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Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today?
#22189172 - 09/04/15 05:40 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Is there anyone in here that managed to sober up and stay sober?
If so. Give me tips man. How the fuck do I stop? How do I deal with the boredom? How do I deal with the cravings? How did you pull it off?
I think this thread would be good advice for most of us. We all need a sober cmpanion to give us tips at some point.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22189184 - 09/04/15 05:43 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Whats your drug of choice? I'm not sober but I didn't think you really did anything
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22189198 - 09/04/15 05:45 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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fixing an addiction ain't about getting sober it's about dropping the addiction
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22189205 - 09/04/15 05:47 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Define sober?
I'm not injecting heroin or methamphetamine into my arms daily like I was for the past five or so years, however I still occasionally drink and would smoke weed if I could.
Aside from a week excursion where I did abuse opiates, I am relatively sober, and have been for a little over three months. I avoid buying drugs online, because it'd be so nice to just buy Benzo's and Fent's RC's online like everybody else, but I purposely avoid it.
I'm bored a lot, so I work, and am looking for a second job. I spent lots of time talking to people here, and other various social media mediums.
Start projects, cook fancy foods, listen to good music, I could list numerous things that I do to pass the time, but the painful truth is that if you have been abusing drugs for a long period of time, it'll take a long period of time for your natural reward pathway to heal itself, therefore it is difficult to get joy and pleasure from normal experiences, since we are use to flooding our brains with abnormal amounts of serotonin and dopamine.
I've done AA/NA meetings before in the past, and have numerous of their books still.
Peace, love, and understanding brother.  If you ever wan't somebody to chat too about sobriety, PM me.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22189207 - 09/04/15 05:48 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: Whats your drug of choice? I'm not sober but I didn't think you really did anything
The devil's nector
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: TNK]
#22189213 - 09/04/15 05:49 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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TheNatureKid said: Define sober?
You failed right there.
Although I'll keep you name in mind
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22189227 - 09/04/15 05:51 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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You asked, I delivered.
People define sobriety in various ways, some people exclude Marijuana, some people exclude alcohol.
I never had a problem with the latter.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: TNK]
#22189232 - 09/04/15 05:53 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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TheNatureKid said: You asked, I delivered.
People define sobriety in various ways, some people exclude Marijuana, some people exclude alcohol.
I never had a problem with the latter.
I do.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22189236 - 09/04/15 05:53 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Patlal said:
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: Whats your drug of choice? I'm not sober but I didn't think you really did anything
The devil's nector
I'm a sucker for GABAergics as well. Honestly, I think I'm just addicted to being addicted to things if that makes any sense. If I have a handle I'll crush it, If I have an quarter of bud I'll smoke it, If I have a bunch of bars I'll benzo binge for a week. I think its just some inherent personality flaw I have. I've managed to stay functional so thats a plus. I don't really have any advice except good luck man.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22189245 - 09/04/15 05:55 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I used to be a cocaine & xanax addict. The addictions coincided each other. For about two and a half years I'd say. I'd pop a few bars and buy coke daily -- and not just fucking twenty bags.
My full paychecks were going to the habits. I mean I was fucking working solely to support my addictions at that point. And then I eventually lost jobs (plural), severely damaged relationships, and even stole from family when I was broke. I was scum, basically.
It took being faced with eviction, and being fucking homeless, before finally making the decision to quit. I cut ties with a dude I was pretty tight with -- because he was a coke dealer. I went cold turkey on the bars and went through an absolutely hellish, seemingly month plus long withdrawal period.
That was 8 years ago. Now the only substances that I partake in are psychedelics. That's it. Oh, and I enjoy drinking once a week. My cocaine & benzo days however are now a distant memory, thankfully.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22189253 - 09/04/15 05:56 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Weed? Kratom? Kava? Chamomile? Green Tea?
Where does sobriety end for you in your eyes? PS - All of these will help you. As would getting a hobby. Draw Paint Write Make stuff Learn an instrument Go out in nature Get a bike
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22189274 - 09/04/15 05:59 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've had some pretty bad addictions and got through them. I don't really know what advice to offer though. It just takes strong determination and 100% commitment. It's just a personal decision that you have to make for yourself. It's not easy, but it get's easier every day as you go along.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Space Elf]
#22189294 - 09/04/15 06:02 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Ex meth addict here. Just stop doing the drugs and don't be a pussy.
Also, I got prescribed ADD meds and take them properly and I find they help with the meth cravings.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22189309 - 09/04/15 06:04 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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How did you get your script BC?
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22189318 - 09/04/15 06:06 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I have real ADD but it's easy to fake there is no obvious way to tell when you are talking to someone.
Go to a doc, tell them your symptoms, they refer you to an ADD doctor, then you do a test and whether you have it or not you can put two and two together and get the script by answering the questions correctly.
I'm on 30mg of vyvanse a day. Never taken two pills together and honestly people with ADD are at higher rates for addiction. It'll be helpful for school which starts Tuesday.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22189327 - 09/04/15 06:07 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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God I fucking hate vyvanse it makes me wanna kill myself on the comedown. My roommate used to give me 60s that would fuck my world up the entire day.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22189332 - 09/04/15 06:08 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I had a pretty bad addiction to stimulants. I was a alcoholic for about a year until I quit them all but stimulants were my real problem. Did the rehab/halfway house thing. Doing that kinda makes you quit but when you get out you're kinda back where you started wanting to still do drugs/drink. Time away reduces the cravings but the desire is still there.
