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Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? *UPDATED, ESSAY NOW INCLUDED*
#22269870 - 09/21/15 02:55 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I am in English 101 and I have to write a paper on a life changing event that effected who I am as a person today.
I want to write about my LSD trip, and I asked the professor what she deemed appropriate for school and she said she doesn't care if it's school appropriate as long as it's interesting. Plus she seems like an old hippie, and is always telling ua about her days hitchhiking around Europe, and has talked about taking a road trip to Philly in a car full of "pot smoking hippies" in her own words.
You think it will be safe to write about this? I don't know maybe I'm being overly cautious, but I'm always like that when it comes to drugs.
ESSAY
Shortly after my eighteenth birthday I had the privilege to experience my first LSD trip. My first experience with this astonishingly captivating chemical occurred on a cold November night in 2014, and it changed my life forever. It was a night full of mystical wonder and self-exploration. As soon as the chemical took hold of me, a tremendous surge of energy and love fell over me. It was almost an overwhelming feeling of electric energy as well as a constantly growing internal peace. While it is difficult for me to articulate such a bizarre experience into words, I can definitely say that my experiences under the influence of LSD have been some of the most profound moments of my existence. To date, I have undergone four LSD trips, each incredibly unique and intriguing in their own ways. Throughout my experiences, I have gained a new appreciation for life, as well as a newfound love for my fellow man, which has shaped the person that I am today in a very drastic way.
My first time trying lysergic acid diethylamide was on an unusually cold southern Louisiana night in late November of 2014. Uncertain of what to expect and full of my usual anxiety, it took me several hours to convince myself to take the initial plunge and place the small square tab of paper on my tongue. After a seemingly endless evening of anxious contemplation, I was finally able to swallow my nerves and follow through with the deed. To calm my nerves, I decided to take a hot shower and continue on with my night until I began to feel something, and forty-five minutes later I was finally feeling that ‘something.’ Suddenly, it was if an electric surge was shooting throughout my entire body. There was definite energy that I felt deep within me, and it was rapidly dwelling up with each passing second. Soon thereafter things started to become oddly interesting. My thought process quickly became increasingly complex and abstract, as my entire view of the world began to take a new shape. All at once it was if my emotions and my six senses had been intensified tenfold. That night I felt emotions that I had never known that I was capable of feeling. While the experience was intense, I felt soothingly content with my place in this world, which was a very welcomed feeling for someone such as myself, who often has often felt discontent with his surroundings and the state of the world as a whole. Over the course of the following three months I would go on to better acquaint myself with LSD on a number of occasions. Amazed and overwhelmed with my first experience, I shared my tales of insight and discovery with my close friend, Brady. Cautious but intrigued, he ultimately made the decision to embark on a psychedelic experience with me in the early days of December of 2015. The pair of us placed the tasteless white tabs of paper upon our tongues and waited, nervous but excited with anticipation, and it was not long before the fun began. Throughout the night I felt that an underflow of love and compassion for both the world and my fellow man pour out of my body. Abruptly, the reality that I had once known was transformed into something strangely different. Although many people simply consider the visual distortion aspect of psychedelics, the psychedelic experience is much more than that. It is a temporary metamorphosis of one’s mind and senses. From our first mutual experience with the substance to now, I have only taken the chemical while in the accompaniment of Brady. As a result, I have shared several very memorable and emotionally intense moments with him since then. Brady is not the type of person to vocalize his feelings towards others, and is emotionally introverted.
