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FIRST & LAST time doing shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience, another dimension &went blind *DELETED* 2
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Post deleted by somechick<p>Reason for deletion: No reason, just wish to delete it.
So i wanted to share my experience with shrooms. It was only a few months ago when i did shrooms for the first time. I grew a batch of Mazatepec and Golden teacher mushrooms. Decided i want to grow them to get the full experience and learn a thing or two. Now, i am not sure how much i did, but i intended on taking 2.5 grams. But not until a few weeks after the experience did i realize that my scale was broken and i had done anywhere between 5 and 10 grams. (perhaps even more) my experience was intense. And im here to share it.
10:00 pm - Weighed the mushrooms and ingested them with some freshly chopped ginger. I took a picture and sent it to a friend because i felt like my scale was broken. He said it looked fine. Here is the picture- ( i would love a guess at how much i took that night based on the picture) BTW i could barely hold all the shrooms in one handful and there were over 15 caps....)
10:30 pm - I already started to become uncoordinated, visuals already began. I started seeing auras more intensely and seeing kaleidoscopic visuals. I already start becoming anxious.
10:40 pm- the effects were too much for me to handle, and i was getting very sleepy from being overwhelmed mentally. My panic attack started at about now.
10:50 pm- I tried to fight the Mushrooms with some Xanax, but it didn't work. I took three times the amount of Xanax i usually need to calm down, but it didn't effect me in the least. I went into my room and wrote a will because i was convinced i was dying. At this point i couldn't walk, felt dizzy and the hallucinations were flying.
12:00 pm- My father took me to the Emergency room because i said i ate something poisonous. They asked what i took, and i told them i took some of the 'portabello mushrooms i was growing'. Great cover, huh. (once we got in the car i told him what i actually took but he took me regardless)
Now, between the times of 12:00 and 3 am i do not remember when what happened. But I will explain to the best of my ability.
Once i got into the Emergency room, i was taken and asked some questions. At this point i became ashamed of myself and confessed that i had been growing shrooms. (my father didn't get upset, he understand i've been going through hard times with PTSD and other mental illnesses... so he let it slide) I don't remember much, but at this point, i was crying my eyes out and terrified of death. My speech was slurred and i couldn't put a proper sentence together. I remember they finally took me into a room. At this point, i was completely gone. I had no idea where i was, i couldn't see anything because the hallucinations were so intense that i could only see the color black and occasional stripes of purple. And even though they were sticking IV needles into me to clean out my system and taking blood samples, i had no idea this was happening. I was totally emerged into another realm of existence. I don't remember much but a deep feeling of shame and humility. I kept mumbling, "i'm hiding, i was hiding, i've been hiding, im scared, im a liar, piece of shit" I had such a deep sense of humility i was disgusted by who i 'was'. FInally, after probably thirty minutes, they had drained some of the psilocybin from my system and i could begin to see. And i thought my doctor was staring at me from the corner of the room and that people were talking about me in the hallway. ( reminds me of the song 'brain damage' by Pink Floyd where it goes "the lunatics are in the hall... the lunatics are in my head...". At one point, my mother kept trying to come into my room. I kept telling the nurses to take her away because she is 'blind and sick'. My mother abused me my whole life, and i have PTSD because of her. At one point she came in crying, trying to hug me... and i told her to get off of me. Then i looked into her eyes and felt a deep empathy for her because she could never see the beauty i see in life. She can never understand the beauty of dancing in the rain or any type of art. I told her, "i know you didn't know any better, i know you're mother treated you the same way, but why did you treat me the same way she treated you?" She couldn't comprehend anything i was saying, she assumes she is the victim ( she has a personality disorder being a sick cocktail of sociopathy and narcissism) I told her she needs to leave to let me die in peace, but i forgive her for what she can't control. She left. And my father left. A nurse came in to check on me now, and i wasn't scared anymore. Not because i understood i was going to die, but because i wasn't scared to die. I had reached a level of fear where i couldn't have become any more scared, so the fear vanished. In that moment i understood the only thing to fear is fear itself.... not even death. I told her to "Please let me die, death is beautiful". I saw that beyond this life there is a realm of existence where only happiness or pain exists. Nothing humanly. It was extremely creepy for her to hear, because that was the first clearly put sentence i presented to her. She said i was not to die.
