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I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face.....
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These last few weeks have been a doozy.....I had no idea that life could go down hill so fast....
Well to sum it up last night I spent about $300 on enough morphine to kill a horse....it's hard to explain because I didn't "really" want to overdose but my thought process was " if I do ehhh fuck it".....well I guess I didn't because I just woke up and I'm still extremely high....and all my morphine is gone...last thing I remember was my buddy dragging me out of a restraunt and putting me in his car.......I have a lot of angry texts from various people
Anyway...my life's looking fucked....I Might be facing some felony charges for some things that happened while I was on a week long Xanax bender earlier....
I lost my job....probably because of my drug use....my car broke down....my rent is coming up but I won't be able pay it so I'm thinking I just spend what money I do have on morphine and hope for the best....
Im so fucked.....shit.....ah fuck...I hate myself
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Go to rehab brotha.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Bitter Cactus]
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Bitter Cactus said: Go to rehab brotha.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Bitter Cactus]
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I can't afford no rehab, plus I don't think the drugs are the main problem....
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Cowb0yNeal00]
#22199670 - 09/06/15 09:34 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Great job using drugs responsibly.
Ive been on plenty of xanax binges and havent commited a single felony during them. Maybe rehab is the place for you
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22199675 - 09/06/15 09:35 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quiting opiates is like not an option really....everything else is fine
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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Of course it is an option. Just not one you are choosing.
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#22199689 - 09/06/15 09:38 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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the drugs are the main problem.
think of rehab like filling bankruptcy.. gives you a chance to sort things out.
by the sound of it, you could benefit from that opportunity.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: xbloodwhipx]
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xbloodwhipx said: Great job using drugs responsibly.
Ive been on plenty of xanax binges and havent commited a single felony during them. Maybe rehab is the place for you 
There's no such thing as responsible Xanax use. And hold your horses.....it wasn't really a felony...I mean it's up in the air, I haven't been charged...just "under investigation".....and I made everything right karmakly speaking after the fact but police reports were filed....
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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Sure you can use xanax responsibly. I never claimed to 
Stay at home and dont go on any binges. Only take a bar or two. Maybe do it with a friend whos not on zans.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: rackem]
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rackem said: the drugs are the main problem.
think of rehab like filling bankruptcy.. gives you a chance to sort things out.
by the sound of it, you could benefit from that opportunity.
I'm thinking I skip rehab....I'll just only do opiates once a week starting now
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: xbloodwhipx]
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xbloodwhipx said: Sure you can use xanax responsibly. I never claimed to 
Stay at home and dont go on any binges. Only take a bar or two. Maybe do it with a friend whos not on zans.
I had a gram of alpraz powder so I was eyeballing since I didn't want to wait for my propylene glycol in the mail
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22199718 - 09/06/15 09:42 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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passages malibu
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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I've always liked you, Sandman. I hope you pull through this. I've hit low points at certain times in my life that are in the same neighborhood as this one.
It's an uphill climb, but it's doable. Hang in there (I know it sounds gay & cliché but I'm serious).
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Bitter Cactus]
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Niffla]
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Awwwww thanks niffla......yeah it's just one of those times.....if I just had a time machine...last summer was perfect, absolutely perfect.
But yeah I do really appreciate it man....I
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22199768 - 09/06/15 09:52 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Oh yeah I just remembered I also have a credit card I maxed out for $2000 in less than 2 weeks of getting it....fucking kill me now
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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Get this though.....I had this impulse to buy a gun a few weeks back and so I'm like I have this fancy new credit card perfect....so I go to buy a gun and I'm like "I vow not to spend more than $300.."........but this fucking spinster at the gun store sells me on this nice smith and Wesson AR.....they ended up denying me so I had my friend go in and buy it....,$1200 nice gun
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22199795 - 09/06/15 10:00 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Then I unofficially sold it to another friend after I shot it a few times, he ended up getting pulled over on Xanax and he just had it sitting in the backseat loaded.....lul
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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Sold it for like $500 and spent all of that on dope:(
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman] 1
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You're life sounds really awesome :thumb:
Keep up the good work
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22199821 - 09/06/15 10:06 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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and you still dont think dope is your major problems?
dude, you need help not some half assed excuse of using only once a week.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: rackem]
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Dude but what would I have to "really" look forward to if I quit opiates....it's like oooooo I get to be a sober square gsaaaayyyyyy isn't there a middle ground?
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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it doesnt seem like you have the ability to have a middle ground.
more to life than the opiates man..
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: You're life sounds really awesome :thumb:
Keep up the good work

Seriously OP, you sound like a hardcore opiate addict. Seek help before the drugs end your life.
Good luck and clean up your act man. This is tough love brotha.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: rackem]
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rackem said: more to life than the opiates man..
