Home | Community | Message Board


This site includes paid links. Please support our sponsors.


Welcome to the Shroomery Message Board! You are experiencing a small sample of what the site has to offer. Please login or register to post messages and view our exclusive members-only content. You'll gain access to additional forums, file attachments, board customizations, encrypted private messages, and much more!

Shop: Kraken Kratom Kratom Capsules for Sale, Red Vein Kratom   Unfolding Nature Unfolding Nature: Being in the Implicate Order

Jump to first unread post Pages: < Back | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4  [ show all ]
InvisibleFletcher
Male

Registered: 06/14/15
Posts: 679
Re: Suicide? [Re: lowbrow]
    #22271044 - 09/21/15 07:11 PM (8 years, 4 months ago)

Mike Altman, a 14 year old, wrote the lyrics to that song.


Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Offlinekoods
Ribbit
Male User Gallery


Registered: 05/26/11
Posts: 106,059
Loc: Maryland/DC Burbs
Last seen: 1 hour, 15 minutes
Re: Suicide? [Re: Fletcher] * 1
    #22271056 - 09/21/15 07:15 PM (8 years, 4 months ago)

It must suck to be mentally tortured by catholic ideology and know there is no escape except a natural death.


--------------------
NotSheekle said
“if I believed she was 16 I would become unattracted to her”


Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Offlinespecialpeopleclub
Male User Gallery


Registered: 04/10/14
Posts: 5,584
Loc: Mitten
Last seen: 3 years, 7 months
Re: Suicide? [Re: AllGreyThumbs]
    #22272277 - 09/22/15 12:21 AM (8 years, 4 months ago)

Quote:

AllGreyThumbs said:
I've thought about it quite a bit.  I've even gone as far as to sit with a loaded pistol in my mouth just to see if I was ready to follow through.

My reasons are because I am a dreamer and a free thinker that has been shoehorned into spending almost every single day going somewhere I don't want to go and doing things I don't really want to do.  I will spend the best years of my life serving a social and economic system that I don't agree with or wish to support.  Yet it is imperative to have money in order to do much of anything in life.

My choices are, devote my life to this soulless corporation, that soulless corporation, or spend 18 hours a day ruining something that I love by turning it into a business that must be able to compete against giant soulless corporations.

Example:  "Yes, you really need that $3000 bicycle that I happen to have in inventory.  Much better than the $700 one that could serve you well for the rest of your life.  No, I cannot show you how to fix or adjust it.  That is my secret.  Just bring it back here and pay me to do what you could do in five minutes if you knew how."

Or, "By some miracle I actually had an idea that is useful.  Alas I can't just give it away so that everyone can use it and improve their life.  Nope, I must claim it as my own and then sell it to them while fighting to make sure nobody steals the idea that is mine because it happened to appear in my head and not somebody else's."

How does someone who's sole purpose in life is to challenge convention find a place within society?  I mean somebody has to challenge convention or else we will never have much new, but what happens when a person like me doesn't fall into some source of money that I can live with?

Then there is my wife.  I try to tell her that I am desperately unhappy, and she mocks me and calls me dramatic.  My family of course would side with her because in their eyes I am strange and would be best served by just being normal.  My employer requires that I be mentally sound on paper, so any mental illness would threaten the earning power that I do have.  Worrying about money would not make my life any better.

Hmm, what else?  How about working a blue collar job where you are supposed to suck it up and be tough.  Asking for help wouldn't really fly.  How about living in a rural area where mental health services are decades behind, if you can find them at all.

And then I think about what any "help" actually means.  "Help" means occasionally talking to someone about my feelings and then being medicated so that a can return to my place in service to corporate America.

"Dreaming of different ways of life son?  Don't be silly.  This is the way it is.  Just take these pills and get back to work.  Only a few more decades and then you can retire.  Make sure to help your children get an education so that they can also spend their lives doing thing they don't really want to do in order to keep stock prices up."

Or maybe "Life kind of sucks, isn't there any other way."

"Nope, but these pills will make you feel better about spending your life supporting a system that you don't believe in."

So near as I can figure, I have no way out.  I need money, so I must serve some soulless company in order to get it.  Nobody I know would support or help me do anything different.  My wife would fuck me over if I tried and then I could add not having money to my woes.  Getting help would probably also cost me my job since I have to be mentally fit on paper, so again the no money problem.  Even if I did get help it would only end up with me being drugged and then set back to finish my life's work of helping keep some company or another's stock price up.

So, yep, I've sat at the edge.  One click away from death, wouldn't even hear the shot since those particular rounds move faster than sound.

But here is something that I realized while sitting at the edge.  If you are at that point then you have nothing left to lose.  You might as well try anything.  Quit a job, ditch a wife, get in a car and drive away for a while, burn through a life savings.  Whatever.

