Once upon time
I starting to get sick at work , i loved my work, i am a guy that can indeed do the much form for work , to the easy stuff too lead company's.
For a time i was doing it all at once, year after year. and finally one day one hits burn own.
The doctors told, it was because i am bipolar , and i was not used any drugs of any form besides weed. to keep control. but weed was not allowed , and when i started on sick pay and this things , i had to start out with the drug systems that is ok here. mood stabilisator and this and that.
I got married under this times, but he relationship ent in the toilette , both was pill eaters , so we lost each others in pills...
I have stopped with all my farma meds. and do of course feel better of it.
But it go high and low still. i am on disability so i dont need to work. some luck there.
But with the help of the mushroom and cannabis i will regain and be well. this will i wish for myself.
I am writing a book about this now a days.
My hypotese , is that the once with bipolar disorder is made this way from the nature side. and are in many ways gifts to this world. the ones that inspire others and share dreams. it is a sad thing when governments,systems and pressure this down on them.
bipolar disorder have been there so long as humans have been there, if we think back some, before there where any pills. it is common thinking as well as reason , that they used plants. cubensis as well as cannabis. there is shamans where i live , shamans can be mysterious to speak with, because they must "hide" well in the modern society , but the wisdom is there 
i have lost my spore bank , witch is a very petty , and i hope and pray mother/Gaia that spores and prints will find my way again... so i dont have to return more to this shitty pills..
So the wisdom and point in this somewhat sad story , is that if you have bipolar disorder, stay of all the pills, stay also away from amphetamine ,Coke and this things as well. and i am pretty sure you will get a better life with stability.
I have a MD that monitors my health, with in he`s turn is a academic , and makes note of my progress. if i get a sucksess with this. more can be freed from farma and have better lifes.
anyhow , in this time when everything was "dark" for me" it was cubensis that gave the spark to want to live again. no pill cud ever hope to do this with me..
thanks for this great board witch is full of nice reading and wise thoughts !
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