You're probably right....maybe...yeah but fuck other shit is complicated
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22199885 - 09/06/15 10:22 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Your title is heroin enthusiast and you say you are not addicted to herion.
If this is really a life or death situation p.m. me and I can get you started on kratom and help you get the good stuff.
Just stop fucking up your life bud.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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I hope you turn this around. Even if you think your letting go and don't give a fuck it can turn into a living nightmare.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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MisterSandman said: These last few weeks have been a doozy.....I had no idea that life could go down hill so fast....
Well to sum it up last night I spent about $300 on enough morphine to kill a horse....it's hard to explain because I didn't "really" want to overdose but my thought process was " if I do ehhh fuck it".....well I guess I didn't because I just woke up and I'm still extremely high....and all my morphine is gone...last thing I remember was my buddy dragging me out of a restraunt and putting me in his car.......I have a lot of angry texts from various people
Anyway...my life's looking fucked....I Might be facing some felony charges for some things that happened while I was on a week long Xanax bender earlier....
I lost my job....probably because of my drug use....my car broke down....my rent is coming up but I won't be able pay it so I'm thinking I just spend what money I do have on morphine and hope for the best....
Im so fucked.....shit.....ah fuck...I hate myself
so wait... is this something that you are proud of or ashamed of?
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Prisoner#1]
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Oh very ashamed for the most part....but at the same time I did a seriously epic amount of morphine and didn't die.....400mg ish orally and the rest I snorted so like another 100 that's some epic shit
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Prisoner#1]
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You can go to Church's and ask for help. My neighbors were not able to pay their electric bill, they went to our local church, they paid the bill. You could even ask to specifically speak to the ministers. Explain your situation. How your broke, bills are coming up, messed up with drugs.
They might help you out. The worse that can happen is they say no.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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MisterSandman said: Oh very ashamed for the most part....but at the same time I did a seriously epic amount of morphine and didn't die.....400mg ish orally and the rest I snorted so like another 100 that's some epic shit
I'm just trying to establish whether you're simply bragging or actually remorseful
it certainly does look like the latter
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Prisoner#1]
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close to death, knocking, asking for it... but you were given life, and that is a miracle in itself. live to experience the overcoming of pain, to be prepared for future pain, you suffer because you must, but is your strength worthy to endure the suffering, triumph? Probably, but it is up to you.
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What's it like to be a homeless low bottom dope fiend? IDK I never went that far with it but it sounds like you might be headed for that iceberg my friend. Saying you'll use once a week is a bargaining method, and with whom or what are you bargaining? If you stepped back and looked at things from saaaayyyy... the last 6 years of your life up until right this very second, would you say your drug use has worked well for you as a whole? It sounds to me like you're at a net loss overall in life and it revolves around drugs so how do you say it's not a problem? You know you have things in your life that need to be fixed, and every step you aren't taking to better yourself is another step wasted. I've been at some low points too and words like I just typed really don't mean much at those times (really, not much does) but at some point you'll ask yourself versions of these questions and more and whatever you do with the answers I guess will determine your character and can make you stronger, and maybe even strong enough to do what you think is impossible, or you'll just continue numbing it away but I hope not.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: abltsandwich]
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The guy is a heroin enthusiast and tried to OD on drugs and sells stuff for heroin and his life is in shambles. OP please check into a rehab clinic tomorrow morning.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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"Quiting opiates is like not an option really....everything else is fine"
"I'm thinking I skip rehab....I'll just only do opiates once a week starting now"
Exactly something an addict would say. What is it going to take for you to kick this habit that is destroying your life? I'll answer that myself, nothing. With the mentality that you have now your rock bottom is death. I don't understand why you made this thread. For sympathy? What? You clearly don't want to get clean. DUDE, WAKE UP AND SMELL THE FUCKING COFFEE. You are going to die if you don't stop. Holy shit. Are you that dense?
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
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Great thread I love these epic cautionary tales of blind self destruction and inviolable self delusion .
Selling that gun and having it found loaded in someone else's car will very likely land you in jail. You should go to rehab now so I can you at least won't have to withdraw in jail.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Moonshoe]
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If you went today and got a fast food job u would have rent by the end of the month it sounds like you already fucked yourself on couch surfing options. Homeless with an addiction is going to suck worse as your income is now zero. Stop doing morphine dude
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Prisoner#1]
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336 said: If this topic was a picture; this is what it would look like in my mind.

this is probably closer

Yeah, what Prisoner posted is much more accurate. I know this is cliche, but it is true- Hunter S. Thompson used drugs. MisterSandman doesn't use drugs, drugs use him.
Dude, stop using opiates. They are so shitty and lame. I never understood the appeal of the opiate high, but many, many of my friends have been through opiate addiction. I have watched so many people go down that road, and have known many good friends that died.