So then everyone left... and it was me alone in the room. Now i begin to have an inability to recognize my own body. And i saw myself without my own distorted perception of myself. I saw myself for what i am. I didn't know it, but i experienced a complete death of my ego and an out of body experience. And it was freeing. I saw three different dimensions. I saw where i was living in, inside of a body ( which i thought was a cage, the body, was no more than a cage to the soul) I was outside of my body. And i saw where others live, and then i saw this dimension i cannot explain. It was somewhere in between where we live as humans and where the spiritual world exists. I entered it for a second, and my heart rate jumped, and the nurses ran in. I cannot explain that correlation or coincidence. Every Time i realized something new, my heart rate jumped. I saw through not only myself, but through our whole system. I saw the innately unimportant ness of money, sex, fame, and anything else selfish and unattached to the spiritual world. I saw money as literally just 'green shit'.I had an urge to burn all my money. The last thing I noticed was that i wasn't wearing any shoes, and i thought 'how weird are these people who wear shoes, isn't it healthier to not wear shoes?" shoes looked really fucking weird. They looked like these ridiculous hats for our feet. But once the mushrooms wore away, i noticed my feet again, and i became 'embarrassed' for being barefoot and in sweatpants and acting so irrationally. After they wore away, i became attached to my body once again. When i got home, i was so shocked that i was still alive. I felt so happy. And now, looking back on that experience much time later, i feel free. And i think i did die that day, but in a way, i was re-born. I will probably do shrooms again, in the far future, because i have much more to learn. I wrote the following that night when I had reached the emergency room and I finally understood I was not going to die-
“I’m laying down in the emergency room, and the walls look fucking trippy. But amongst this beauty I can’t help but cry for the human race. We all forget we are going to die someday. We get so caught up in bullshit like television, sex, money, religion, power and fame that we feel like we can become immortal to time itself as if we have an endless supply of time. If anything, time becomes a burden while you’re waiting for your next high. All of this is nothing but a distraction from our inevitable deaths. We forget that our bodies are only cages to the soul and are nothing truly important to be appeasing. And when we give into our selfish humanly desires and forget about love and happiness which were made to fill our souls with satisfaction, true satisfaction, we let our spirits become nothing more than slaves to the mortal body. And that insures the death of beauty as we romanticize with selfishness.” –June, 2015
A week ago i wrote this (based on the understanding of fear i had acquired from the experience i had on shrooms)-
I’ve always been attracted to what I’m scared of, and even terrified of. And I am petrified of the unknown. I’ll admit to you that I cannot sleep without a nightlight because of my PTSD. Not that I am scared of the darkness itself, but my imagination lets me assume what might be walking and clawing and staring at me inside the dark inches away from my face. It’s not what we expect that scares us, it’s what we didn’t expect. But I wonder, why is it that I am so in love with what I cannot understand and never will understand? I know what it is, my curiosity. My curiosity tells me that though I am scared of the unknown, petrified of it, there might be something in the unknown that could make me feel as elevated in wisdom and understanding as high as my adrenaline elevates when I get scared. Because on the opposite end of fear is freedom, and If I had the ability to take a chance with the unknown, I might access the opposite end of fear once I have walked through it. And once the fear of the unknown has vanished all that lies is the wisdom and peace. Just as when the water fades all that remains are fish for the picking. If I let myself drown for a second I might harvest my very own fish of wisdom if I’m lucky. I think I might be ready to leave my fear of the unknown for the beauty of wisdom and peace.
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: somechick]
#22224169 - 09/11/15 08:42 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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This thread was moved from Shroomery University.
Reason: Belongs here.
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: Middleman]
#22224247 - 09/11/15 08:52 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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thanks
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: somechick]
#22224329 - 09/11/15 09:14 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thank you for your kind words. I also hope my next experience will be more 'pleasant'.
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: somechick]
#22226098 - 09/12/15 08:17 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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How do you know your scale is off? The res is super low on that pic, so it is kind of difficult to tell, but that looks about 2.5g to me.