Regardless of this, on one particular night Brady and I found ourselves once again under the influence of this mystical chemical. As we felt the substance beginning to take effect, we decided to take a walk. As the two of us trekked down the road, our voices pierced through the silent winter night like knives. While walking, I could not help but to examine the geometrical patterns that where emerging in the asphalt. With my vision intensified, each individual black chunk of cement that made up the road began to stand out, each pebble a rigid square, triangle, or some other geometric random shape. As we continued our journey down the endless street, our conversation drifted from the next meaningless topic to the next. We discussed school, work, and of course the subjectively effects of the drug that we were both experiencing. However meaningless the conversation had started out, our talks soon veered to more serious topics, such as life, aspirations, and love. Brady, having a young son, began to divulge to me that he doesn’t let just anyone into his home and around his family. He told me that he only allows those that he trusted into his home and around his young family. I immediately recognized the peculiar nature of the situation. Brady has a very unserious and humorous attitude, and is always cracking jokes and trying to make people laugh through some type of antic. Suddenly, my clown of a friend had become very serious, and I deeply appreciated his kind words. I felt accepted, almost as if I was an animal being accepted into a pack, or some type of sports player being recruited onto an elite team. I suddenly felt wanted, appreciated, and loved. It was at this moment that I realized the gravity of his words, and a warm wave of love and acceptance flowed over me. As a human being, I feel that most of us crave acceptance and love from our peers. Despite my past experiences with having difficulty feeling truly accepted, in a sudden and unexpected rush I had gained a very welcomed sense of belonging.
During my most recent trial with LSD, I experienced the dreaded ‘bad’ trip. I was in a terrible state-of-mind at the time, but at the urging of my friends I decided to consume the acid regardless of how I felt. This turned out to be a detrimental decision. Already in a negative mental headspace, this negativity was only exasperated by the acid. Before I could comprehend what exactly was going on, I was thrown into a mental hell. I had forced myself to undergo a very intense and exhausting experience when I did not necessarily feel quite up to it, and as a result the bad trip manifested itself in a very real way. I was overwhelmed with visual and mental stimulation. My entire field of visual had been transformed into a kaleidoscope of changing colors, while I felt that my mind had been sent into overdrive. The events of the night itself are still blurry to this day, but I distinctly remember the intense fear that I felt for the twelve hours following my initial consumption of the drug. At one instance I convinced myself that I would feel much safer at home in my own bed. Against my better judgment, I made my way outside and behind the wheel of my car. I was simply trying to escape the psychedelic nightmare that I had been plunged into. I turned the key in the ignition and the cold air from outside blasted through my air condition. I decided to sit and wait for a couple of minutes for the heat to finally kick in and for my body to warm up. The next memory that I have been able to recollect is Brady swinging my car door open and pulling me from the vehicle, cursing at me and telling me what a fool I was to get behind the wheel of a vehicle in the state that I was in. Overcome with the mental anguish of the intense fear that had manifested over me, I had nearly made a potentially costly decision. Looking back on that night, I am very grateful that my friend pulled me out of the car and forced me to go back inside his home. Had it not been for him that night, I could very well be sitting in a cage right now, or even in a casket.
Although this was my most difficult trip to date, it proved to be my most rewarding trip. I put myself in a potentially deadly situation that night, and if it wouldn’t have been for the quick thinking of a friend, there is really no way to predict what the outcome of the fateful car ride home would have been. It was this realization that has forced me to view life through a slightly different lens. I now place a greater emphasis on my personal relationships with others in my life, whether that is members of my family or close friends. I am aware that life is a very unique and strange and wonderful gift, and that can be dashed away with one unfortunately decision. More than anything, this trip has made me realize that I want a life of substance. I do not want to live a monotonous life of drudgery and familiarity. I crave a life deluging with meaning. More than anything, I want a life that is memorable.
Throughout my experimentation with acid, I have gained priceless appreciations for the world and humanity, which I truly believe has made me a better individual, at least to some degree. I have had the opportunity to share meaningful conversations and feelings with those who would have been hesitant to delve into such deep, personal dialogues had they not been under the influence of a potent psychedelic substance. These abstruse trials with LSD have, without a doubt, shaped the person whom I am in this very moment. Now aware of the fragility of life, I have been making attempts to establish more fulfilling relationships with those that I situate myself around. Although I may not be the most optimistic person in this present moment, acid has given me the opportunity to see the beautiful underbelly of life, as well as a lifetime of pondering.
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Edited by dirtyhippie (09/22/15 11:50 AM)
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie] 10
#22269885 - 09/21/15 02:58 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I think it's a bad idea.
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie] 1
#22269903 - 09/21/15 03:00 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Using a drug in the past isn't a crime.
I'd say do it...as long as it's interesting.