I can tell just from the way you talk about it that you will absolutely never be able to use opiates recreationally. Get that idea out of your head. You clearly have absolutely zero control over your addiction. You need to realize that you will never have the self control to use opiates recreationally. It is absolutely never going to happen. Get the fuck over it, stop feeling sorry for youself, and find something better to do with your life.
In my experience, there are only two types of opiate addicts-
1. People who become addicted to opiates, and then stop using them completely. These are the only people who get over opiate addiciton.
2. People who think they can use opiates "recreationally". These people always eventually end up overdosing and dying.
Just two months ago, one of my oldest friends of ~20 years ODed on heroin. He was totally clean, had just gotten out of jail, had a great paying job, and had just bought a brand new truck. It seemed like he finally had his life together. Apparently, he also thought he could use heroin "recreationally", and it killed him immediately.
I wish you the best of luck, but if using opiates "recreationally" is seriously a priority for you, you aren't going to be around much longer.
If you are so desperate that you are actually considering suicide, why not try doing something fun? You've got nothing to lose, right?
Where do you live? It is almost trim season in Northern California. Hitchhike to Arcata or Eureka, find the nearest Wal-Mart, and make a sign that says "looking for trim work". Work hard trimming weed for a couple months at some isolated grow op in Humboldt. You can make money, smoke weed all day, and you won't be able to get any opiates because you will be in the middle of fucking nowhere.
There is always a better option than just letting your addiction kill you, man. We are on this Earth for such a short period of time in the whole scheme of things. We are alive at the craziest time in history. Shit could hit the fan any minute. Don't you at least want to see what happens? That is one of my main reasons for wanting to live a long life. I'm going to die anyways, I might as well watch as much of this crazy movie as I can...
Good luck getting over your desire to use opiates recreationally!
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: FlyOnTheWall]
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this is a proud shroomery thread, lots of good advice and serious concern.
op is there not a methadone clinic in your area? i know the one around here you can sign up, it takes a little while but it is free.
would appear the most conscious of opinions here are you can obviously not moderate your drug use and would be advisable to at least take a nice break and get stuff functional again for your life's sake.
you have to open that door in your mind, otherwise no one can help you.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: ReposadoXochipilli]
#22201765 - 09/07/15 12:10 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Two thjngs can save your ass- Kratom can replace opiayes and get you off them and reduce the WD.
Ibogaine proper administered could stop your addiction in its tracks.
Research both and consider using them, you need them. It's either not both though.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Moonshoe]
#22201795 - 09/07/15 12:16 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Moonshoe said: Two thjngs can save your ass- Kratom can replace opiayes and get you off them and reduce the WD.
Ibogaine proper administered could stop your addiction in its tracks.
Research both and consider using them, you need them. It's either not both though.
Take this advice. Make changes to your life, OP.
You are at the intersection of Whiny Bitch Lane and Man Up Street, make the right decision.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: FlyOnTheWall]
#22202261 - 09/07/15 01:51 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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FlyOnTheWall said: You are at the intersection of Whiny Bitch Lane and Man Up Street, make the right decision.
You guys are right, and this is pretty accurate ^
I'm only 20 so I've got time to bounce back, it defiantly seems like quiting opiates would be in my best interests.....that being said I'm going to buy one more dose today....just to reward myself for making this difficult disicion.....then in quiting cold turkey...I think I can do it no problem
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22202288 - 09/07/15 01:56 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Buying one more dose is not a quitters mentality. You either quit, or you don't. Having been to rehab, through AA, and all that shit I've seen enough people that want to quit but just aren't ready for whatever reason. One of those big signs that says "I want to quit but I'm not ready" is bargaining. Examples of bargaining are: "I'll buy just one more pack/dose/bottle/bag then I'll quit." - why? If you want to quit, now is the time. It'll always be "now" when you decide to quit and by buying another dose you've decided to quit later. Which isn't quitting at all. or "I'll just use X amount" or "I'll just use X times a week" or whatever is also not quitting. Any time you impose certain restrictions on your drug use because it's out of control, you're actually just furthering your addiction for a myriad of reasons. The more structure you add to your problem, the stronger it will become. Quit or don't.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22202577 - 09/07/15 03:04 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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MisterSandman said:
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FlyOnTheWall said: You are at the intersection of Whiny Bitch Lane and Man Up Street, make the right decision.
You guys are right, and this is pretty accurate ^
I'm only 20 so I've got time to bounce back, it defiantly seems like quiting opiates would be in my best interests.....that being said I'm going to buy one more dose today....just to reward myself for making this difficult disicion.....then in quiting cold turkey...I think I can do it no problem
Probably not a good idea to reward yourself from getting clean of opiates by doing a shot of down. The heroin enthusiast title needs to go to if you are serious about this.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22202587 - 09/07/15 03:06 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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He's gonna beat Bill to the RIP thread.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman] 1
#22202608 - 09/07/15 03:11 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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The idea you are doing another shot to reward yourself for deciding to quit is mind bendingly profound self delusion.