At that point there is nothing left that you can lose.  There is nothing life can take that you aren't willing to throw away, so why not then try something, anything.  Take the gun, carefully package and hide it so that you can always come back for it, and then go take on the world.  Live boldly and without fear.  Do whatever the hell you damn well please.  Chase whatever seems to make you happy.  If it doesn't work out you can always come back and die later.

I suppose what you realize at the edge is that there is always some kind of option.  It may not make sense or seem sustainable, but logically you might as well at least try.  Nothing left to lose right?

Then why do people follow through?  Why don't they all see what some of us see at the edge?

To me I suspect social pressures play a huge role here.  Logically it makes sense to make some massive changes to life if that is what it takes.  Why not do something radical at that point?  Except that social pressures can prevent it.  "What would people think if I left my wife and kids and quit my job," someone might worry.  "Sure having me alive and distant is better than me being dead, but other people won't understand that choice, the reason that I had to make a radical life change.  They will not even believe that I was that close to pulling the trigger and may even belittle me over it."

Another factor is exhaustion.  If you've reached the end of your rope and can barely get through a routine day, how do you muster the energy to make radical life changes.  I guess that might be a good time to run away for a bit, grab a ton of cash and just go sleep in a hotel for two weeks or something before even trying to form a new life plan.

Mostly it is just that people see things only getting worse.  "Even if I were to make massive changes to my life I would only end up with the same problems, but less money."

In the end I'm not sure what to say about the topic.  Maybe that not everyone is cut out for spending their lives as working stiffs.  Maybe there are only so many slots for artists and dreamers and visionaries and when those slots are filled up in your corner of society you default to corporate servant.  That's a hard pill to swallow for people with hopes and dreams.

49 weeks serving the man, 3 to enjoy yourself, now back work another year.  Only a few more decades and your children and grandchildren will replace you in pursuit of the American dream.  Now we're really living!



The thing is, as long as you beath hope does exist in every moment. The world is aweful, and it is uNderstamdable to want to leave it because, holy fickmot is aweful. Thinhs may not improve. You can only try to fimd the crack to slip through to become one with your true self. Once you die, well, that is that.
Personally, as a depressed person who agrees about the garbage human systems, but I would rather live and battle my depression amd reasonable complaints about how fucking aweful this aweful world is, then give up now, because death will come. It only seems like it will take forever, wjen once it is upon you, it will seem as though it always had been. As every moment does to the last


--------------------


Edited by specialpeopleclub (09/22/15 12:22 AM)


Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Offlineaciddrop
Lich King
Male


Registered: 07/08/14
Posts: 470
Loc: Hell
Last seen: 7 years, 9 months
Re: Suicide? [Re: specialpeopleclub]
    #22272883 - 09/22/15 07:26 AM (8 years, 4 months ago)

There's no point in life especially when you realize that life is just one big fucking cosmic joke. Since we never really die, it's perfectly fine to hit the reset button.


--------------------


Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Jump to top Pages: < Back | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4  [ show all ]

Shop: Kraken Kratom Kratom Capsules for Sale, Red Vein Kratom   Unfolding Nature Unfolding Nature: Being in the Implicate Order


Similar ThreadsPosterViewsRepliesLast post
* easiest method of suicide?
( 1 2 3 4 all )
Razman 10,222 70 02/24/05 03:38 PM
by Woland
* Parkinson's disease ThirdEyeOpening 1,902 17 06/01/08 03:31 AM
by ThirdEyeOpening
* Suicide Kids... PDU 854 3 08/07/03 12:08 AM
by PDU
* suicide LeftyBurnz 369 12 11/26/07 04:48 PM
by LeftyBurnz
* Police investigating Castle Rock suicide-by-decapitation Deadmaker 1,452 9 08/04/07 10:51 AM
by Primal Glitch
* Terrell Owens Attempts Suicide WhiskeyClone 1,047 8 04/11/11 06:43 AM
by Internetvirus
* Suicide is expensive HighTek 999 11 04/29/07 03:49 PM
by HighTek
* Hunter S. Thompson shot himself today
( 1 2 3 4 5 6 all )
FeveredEgo 11,432 102 02/23/05 12:15 PM
by TheDudeAbides

Extra information
You cannot start new topics / You cannot reply to topics
HTML is disabled / BBCode is enabled
Moderator: Entire Staff
4,236 topic views. 5 members, 38 guests and 27 web crawlers are browsing this forum.
[ Show Images Only | Sort by Score | Print Topic ]
Search this thread:

Copyright 1997-2024 Mind Media. Some rights reserved.

Generated in 0.023 seconds spending 0.007 seconds on 14 queries.