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie]
#22269910 - 09/21/15 03:01 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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336 said: I'd just say it was "fiction" on the cover page or the front or whatever. Not much they could do after that.
The purpose of the assignment is to write about an actual experience
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie]
#22269914 - 09/21/15 03:01 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I wrote an essay of my perfect afternoon for my English 101 Class and it was about me going to Moonrise Festival and rolling with my friends and basically being drugged and loved up the entire time and just chilling and having fun with my friends
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie] 1
#22269917 - 09/21/15 03:02 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Title it "A work of fictitious non fiction" lol
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie]
#22269944 - 09/21/15 03:08 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Just don't say anything about taking LSD, be ambiguous. Say it was a spontaneous mystical experience or something, if she's cool she wont care, just don't mention drugs. I remember I wrote a paper about psychedelics and there potential to heal for a human growth and development class, got an A.
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I wrote a paper on hallucinogens medicinal use my freshmen year. Now that I look back at it that was a really strange choice but I got a good grade.
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: Gorlax]
#22270122 - 09/21/15 03:43 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I don't really think there is much they could do even if it did offend her honestly.
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie]
#22270129 - 09/21/15 03:46 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah your fine do it, if you want you should post it here so we can all read it.
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That's a great idea! I very well may post,it here. I'd love to get a few more opinions before my post disappears into the the jungle of old shroomery posts forever lol
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie]
#22271871 - 09/21/15 10:15 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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If this is a class where you're allowed to write creatively, or to write creative non-fiction, then it would totally be fine. If the teacher is offended you might see that reflected in your grade though, so I'd suggest making sure its especially well written
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: Ezuma] 3
#22271904 - 09/21/15 10:22 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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sounds like something a dirty hippie would write about
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie] 1
#22272030 - 09/21/15 10:51 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Just tell the story from the perspective of someone who you met.. or your neighbor's dog.
You know... just to avoid anything incriminating from a legal aspect
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie]
#22272196 - 09/21/15 11:49 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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i hate liz said: I'd say do it...as long as it's interesting.
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dirtyhippie said: I don't really think there is much they could do even if it did offend her honestly.
What's your outline? What happened and why was it life changing?
If your most life changing event was a drug experience, I'm skeptical you'll get a passing grade........
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: dirtyhippie] 1
#22272243 - 09/22/15 12:09 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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dont you dare do this..
your thoughts are whacked and you should not even think of doing this.
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: JvF] 1
#22272316 - 09/22/15 12:45 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Gresh said: sounds like something a dirty hippie would write about
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jfischer218 said: Just use SWIM and youre in the clear
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Re: Writing a college paper about my LSD trip? [Re: nicechrisman]
#22272400 - 09/22/15 01:50 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Well shit, I'm conflicted. Some of you say yes, some say no and that it's a shitty idea. I wrote the paper already and it's pretty much about this time I had a bad trip and I wanted to go home to my bed because I felt like that was my safe place, so tripping ballz i got into my car and was about to leave when my friend pulled me from the car and dragged me back inside. It kinda made me reconsider life in a way and I'm just more aware of the real fragility of life and as a result, it has made me want to establish better relationships with people because it made me realize how potentially different things could have ended. I just hope she doesn't think I'm a dirty druggie or some shit after reading it.
She holds office hours tomorrow all day and the paper is due Wednesday, so I think I should visit her in her office and let her read it, that way if she has a problem with it then she can tell me before Wednesday.
What do you guys think? I doubt she's gonna call the feds lolol
Anyway, leave me some answers and I will make a a decision in the morning based on the responses.
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Edited by dirtyhippie (09/22/15 02:03 AM)
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DiscoBiscuitsTrip said: Just don't say anything about taking LSD, be ambiguous. Say it was a spontaneous mystical experience or something, if she's cool she wont care, just don't mention drugs. I remember I wrote a paper about psychedelics and there potential to heal for a human growth and development class, got an A.
Yea. Don't state LSD. Leave some magical influence behind what cause of events. Cover with thoughtful art like depiction not giving calling out exactly what is. Calling out exactly what be spoils mystery.
We don't talk about it.
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