That statement shows you need help to get clean because your addiction has hijacked your brain and you are not thinking clearly nor are you in control of your actions.
If you do a shot for this bogus reason you are doomed. Quit cold Turkey now, Do not take another bullshit shot for a bullshit reason.
You need rehab, preferably, if not rehab at least NA, and if that doesn't work look seriously into Kratom and if that doesn't work ibogaine.
You need help. Any time you rationalize doing more you are revealing the depth of your mental illness. There is no reason or excuse to ever use opiates again. Zero.
You are 20 you can absolutely turn your life around and have an amazing future but if you do one more shot you could easily be doomed.
Buy some Kratom (lots) and every time you get a craving take a good dose. Doing that you can probably make it a few weeks without using and then you are almost free.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: abltsandwich]
#22202613 - 09/07/15 03:11 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Well realistically your problems arnt going away so you have 2 options. Fix you problems and get off opiates or become street junkie. you decided
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: kakashi68]
#22202623 - 09/07/15 03:13 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Moon stop recommending kratom. He needs to get off all drugs and kratom is just something that will tickle his opiate receptors and hardly to anything for withdrawal.
Get off all drugs mate.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22203560 - 09/07/15 06:12 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Don't tell me what to do you little 
Using Kratom to get off harder opiates is an extremely smart move that has been successfully used by numerous opiate addicts.
Kratom has been successfully used by opiate addicts to get off opiates for a long time. It can alleviate withdrawal significantly. There are many people who succeeded on getting off opiayes using Kratom who would have failed otherwise .
If he wants to get off Kratom later that's fine but the important thing now is to get off dangerous life ruining opiates and if a virtually harmless leaf can help him do it then it would be wise to try it. It certainly won't hurt anything.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Moonshoe]
#22203576 - 09/07/15 06:15 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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he should quit opiates by chewing sunflower seeds.
or you know how they have those sugar pills, maybe they can do the same thing but with injects, so you mainline a sugar pill essentially. and it would get you a little sugar high too
also whats up with this auto spelling correction shit, sometimes a bro likes to spell wrong on purpose
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: makaveli8x8]
#22203597 - 09/07/15 06:19 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Kratom works extremely well for alleviating withdrawal and that makes it much easier to resist getting and using more dope and that makes it much easier to quit opiates.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Moonshoe]
#22203812 - 09/07/15 06:48 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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so do sunflower seeds
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Moonshoe]
#22203866 - 09/07/15 06:56 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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As depressing as this is to read, it's really great to hear everyone rally behind this guy. The internet was just budding when I was going through some rough teen years. It would have been pretty amazing to have such a remarkable number of intelligent and like minded people offering advice. Good luck brother! We all face serious adversity. I've left skin cells from the roof of my mouth on my front sight post more than once. Just take note of how may people here that have never met you care. I'm willing to bet you have loads of people in your life that would love to see you healthy.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22203924 - 09/07/15 07:07 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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MisterSandman said:
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FlyOnTheWall said: You are at the intersection of Whiny Bitch Lane and Man Up Street, make the right decision.
You guys are right, and this is pretty accurate ^
I'm only 20 so I've got time to bounce back, it defiantly seems like quiting opiates would be in my best interests.....that being said I'm going to buy one more dose today....just to reward myself for making this difficult disicion.....then in quiting cold turkey...I think I can do it no problem
I'm just gonna go out on a limb here and say
gods damn, you make some absolutely retarded decisions, then you follow them with whining about regrets and then go right back to the retarded decisions, like I said, this isnt a thread where you show your remorse, it's a thread where you brag about the stupid decisions you make... keep up the good work, we need something to laugh at.... go get your lean on
I hope you enjoy sucking dick for cash, look like that will be your profession soon
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Prisoner#1]
#22206086 - 09/08/15 08:07 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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A lot of judgemental fear mongering drug elitists here need To stop with the DARE propaganda and get off their high horse
sarcasm can't count the number of times people Have said this to me for speaking common Sense. Keep it up fellow fear mongers!
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Moonshoe]
#22206553 - 09/08/15 10:29 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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"I'm gonna reward myself for quitting opiates by doing more opiates"
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: MisterSandman]
#22206688 - 09/08/15 11:01 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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This thread is coming from a guy who strongly recommended opiate use. I thought you said only idiots with no self control get addicted
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: OhMrJohnson]
#22206759 - 09/08/15 11:22 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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OhMrJohnson said: "I'm gonna reward myself for quitting opiates by doing more opiates"

Were all creatures of habit....
Unfortunatly some are far worse than others.
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Re: I've about burned every bridge and shit in everyone's face..... [Re: Mental Taco]
#22206774 - 09/08/15 11:26 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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You took a shit in everyone's face OP?
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