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Bill_Oreilly
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dude...I don't hang out with them. when I need dope I call the kid up, get the dope, and leave. sometimes he makes me stay for 5 or 10 minutes to make it not look shady but that's it. not once have I ever just hung out with these people.
sometimes I actually get fun poked at me because im the kid to always get my dope and leave right away. I never hang around. ever.
and dude, these people are shooting dope, smoking crack, carpet surfing, doing Xanax, eating acid, selling tons of heroin...etc.
compared to me that just gets high once a day or so.
I don't know how many times im going to have to explain this shit..
I get it..i need to stop. but don't tell me I am jut as bad as them. I don't sell drugs and carpet surf.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22208446 - 09/08/15 05:46 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Why do you think the buyer is better than the seller?
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: zappaisgod]
#22208458 - 09/08/15 05:48 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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forget it.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22208469 - 09/08/15 05:50 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Bill_Oreilly said: forget it.
Hope you find your way buddy no one can make the decision to change but yourself.
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly] 1
#22208471 - 09/08/15 05:50 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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You got a job then? Or if I remember right, you're fairly well off through your family? I'm pretty sure you're wasting at least a couple hundo/week, which you could be using to support you kid, unless you're so filthy rich that money doesn't matter, in which case I could see why you turned to drugs and completely lack and direction or vision in life. Like I said you should know better by now, not be stuck in this cycle of abuse and self-pity.
I only do heroin once per day you don't seem to realize that is pretty fuckin bad, and though you keep insisting that we coddle you and not say anything negative regarding what you're posting here, nobody is apparently interested in doing that, sorry. What are your redeeming qualities again? That you're not a theif, and you only associate with people who you resent to buy drugs off them?
Impressive.
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when I said I do it once a day I wasn't implying that was ok. I was just stating a fact.
I am far from rich. But I make 4k a month(between me and my wife) by sitting on my ass pretty much 
I have spent SO MUCH money in the past years its not even funny. I am broke right now and shouldn't be at all. I make enough money where I should never be broke.
today I am clean, its almost 8pm. I know its nothing but I decided I am going to stop. I have too much to lose.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22208577 - 09/08/15 06:10 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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One day at a time man, don't see it as "oh I only made it one day without" look at it as one step closer to a better brighter future for yourself. It's a slow process but one day that craving feeling will be replaced with self acceptance and you'll wonder why you ever touched the stuff you're too smart and too good of a person to let this shit drug take a cool guy like you out.
You may have been able to control your addiction pretty well the last few years but remember every person that winds up on the streets thought they had it under control too at some point. Rich or poor heroin spares none
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Damn true.
Thanks man..i appreciate the words of wisdom.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22208621 - 09/08/15 06:18 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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It's not easy I would really recommend getting on a maintenance program if you're struggling with stopping. Being determined will get you off the ground, and if you are able to isolate yourself from triggers and people who encourage you to use it might be possible to do it on your own, but there's going to be really trying times where you've either got to be inhumanly stubborn, or have help. Since help is available, I would recommend you take advantage.
Getting out of that lifestyle where you risk death and jail should be priority #1, and you should do whatever is necessary to make that happen. That means no more heroin. Even of some of those people are your friends, you've got to take care of yourself and I can promise that if you put yourself in the same situations you were using in with the same people, you'll relapse.
Also start thinking about what you want to do with your life. Even if it is just be a reliable father, you've got to have reasons to stay clean, and you've got to burn them in your mind so that going back to using doesn't even seem like an option anymore. Good luck man.
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I think carpet surfing is a sleep deprived thing you do if you are hooked on meth or coke or crack. It doesn't strike me as a behavior a nodded out heroin junkie would do.
One of the first couple binges I did I came home on the third or fourth day awake and my house was shimmering and covered with a ton of crystals that I found out later were hallucinations. I actually had to download a flashlight app because I knew it would happen on the comedown. I would sort of mentally note everywhere the bag had been and sometimes when preparing a shot one crystal would fall out of the spoon when it was crushed up.