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: shroomizzy]
#22227308 - 09/12/15 02:20 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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The scale was broken because I later realized that it kept measuring the same object with different outcomes. Yeah sorry the pic is so bad I had to take it from a text message i sent to a friend. I'm certain that i did more than 2.5 grams.
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: somechick]
#22229908 - 09/13/15 03:45 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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And when we give into our selfish humanly desires and forget about love and happiness which were made to fill our souls with satisfaction, true satisfaction, we let our spirits become nothing more than slaves to the mortal body. And that insures the death of beauty as we romanticize with selfishness.”
I like. <3 thank you
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: berdinwall]
#22230432 - 09/13/15 08:34 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thank you
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: somechick]
#22231873 - 09/13/15 01:46 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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That is quite possibly all that happened, i can agree on having a more sensitive nervous system for sure... Regardless, i think thw picture has really bad quality and doesnt really show how thick the layers of shrooms were when stacked on top of each other. The picture doesnt really present the thickness. I guess i should say that i couldn't hold them all in one hand. But thank you again for your comments i Iappreciate them
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: somechick]
#22231923 - 09/13/15 01:57 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I had ego death from 2.5 grams once. I grew them. They were potent as fuck. Everyone else was super fucked too
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: somechick]
#22231927 - 09/13/15 01:58 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thanks for sharing chick, wish you the best in life, with your PTSD, and with your future trips.
I can't zoom in on the picture very far but i'd say it's maybe 3.5-4g on the higher end. They look to be pretty skinny, and only one is larger than your pinky that i can tell. Are those fresh or dried? The pic i'm getting is pretty blurry.
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: Om Namo Shivaya]
#22232101 - 09/13/15 02:45 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thanks man i appreciate it. And yeah i think that it was somewhere around that range. They were dried. Cracker dry... so im assuming thats why they were so small
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: berdinwall]
#22232108 - 09/13/15 02:46 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thats intense. Must've been really potent!
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: somechick]
#22238062 - 09/14/15 06:47 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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One of the best trip reports ive ever read. Beautiful honestly...
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Re: First and last time doing shrooms- did 5+ grams. (moved) [Re: trvptamine] 1
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Thanks man i appreciate it!
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: somechick]
#22320066 - 10/01/15 05:08 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Just started reading but I already have to stop you "I took three times the amount of Xanax i usually need to calm down, but it didn't effect me in the least." That is where you fucked up really bad my friend. Although people just love to spread that xanax is cool to pop to relax you on psychedelics, more times than not it will cause you to lose your fucking mind. My brother, an experienced tripper, was in a similar situation as yourself, panicking in a new apartment. One of his buddies had the bright idea of giving him Xanax (way too much) and it made him lose his mind, xanax+psychedelics is an awful fucking combination for a lot of people, the xanax can essentially cause you to lose control of your trip altogether and practically go insane. My brother is one of the most mature people I know, he always has his shit together and things have never gone south when I roll with him, that night he ended up in the hospital because of the god damn xanax.
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Gravities]
#22320075 - 10/01/15 05:12 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Also, you have bigger balls than me for tripping with PTSD. I cannot comprehend how some of you people trip mushrooms with an unclear conscious, I wait for just the right time to do it and even then its so intense. Props, and a great trip report. Please do something more relaxing next time, during the middle of the day with your friends, and I'm sure you'll have a great experience.
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Gravities]
#22324133 - 10/02/15 02:50 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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You can write very well, I enjoyed reading it a a lot. But heavens why did you not use a properly working scale? You can't trip without good scales. If my scale was broken I simply wouldn't trip.
It must have been very scary thinking you'd die, but in reality nothing can happen if all you took was shrooms. The emergency room, parents, and the whole guilt thing will only make matters worse. Had you been out in the woods in some distant cabin it would probably all have been just a very heavy trip, but none of the trauma, family stuff, etc.
