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Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time
#22251787 - 09/17/15 03:34 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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So yesterday I got fucked for the first time, with a condom. I've been having gay thoughts for several months so I had to act on it. It went well (I'm not gay but a bit bi at times) and I don't really have regrets, or maybe I'm suppressing them. He was 40, met on craigslst, rich as fuck (nice house, 3 dogs, and a relatively new jaguar convertible). He helped me sort some things out and I think I'm happy that happened. I may be asexual or bisexual, but not straight or gay.
I'm just worried about STDs. He said he was clean, he looked fine and he used a condom. I'll get tested in 12 weeks but until then I'll just be paranoid I guess
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Anonymous #1]
#22251842 - 09/17/15 03:45 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Things!
No but really OP, I think the odds of you having contracted an STI from that encounter are pretty damn low. If the guy looked clean in other aspects of his life, he's probably clean sexually as well. You used a condom, which is your best layer of defense. Did you provide or request the condom, or did he? Because if he did, that's probably a habit of his, therefore making him less likely to be an STI-laden mess.
You were smart to get the testing going, but put yourself at ease. I'm sure they will come back negative.
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: r.lutece]
#22252269 - 09/17/15 05:27 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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How was it?
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Black_Sunset]
#22252953 - 09/17/15 07:36 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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You're fine. You did everything right. It's not worth getting tested after an experience like this.
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Anonymous #1] 6
#22253088 - 09/17/15 08:02 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Not to sound pessimistic, but you might be pregnant.
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: jahrastafareye] 1
#22253751 - 09/17/15 10:27 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Aww yiss motherfucken gay sex
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: koods]
#22253763 - 09/17/15 10:28 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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koods said: You're fine. You did everything right. It's not worth getting tested after an experience like this.
I'm a student so it'd be free, I don't think it'd hurt-- I had sex with a slut once, probably should get tested lol
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Anonymous #1]
#22254754 - 09/18/15 07:01 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Sounds hot
Glad you enjoyed
Also if want a powerful.sex drive 
Itlle make ya wanna cream day in and day out
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: jahrastafareye]
#22256613 - 09/18/15 03:02 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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[mod edit: enough with the gremlin spamming]
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: The Doobie Dude]
#22259617 - 09/19/15 10:30 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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why are you worried about std's?
you were safe
hell, I never am and i'm still clean somehow
you're fine. good luck
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Anonymous #2] 2
#22286588 - 09/24/15 11:25 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I just don't want to be gay. I think I only resorted to this because I'm depressed and lonely. Women are physically beautiful but sometimes I just want to be fucked. I don't know what to do... I have twisted sexual repressions and they are driving me mad.
Please don't judge to harsh here: nsfw warning
I just recently got over my Oedipus problem. From 13+18 I often fantasized about my mother. From 10 to present day I still get really into beastality. And then I was fucked by a random dude on Craigslist, I practically just wanted to be used. I just want to feel normal. I hate this. My only encounter with a girl 2 years ago ended in me not even getting hard until after she gave up and the mood was killed. If a dime laid down in front of me, I'd probably not even know what to do... Only twisted shit turns me on. Social hierarchy is seethrough to me, I can see people's motives at their most basic level due to overanalyzation. I'd really just like to get back onto the normal boat. I'm good looking, kind and sad. So dull. But only when you get to know me would you realize it
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Anonymous #1] 1
#22286611 - 09/24/15 11:35 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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well, at least you are being honest with yourself
you sound more masochistic than gay
the oedipus thing i haven't a clue, but if it's gone who cares
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: micro]
#22286773 - 09/25/15 12:37 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Don't feel so abnormal for "wanting to be used;" it's a lot more common than you think. There's a reason that rape fantasy porn exists. Some people just want to submit sometimes, nothing wrong with it. Beastiality, though not socially acceptable, is another form of submission. The urge to give into an animalistic drive, to be dominated, etc. It really isn't so uncommon. You know what I would suggest? Look up pegging if you don't know what it is, see if that might be something that interests you.
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: r.lutece]
#22287822 - 09/25/15 10:30 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Definitely not into pegging... I used to fantasize about teachers or neighbors or any older woman coming into my house and-- again-- using me for their own pleasure. Recently its just turned gay though. I find nothing attractive about a man besides the idea that he wants to get his rocks off. Goddamn human condition. Women are beautiful-- practical works of art-- the desire of man is something else
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Anonymous #1]
#22301912 - 09/28/15 09:27 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Op budding sexuality can be fluid and change through life. It's real common in women especially. So you like being used? Who cares. Don't let people pigeon hole you into a label you like what you like but don't hate yourself for how you feel.
The Oedipus and beastiality stuff may very well just be you getting turned on by fucked up shit but not something you'd ever act on.
An example..... I had a friend who was molested. He was terrified of kids because he got it in his head that since he was molested he'd molest kids if he ever hung around them. Totally silly way of thinking but you couldn't tell him otherwise.
Well I took him with me on a field trip at my sisters school. He didn't wanna get out of the car I had to drag him out physically it was a whole scene. I assured him I'd be around and keep an eye out.
Well we had a blast at the zoo he got some real interaction with a shit load of kids and realized his fears were irrational had no desire or thoughts or anything kid related. That was like 4 years ago and I've asked him a couple times since out of curiosity he says nothing no thoughts fears nothing. And I quote "I was afraid of flying sharks, they don't exist."
Also side note op......you may also realize over time you actually are gay....don't sweat it man once you get over the self hate and guilt its a pretty normal life.
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Rewindicus] 1
#22302943 - 09/28/15 01:39 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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sounds like you need those worries pounded right out of that tight little ass of yours op.
seriously though, i wouldn't sweat it. just do what you feel and try not to worry about labels. linking behavior to identity, especially in the case of sexuality, is a relic of the late nineteenth century during the birth of psychology. the greeks engaged in all sorts of behavior we would try to label as gay (and criminal, if we are being completely honest here), but they never used that behavior to construct an identify. there's something deeply profound about that.
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Anonymous #1]
#22304352 - 09/28/15 06:20 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Anonymous said: So yesterday I got fucked for the first time, with a condom. I've been having gay thoughts for several months so I had to act on it. It went well (I'm not gay but a bit bi at times) and I don't really have regrets, or maybe I'm suppressing them. He was 40, met on craigslst, rich as fuck (nice house, 3 dogs, and a relatively new jaguar convertible). He helped me sort some things out and I think I'm happy that happened. I may be asexual or bisexual, but not straight or gay.
I'm just worried about STDs. He said he was clean, he looked fine and he used a condom. I'll get tested in 12 weeks but until then I'll just be paranoid I guess
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Some STDs are visible some are invisible.
Rich = 100000% less likely to be infected.
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Patlal]
#22310534 - 09/29/15 07:41 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Ha ha. Rich. Jaguar does not equal rich. OP, you can't judge a book by it's cover. But I'm sure you're fine. Good luck
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Re: Settle my nerves -- had gay sex for the first time [Re: Patlal]
#22311026 - 09/29/15 09:18 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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If magic johnson can catch gay fever, anyone can.
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