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Achillita
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Girlfriend's other personality...
#22220668 - 09/11/15 08:10 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hey guys, so I've been postponing this post for a few days, but I thought I'd share it just for the sake of sharing it.
So my girlfriend tripped on some truffle tea I had given her. It was at her house, and I was not there to witness it directly, but you get the gist.
So she drank the tea, and it started hitting pretty fast. I was talking to her on the phone for about 20 minutes after she drank it, and she had all the classic symptoms. Just giggly, kinda spacy, ect. She decided to go and just trip out and listen to music.
Later she told me she had blacked out around the peak(it was like 1-1 and a half hours into the trip), but she told me to call her at the time. I called her, and she spoke differently. A little bit deeper, and she admitted to me that it wasn't "her".
So the other personality was originally trying to fuck with me a bit, but I kinda got upset and had to go to the bathroom. So I just left the phone and went. I came back and he was crying about how he just wanted to talk, and didn't mean to seem angry. I said I'd talk to him(it was like 2 in the morning). So he told me about himself.
He said that he was a boy(you know, personality wise) and that he was gay. I said okay, and continued talking. He told me of his likes and dislikes, which were all mostly different from my girlfriend. And he said that he usually is just there in the back of my girlfriends mind, but at the moment it was strange because she was at the back of his. He also said that I was the only boyfriend that he approved of that my girlfriend dated.(we've been dating a long time by the way)
He didn't like junk food(which my girlfriend loves) and he didn't even know how to speak spanish! At one point he began crying because he felt so lonely and left out being inside of my girlfriend. How it was when he couldn't control anything, and how he didn't ask to be created and didn't know where he came from. It honestly made me feel bad for him, as I couldn't imagine not having the freedom to live as me.
We talked a bit more until he was really tired and decided to go to sleep(as did I). He said he just wanted to go back to her mind and just be comfortable. Deep inside I was pretty worried about whether or not my girlfriend would come back or not. But in the morning she was completely back to normal, and she didn't remember a single thing after her "blackout".
But after this trip, she has been happier on the outside than she has been for a while, and is much less stressed out. Almost like she found inner peace, and they were no longer in a struggle over what she should do.
Also, she's told me she felt this other person in her head before. But didn't know much about him. She assumed that he was just angry and wanted to cause trouble. I've noticed during moments when we'd get in fights or really angry, she just wouldn't be herself. Almost like a different person, and a couple years ago when, she blacked out for a few minutes when she got really angry with her parents considering divorce(she was like 14 or 15 at the time).
I just wanted to share this, thank you guys for listening.
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voodoochild1000
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Re: Girlfriend's other personality... [Re: Achillita]
#22220728 - 09/11/15 08:27 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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....wow...that's some bizarre shit
Split personality?...glad she is in good spirits!
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Eggtimer
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Re: Girlfriend's other personality... [Re: Achillita]
#22220757 - 09/11/15 08:37 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Achillita said: Hey guys, so I've been postponing this post for a few days, but I thought I'd share it just for the sake of sharing it.
So my girlfriend tripped on some truffle tea I had given her. It was at her house, and I was not there to witness it directly, but you get the gist.
So she drank the tea, and it started hitting pretty fast. I was talking to her on the phone for about 20 minutes after she drank it, and she had all the classic symptoms. Just giggly, kinda spacy, ect. She decided to go and just trip out and listen to music.
Later she told me she had blacked out around the peak(it was like 1-1 and a half hours into the trip), but she told me to call her at the time. I called her, and she spoke differently. A little bit deeper, and she admitted to me that it wasn't "her".
So the other personality was originally trying to fuck with me a bit, but I kinda got upset and had to go to the bathroom. So I just left the phone and went. I came back and he was crying about how he just wanted to talk, and didn't mean to seem angry. I said I'd talk to him(it was like 2 in the morning). So he told me about himself.
He said that he was a boy(you know, personality wise) and that he was gay. I said okay, and continued talking. He told me of his likes and dislikes, which were all mostly different from my girlfriend. And he said that he usually is just there in the back of my girlfriends mind, but at the moment it was strange because she was at the back of his. He also said that I was the only boyfriend that he approved of that my girlfriend dated.(we've been dating a long time by the way)
He didn't like junk food(which my girlfriend loves) and he didn't even know how to speak spanish! At one point he began crying because he felt so lonely and left out being inside of my girlfriend. How it was when he couldn't control anything, and how he didn't ask to be created and didn't know where he came from. It honestly made me feel bad for him, as I couldn't imagine not having the freedom to live as me.