But ya, that behavior is gross. I wasn't a major carpet surfer or anything but on the comedown my eyes would get pulled towards the carpet and I would be walking around but I just couldn't help but look down.
It was a gross and disgusting behavior. I seriously did that early into my use and always tried my best just to knock myself out on the comedown so the last few hours awake wouldnt be occupied trying to find a way to not feel shitty.
Get better bra, the world of IV drug use is awful and you are just as bad as those people I don't care what you say but if you are doing heroin every day you are clearly not in good shape.
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Thanks man
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22208713 - 09/08/15 06:40 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah well lemme know if you ever need me to berate you. It's really not worth it. If you can get some clean time and learn to feel rewarded by natural means you will see it for yourself. Take the attitude you have when dealing with a bad trip and apply that to withdrawal. Getting over an addiction is more something worthy of pride, not managing it, everyone thinks they're managing while they're in the midst of things.
Also don't underestimate the power of spite. It can be your worst enemy or biggest asset. When things get really hard for me, I just think about all the people who probably expect me to fail, and that makes what I need to do alot clearer. If you really hate people looking down on you, show them that you can overcome the addiction and thrive like never before, don't self destruct because that is what they want you to do. I for one would be very impressed if you made it work, one step at a time though.
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^^ that's actually great advice that I haven't heard a million times. Thanks brother.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22209165 - 09/08/15 08:08 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I got an idea. You get your snarky head out of your ass and actually listen to us
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22209182 - 09/08/15 08:10 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I was just thinking the same thing. I'm a big drinker and I've been taking steps to cut back. Only had one beer today I'm hoping to cut out all week day drinking and limit myself during the weekends. One step at a time we can do this man! I also haven't had a cigarette in 3 days
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: zappaisgod]
#22209215 - 09/08/15 08:16 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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zappaisgod said: I got an idea. You get your snarky head out of your ass and actually listen to us
Ill listen to moonrock and rebel because they are telling me things I haven't heard a billion times and are not being assholes about it, unlike you and bitter cactus.
if you want to actually help with some wise words or encouragement, im all ears. So far, all I have heard from you is "don't dart heroin you idiot"
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Rebelutionsssss said: I was just thinking the same thing. I'm a big drinker and I've been taking steps to cut back. Only had one beer today I'm hoping to cut out all week day drinking and limit myself during the weekends. One step at a time we can do this man! I also haven't had a cigarette in 3 days
awesome! man..cigs are my love. I don't know if ill be able to quit them anytime soon. Right now, seeing as how I cant smoke weed and need to stop heroin and everything else...cigs are my freedom.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22209242 - 09/08/15 08:21 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Don't dart heroin. This is really fucking simple. If you cannot stop doing something that is obviously destructive because you are a self indulgent moron with, from what I understand, a child you are one of the most selfish and stupid people on earth.
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Re: Wow people are fucking stupid. [Re: Bill_Oreilly] 1
#22209636 - 09/08/15 09:49 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Bill_Oreilly said: ^^ that's actually great advice that I haven't heard a million times. Thanks brother.
What in the actual fuck? These people are trying to give you good advice and you are being a snarky douche about it.
I am sorry for the harsh words, but come on man everyone here is on your side and we want you to get better. To come back with an attitude and a chip on your shoulder and make sarcastic remarks just goes to show how immature you are.
I thought you were a good guy who wanted to get better. I had faith in you.
But please man, change the attitude and show some of us respect man we really want what is best as crazy as that sounds.
Anyways good luck brotha keep your chin up and do whatever it takes to be free from the needle and the dope.
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Bill_Oreilly said: ^^ that's actually great advice that I haven't heard a million times. Thanks brother.
What in the actual fuck? These people are trying to give you good advice and you are being a snarky douche about it.
As much as I hate to say it, I don't think he was being snarky there. I think he meant it. Could be wrong.
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