Glad to hear you at least consider tripping again... means in the end you came out fine 
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Hanz]
#22352620 - 10/08/15 11:48 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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first mistake was wanting to go to the hospital. you should a rode it out.
alot of feelings inside come to the surface in these trips. This is a blessing
thanks for sharing
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Gravities]
#22419870 - 10/22/15 07:41 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thanks for your advice, its a good thing you said that about xanax, if you hadnt i probably wouldve made the same mistake. Thanks for all the positivity and advice:)
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Hanz]
#22419880 - 10/22/15 07:44 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thanks man, im glad you like my writing! And ill keep that in mind next time. Ill make sure im somewhere safe, and my scale isnt broken
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: somechick]
#22426963 - 10/24/15 12:07 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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So much fail in this thread. 
Consumed an unknown dose; Failed to have a sitter/backup plan; Tried to abort the un-abortable with Xanax in utterly inappropriate doses; Lied to parents and medical professionals about what you had ingested...and on and on.
At what part in this whole charade did you forget that the "lethal dose" of cubensis is essentially infinity? All you managed to do is take up a cubicle in an emergency room better suited to an individual with a legitimate medical need, and turned a bunch of medical professionals into your babysitters because of your numerous errors in judgment.

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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Nature Boy]
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Nature Boy said: So much fail in this thread. 
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Nature Boy, I always love to read your posts. You are well informed and experienced, and usually right. As you are now. Did OP do stupid things? Plenty!
However, I also believe that sometimes, people who make mistakes should be approached with sympathy and simply positively encouraged to do things better next time.
If you don't, you run the risk of exposing your own bitter side, which (I think) does not help them at all. And I wonder if it helped you in any way...
Sorry if this bugs you , I mean well for all. Respect. 
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Hanz]
#22428118 - 10/24/15 04:38 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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No, I'm not upset at all with what you wrote. Furthermore, I'm certainly not displaying a "bitter" side - rather, I'm displaying what you might call a unique side, which I will explain.
As a cardiac, thoracic, and vascular surgeon who has spent many, many hours over far too many years moonlighting in an emergency room, I have a certain bias against patients showing up in an emergency room setting under non-emergent circumstances. Folks with no primary care physicians, for example, who use the ER every time they get a cold or the flu or a bump or a cut. We call them "GOOMERS" which stands for "Get Out Of My Emergency Room."
In this particular case, OP was a GOOMER. She had no business taking up valuable ER resources and personnel. She had >>NO<< life threatening illness or injury, Plus...how are you supposed to appropriately treat a patient who lies about the cause of her distress??? Do you have any idea what kind of professional conundrum that creates as you try and develop a differential diagnosis from bad data?? It leads to a LOT of unnecessary, costly and time consuming testing to arrive at a conclusion that could have been established in two seconds if given an accurate history of present illness. And I guess you've not ever considered that there is no such thing as an innocuous medical procedure. Even drawing blood or starting a simple IV can have dire consequences - dire enough that you can get sued.
Sorry...the OP was wrong at nearly every turn. People who do what she did deserve to be roundly criticized and made to understand what kind of trouble they cause OTHER people. Everybody is focusing on the OP. She was never in even the slightest medical danger. What about folks like her parents and the ambulance corps and the ER staff? They all got the shit end of the stick and she gets to post on the Shroomery and get all kinds of kind words and sympathy. We are there to take care of sick (sometimes dying) people. We are NOT there to be conscripted into becoming someone's fucking babysitter or trip-sitter.
I hope we now understand each other better.
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Nature Boy]
#22428343 - 10/24/15 05:25 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Very good. I think I do understand your point of view much better now.
Therefore, I also think that maybe your long explanation was of more help and insight to the OP than your short one. The short one was more easy to be mistaken as just bitter (although 100% right).
OP, did you read this? Reflect on this please. Nature Boy has a rather good take on this, don't you think?
Love, Hanz.
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Hanz]
#22428536 - 10/24/15 06:02 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Nicely put. I'm grateful that we understand each other better. You are certainly right that the short version came off a bit harsh...but I do bristle at certain things, and violation of some cardinal rules not only waste medical resources as I've already said, but also give psychedelics a black eye at a time when legitimate and valuable medical research is finally resuming after a fifty year hiatus. Instances like this only serve to give opponents of that trend another data point in support their opposition! It's just bad for the psychedelic community in general. We owe each other a duty of care not to spoil it for the rest of us!