We talked a bit more until he was really tired and decided to go to sleep(as did I). He said he just wanted to go back to her mind and just be comfortable. Deep inside I was pretty worried about whether or not my girlfriend would come back or not. But in the morning she was completely back to normal, and she didn't remember a single thing after her "blackout".
But after this trip, she has been happier on the outside than she has been for a while, and is much less stressed out. Almost like she found inner peace, and they were no longer in a struggle over what she should do.
Also, she's told me she felt this other person in her head before. But didn't know much about him. She assumed that he was just angry and wanted to cause trouble. I've noticed during moments when we'd get in fights or really angry, she just wouldn't be herself. Almost like a different person, and a couple years ago when, she blacked out for a few minutes when she got really angry with her parents considering divorce(she was like 14 or 15 at the time).
I just wanted to share this, thank you guys for listening.
When I was a teenager I was very emotionally unstable at times and would have fits of rage with no control. Through self-discovery I began to understand why these things would happen and how to defuse situations so they wouldn't.
In truth we have many different personalities depending on who we're around and our current mood. Everyone tries to be a person but what you are is not a person you are a dynamic self. Trying to be a static thing while you're really a dynamic thing upsets the balance.
Judging thoughts as bad or good can causes this. If the thought is appearing let it appear and let it vanish, all waves belong to the ocean therefore they are allowed to appear in the ocean. If your GF has tried to suppress elements of her mind she doesn't like it's possible they come out like this as another personality. If it appears in your mind then let it be trying to get rid of it or suppress it is like pulling strings on a sweater. First you pull one, then two, then three, then the whole sweater has fallen apart.
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4. This dynamic is both microcosmic and macrocosmic. This dynamic is of awareness becoming aware of awareness. In Shaivism, Shiva, who is not a blue guy with a blue girl named Shakti, is awareness-- pure awareness becoming aware of awareness. This is-ness of being is not a thing. The sense of being is awareness-- invisible awareness is being (openness) and is maha sukha (bliss). This process of awareness becoming aware of awareness is infinite and infinitely creative. I am that and that I am… as Shiva becomes aware of himself, awareness, the experience is ahum (I am) and continues in spiraling vortexual-ness. “I am,” “that I am” and self-recognition creates worlds within worlds.
5. In Buddhist language, the dynamic is the same. The dharmakaya, which is pure self-awareness, manifests the worlds as sambhogakaya-- rapture, luminous rapture-- and nirmanakaya-- luminous desire. The dharmakaya is not a thing. The dharmakaya is not is-ness alone, as some would think, but awareness alive-- awareness intrinsically knowing itself as knowing-ness. This is the great compassion that generates out of the radiance of self awareness as us… an us that is a given-ness, which is the same as the giver-- there is no difference whatsoever. This dharmakaya is pure potentiality, and the same potentiality is you-- that which manifests you is you. Of course you do not have to believe this and probably do not think it. You do not think that your very own awareness is completely pure openness and timeless in time.
The Dzogchen masters say your awareness is the vajra kumara… indestructible youthfulness. You simply have to experience what is there already. You simply have to become aware of your own awareness and you will experience the protection of the great compassion, which is actually the only protection. THIS GREAT COMPASSION IS RADIANCE AND THE GENERATIVE RADIANCE WHCH IS LOVE, WHICH IS GENERATIVITY…EXTENSION. THE GREAT COMPASSION IS NOT SIMPLY RECEPTIVITY TO THE PAIN OF THE WORLD, INTERNALIZATION OF PAIN AND THE ATTEMPT TO TRANSMUTE PAIN THROUGH OUR OWN BODIES. COMPASSION IS NOT THE INTERNALIZATION OF MISERY, AS SOME SUGGEST. IT IS ACTION THAT TRANSMITS LIGHT AS LOVE…RADIANCE. COMPASSION CREATES TIME AND CREATES THE WORLD.
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nicechrisman
Interdimensional space wizard



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Re: Girlfriend's other personality... [Re: Achillita]
#22220996 - 09/11/15 09:28 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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That's some kinda spooky shit. Very interesting though. It's really interesting how psychedelics can give us access to different parts of our brains and personalities.
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drr

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Re: Girlfriend's other personality... [Re: nicechrisman]
#22221117 - 09/11/15 09:56 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Wow, very interesting! I just watched a documentary on multiple personality disorder, it's still fresh in my mind.... I find this fascinating. I wonder though if this is the beginning of you seeing more of her alternate personality?
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