyone could read my thoughts they would think i was some kind of nazi clone of adolf hitler crossed with lady gaga and the creature from the black lagoon.
this is about 80% due to my experience with hallucinogens, I had a sort of a non-threatening overdose when I took 30 bucks worth of extremely potent lsd mixed with salvia, my mind sort of warped and it was never really the same,
basically what im curious about is whether or not i should start dosing with LSA, namely Hawaiian baby woodrose, or possibly oliloqui, i mean the locals used it as a nerve tonic as well as a mental panacea and ive had experiences with it in the past that were neither obtrusive, uncomfortable, dangerous or harmful...
I dont know, my life is unravelling, i basically wasted the best 4 years of my life, you know 18-21, because of some shit i did when i was possessed by the devil, i may never be the same, but i just want to be happy
i have a hard time finding my happy place, my mind tells me "think about crystals" or "think about sitting on the ocean with a bottle of jagermeister" or "think about what your life would've been"
it's just sad because i was among the most well loved people in fallbrook, i mean everyone loved me, people thought i was the shit, the senior kids bought the clothes i wore and everyone told me i was awesome on a daily basis and that i was cool, etc etc etc
i just want to find a girlfriend and settle down, maybe get a nice job, move somewhere by the beach
also im worried i might go to hell or have a bad rebirth, i mean, i tried to trick the devil one time by selling my soul, then 3 years later i had a visitation vision that Jesus came to me and told me i was the chosen one
but i was just trippin, you know how it is
i hate to brag...
it just sucks because my life was perfect and now im just a schmuck. my mom calls me a drug addict because i smoke and drink and im trying to convince them im not a schizophrenic, but rather that i have bad OCD and wayward thoughts due to my drug history
But at any rate...LSA? Should I gamble with the devil again? IS it really not the devil? am I being foolish? or could this be the ticket i need out the door from hell to regular waking consciousness on earth, which i love and appreciate from the core of my being, but have a hard time dealing with these things
feedback appreciated. thanks shroomerites
-j
Welcome to the The mental fucked-up-ness club, im also a member!
Well, first I'd like to point out something. The psychedelics didnt warp your mind. Your mind was unhealthy to begin with. You probably had an underlying mental disorder that psychedelics brought out.
If you feel fucked in the head, maybe drugs fhat fuck you in the head aren't the best thing to be taking? Stay away from lsa, not only is it a shitty psychedelic, but will only make your mental health worse.
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: xbloodwhipx]
#22286555 - 09/24/15 11:11 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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OP i also had a form of disassociation called depersonalization. It was pretty severe, but now its almost non existant. Sometimes i have spells of severe depersonalization/derealization, but Its non existant most of the time. I mean, i always feel "different" than i used to, but I found ceasing the use of psychedelics to really help my mental health.
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Re: I am suffering from extreme disassociation and depression, mixed in with feelings of... [Re: xbloodwhipx]
#22287684 - 09/25/15 09:42 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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what about all this talk in the news of microdosing with mushrooms and lsd to be very good for your mental health?
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