To the OP, a couple of words of wisdom in the spirit of helpfulness:
Know your dose, know yourself. (This means no GUESSING or ESTIMATING or asking someone else - which unfairly shifts the responsibility onto some poor hapless schmo)
It's easier to STAY out of trouble than to GET out of trouble.
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Nature Boy]
#22431954 - 10/25/15 01:28 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm very happy we're in harmony here Nature Boy 
Thank you for making me more acutely aware of your point of view. I'm certain I'll keep it in mind in the future.
And this:
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Nature Boy said: ... legitimate and valuable medical research is finally resuming after a fifty year hiatus. Instances like this only serve to give opponents of that trend another data point in support their opposition! It's just bad for the psychedelic community in general. We owe each other a duty of care not to spoil it for the rest of us!
This is the most important point.
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Hanz]
#22432120 - 10/25/15 02:20 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Same here, my friend! 
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Nature Boy]
#22437806 - 10/26/15 09:24 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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I do understand I made a big mistake that day... and as cliche as I might sound- everyone makes mistakes. That day truly was humbling enough as it was. You don't need to try and instill any more humility in me at this point. BTW- I admitted to have taken shrooms before I got to the hospital. And even if I wasn't on shrooms I needed to have been taken to the ER... I had a massive panic attack where I couldn't breathe well enough, vision was getting blurry, heart rate was peaking at 145 bpm, sobbing and pulling out my hair, chest was in pain, felt really nauseous, dizzy as hell, my whole body felt numb and I was shaking like a fucking vibrator in the fetal position in my room for an hour. Now add that to the effects of the mushrooms and you have one hell of a recipe for a terrifying night. Now if i saw someone having a panic attack like that I wouldn't just tell them to 'let it wear off' as you are saying i should've done, I certainly would've taken them to get some help. And even then I didn't want to go to the ER because I knew deep down that I can't die from mushrooms, but my father forced me. He used to do mushrooms, and once I admitted to him I grew the 'other type of mushrooms' he understood but still took me to the hospital. I am certainly not proud of what happened that day but I am not upset anymore. Hope you don't remain 'angry' at me. Regardless, have a nice day.
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: somechick]
#22449200 - 10/29/15 01:10 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Not 'angry' here OP. Like I implied earlier, I think the trip itself was more than enough punishment.
I hope you can think of this thread as a successful addition to your experience.
Next time, if there will be a next time, please be more prepared.
Love, Hanz.
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Hanz]
#22462463 - 11/01/15 01:49 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Wow that's risky
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: bigpeat]
#22462513 - 11/01/15 02:00 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Quote:
bigpeat said: Wow that's risky
What's risky? What OP did, or what I said?
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: Hanz]
#22466638 - 11/02/15 01:16 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yes i understand you aren't angry, everything you said I agree with. I agree with almost everything "Nature boy" had to say as well. But I was actually trying to respond to 'Nature boy' in regards to his angry appeal. But thank you anyways
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Edited by somechick (11/02/15 01:22 PM)
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Re: FIRST & LAST time shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience AND went blind [Re: somechick]
#22471252 - 11/03/15 02:02 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Great story. Grabbed my attention, love the ones where people end up in hospital or jail. It sucks you ate too much and got freaked. Mushrooms can be recreational once you become familiar with it. You'll always have uncomfortable thoughts but you have to listen and learn what the mushrooms are telling you.
When I'm peaking I can't do anything but lay down with music and float off into another space. Once I was hearing my self think out loud and it was distorting like an alien. You have to be somewhat fearless of dieing or going insane, you'll be fine just remember that. Even my scariest trips the peak fades away and you have the most blissful feeling imaginable with smooth bright visuals and its always been worth it.
Good luck with future endeavors
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Re: FIRST & LAST time doing shrooms, 5+ grams out of body experience, another dimension &went blind [Re: somechick]
#22518420 - 11/13/15 02:53 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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No way in hell thats more than 5 gs
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