So I've just returned from my doctor, and apparently I'm no longer in the program because I had two tests in a row come back negative for norebuprenorphine, which is the metabolite of buprenorphine (suboxone). I tested positive for bupre, but negative for norebupre.
I've been seeing him for well over a year, have had 0 positive urinalysis for anything other than THC and buprenorphine, and he is willing to tolerate THC and even prescribed me marinol since I have had some pretty bad appetite problems over this summer.
I really don't know what to make of this, and he printed out the results but could not offer an explanation why I would be testing negative for the metabolite other than hinting that I wasn't taking the suboxone. I guess they think that I was just taking one before the test, and not during the time in-between. This is not what I was doing. I am prescribed 2mg/day and I take 2mg/day, every day. I get sick otherwise.
I'm going between being mad, confused, and being generally upset. This is the second doctor that has kicked me off for what I consider an unfair reason, last time it was because I had low creatinine levels, which I assumed was because I worked overnights in a 100deg+ warehouse and could easily drink around a gallon of water in a day.
The fact that I am trying very hard to be totally honest with these doctors, I have tapered down over this summer to a low dose (under his supervision), I don't sell or give anyone any of my meds, yet they still have zero trust in me is just maddening to me. I really start to resent the whole medical field and it really makes me not want to go through this all again.
I could potentially find another doctor, but I feel like they're all assholes and I just want to get off. I've gotten clean on my own before, and I definitely am not going to go back to using, but it amazes me that they would do that to someone. I always heard people crying in the other rooms while I was waiting and found that to be overdramatic, but I guess I understand now. It sucks when you try to do everything right, and they still treat you like a criminal.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do, but I am racking my brain trying to find out why this metabolte would come up negative. I was taking no medication other than the marinol, a vitamin D supplement, and the suboxone as prescribed. I am really into running these days, and consider myself in the best shape of my life, but I am reading that the halflife of norebup is even longer than buprenorphine which is supposedly around 36 hours. It seems impossible that it wouldn't be there.
Is this a mistake at the lab, or could there be some reason why a metabolite wouldn't appear? I don't want to go back to that doctor, fuck him, I don't need help from people who don't give a shit when it comes down to it, I just can't figure out why this would happen.
Anyone have any ideas I might not be considering?
Is there something potentially physically wrong with me? Like I said I have been feeling weirdly sick over the summer, which I attributed to Lyme disease, but now I am thinking it might be something else. I asked him this but he refused to elaborate and was just saying he can't speculate pretty much implying that I'm a liar.
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