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Janky Tits

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Beautiful Shrooming experience
#22261366 - 09/19/15 06:11 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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So yesterday I woke up and took roughly 2.5 grams of Psilocybe Cyans. It was powdered.
I dosed at 7:30 and at 8:20 I was tripping. I could see the room shifting and moving and I began to feel the sense that I was losing touch with reality and with myself. I hugged my pillow and I began to feel that I was was fusing with the pillow and that I was turning into a new entity. I began to feel a very distinct tryptamine vibe that I always get when I either smoke DMT or eat shrooms. It is very tell tale and the best way I can describe it is that my vision begins to fractal and sort of shifts out into separate dimensions like a accordion if that makes sense. This is what makes LSD different than psilocybin and DMT. I begin to feel like I'm somewhere else completely. In a strange dimension, I can sense that I have shifted into another plain of existence.
I looked at the room and the curtains and they were morphing and changing and I began to feel a strange feeling. It felt almost like ego death because I felt very out of it and I felt unsettled by the feeling that I was no longer me but that I was being welded with the space around me.
That's when the hallucinogenic aspect of the trip died down and that's when the internal and mental review began. I began to think about my life in a very deep and straight forward way. I began to think about my relationships and the people in my life and that is where things got kind of uncomfortable and hard to deal with. I had a hard time holding on to myself, I was reaching ego death and I was afraid to because I felt empty and alone. I was thinking about the people in my life and seeking some sort of solace in my bonds with people but it was hard to hold on to something and it was frightening.
This is also the point where the mushrooms made me confront my problems and raw emotions that I was afraid to confront.
So basically all my friends went off to college and I've been feeling kind of alone lately. I recently met these girls at a festival who I really bonded with and rolled with on MDMA and I have been wanting to reunite with them and become their friends but I've been scared as fuck that they wouldn't be interested anymore and that our experience together at the festival was just a one time thing. I was afraid at confronting this problem and this issue that was bothering me because I feared that i had no good way of telling them basically that I wanted to be their friends without sounding pressed and that I would creep them out and they would not want to be my friends again.
The mushrooms made me confront this issue that was bothering me and helped me find a excellent way to tell them I wanted to be their friends. I've come to realize that these girls I met at the Fest are the girls and people I want to be around for the rest of my life. These girls make me happy and I want to travel the world with them and be with them and they basically mean the world to me now. There is that hippie saying that "Surround yourself with people that make you happy" and that is what I see in these girls. They make me happy I want to be with them.
So after I confronted the problem a wave of pure and beautiful euphoria took over. I have never had a trip that has been 100% positive. All my past trips have been somewhat of a mixed bag. This trip however was euphoric and positivity driven and the conclusion of the trip was absolutely blissful. I came to peace with everything in the universe and with my myself and with the people in my life. The mushrooms helped me solve my problem and pushed me in the right direction and have helped me come to peace with everything in my life and have taught me so much about what I was doing wrong and they taught me so much about how to be a companionate and loving human and how to make my life better and how to just be a better human and to be the best I can possibly be.
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Hanz
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Re: Beautiful Shrooming experience [Re: Janky Tits]
#22261453 - 09/19/15 06:30 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
Janky Tits said: So after I confronted the problem a wave of pure and beautiful euphoria took over.
It's beautiful how a trip can turn around like this. Glad to hear you got so much positivity out of it! The best of luck with making those girls your friends. Have confidence, and I believe all shall be well. Was it McKenna who said something like: the Universe rewards courage?.. I'm sure it rewards confidence as well.
Love, Hanz.
-------------------- Small scale alternative parties rich in empathy and extravagance. Happen to know of one in the vicinity of Amsterdam? PM me my dear fellow. I love to meet some other freaks. Oh and, if you can,.. embrace the nyctomorph. It needs you.
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Jeff Vader
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Re: Beautiful Shrooming experience [Re: Hanz]
#22263694 - 09/20/15 07:41 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Awesome report!

Nothing quite like going through a difficult trip only to come out better on the other side. Now all you need to do is follow through on the new found insight.
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“With four hundred milligrams of moksha-medicine in their bloodstreams, even beginners can catch a glimpse of the world as it looks to someone who has been liberated from his bondage to the ego.”
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Janky Tits

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Re: Beautiful Shrooming experience [Re: Jeff Vader]
#22268512 - 09/21/15 09:12 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thank you both for reading
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voodoochild1000
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Re: Beautiful Shrooming experience [Re: Janky Tits]
#22268523 - 09/21/15 09:16 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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.....This is what mush is all about!...the lessons of Love.!..
-------------------- ....."So Great!"....-Me on 1.5mg LSD ...."We don't need this" -Larkin in response to my "just picked wild LSD!" post
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