I use kratom as a crutch and it works. Aside from my daily kratom doses I have little desire to do other drugs or drink. When I stop taking kratom that urge comes back.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22189335 - 09/04/15 06:08 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: How did you get your script BC?
Having a history of drug abuse does not prevent you from getting prescriptions for legitimate medical conditions.
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Patlal said:
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TheNatureKid said: You asked, I delivered.
People define sobriety in various ways, some people exclude Marijuana, some people exclude alcohol.
I never had a problem with the latter.
I do.
Just because I do not, does not mean I have not had a long and difficult battle with substance abuse, or lack any advice or wisdom that may or may not help you.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22189341 - 09/04/15 06:09 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've never noticed any comedown.
It is converted into dexamphetamine which is dexedrine.
It is a hell of a lot better then concerta dude. They started me on that shit and it sucked donkey dick.
Oh and funny thing about getting the script. He asked me questions like whether I have been to jail, have used any drugs or whatever. I said no and no and my file history is jam packed with abuse history too. I think these psychiatrists don't look at your history cause if he did he would not give me anything.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: TNK]
#22189347 - 09/04/15 06:11 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Having a history of drug abuse does not prevent you from getting prescriptions for legitimate medical conditions.
I know. I wasn't saying that his meth addiction should've prevented him from getting one. I was kinda asking what he said to the doctor to get them to prescribe it. Was it just like, "Hey I really have trouble focusing and I get really tired during the day?"
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22189361 - 09/04/15 06:14 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Oh and funny thing about getting the script. He asked me questions like whether I have been to jail, have used any drugs or whatever. I said no and no and my file history is jam packed with abuse history too. I think these psychiatrists don't look at your history cause if he did he would not give me anything.
I wondered this, if my Rehab history would show up.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22189364 - 09/04/15 06:15 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Having a history of drug abuse does not prevent you from getting prescriptions for legitimate medical conditions.
I know. I wasn't saying that his meth addiction should've prevented him from getting one. I was kinda asking what he said to the doctor to get them to prescribe it. Was it just like, "Hey I really have trouble focusing and I get really tired during the day?"
Here is what you do to get any script.
1. dress nice and look like a pussy who would never do anything bad. Have you hair combed, look like a straight edge square and you probably get it. 2. Don't do a laundry list of symptoms. Say specific situations. For example, "I start an assignment and finish one line of an essay then get distracted by X y and Z. Or: when I am reading a story I have to reread the paragraph three times and even then I do not understand what I read. 3. Never ask for anything, always play dumb. 4. Then bam. If it doesn't work first time and you really do need the medication just try another doctor.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22189395 - 09/04/15 06:23 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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That wassup man thanks for the advice. Addys are fucking magic for me as far as studying and my neuro lab shit goes so that would be so clutch
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy] 4
#22189401 - 09/04/15 06:25 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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So much for the sober thread
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: shLong] 1
#22189407 - 09/04/15 06:26 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I had no intentions of giving sober advice or becoming sober myself. Also, I love your avatar dude!
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: shLong] 1
#22189409 - 09/04/15 06:26 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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It went from a "how to stay sober" thread, to a "how to get prescription drugs from your doctor" thread.
In the matter of a few posts none the less.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: shLong]
#22189411 - 09/04/15 06:27 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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It took my getting arrested to finally get my shit together back when I was royally fucking shit up. Fucking crack  This was over a decade ago, though.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: shLong]
#22189412 - 09/04/15 06:27 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I never took you for a fuck up SchLong. Everyone has a past though. Glad you got your shit together.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: shLong]
#22189413 - 09/04/15 06:28 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Crack is whack, meth is where it is at now.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: TNK]
#22189420 - 09/04/15 06:29 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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TheNatureKid said: Crack is whack, meth is where it is at now.
This.
In my area it is just the old people that smoke crack. The young ins are all into the meth.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22189426 - 09/04/15 06:30 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: I never took you for a fuck up SchLong. Everyone has a past though. Glad you got your shit together.
Started doing a ton of blow... Tried crack and well.. It was just wonderful. There began the slide.
I hated the comedown and always wanted to fucking die, but the next day it always seemed like a great idea again. fucking weird how that works.
S'all good now.. I was like 18-19 then.. 32 now
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22189438 - 09/04/15 06:32 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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TheNatureKid said: Crack is whack, meth is where it is at now.
This.
In my area it is just the old people that smoke crack. The young ins are all into the meth.
That was what it was like in my area, even the people who could afford to smoke crack would just smoke meth instead.
And of course, when you are too gacked out, you gotta get some Heroin to help the come down.
Drugs, go figure.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: TNK]
#22189450 - 09/04/15 06:35 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've never even seen meth before. Literally everything else, but never meth.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: shLong]
#22189471 - 09/04/15 06:39 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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shLong said: I've never even seen meth before. Literally everything else, but never meth. 
same here, it's all crack, coke, ecstacy/molly, and heroin on the east coast (at least where I am). Coke is just meh and from the sounds of it (and my experience with other amphetamines) meth really does sound like a superior drug. The majority of both coke and meth comes up from mexico, I wonder why meth hasn't become popular over here.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: luvdemboomers]
#22189514 - 09/04/15 06:47 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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East coast has no meth dawg
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: shLong]
#22189690 - 09/04/15 07:16 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I hated the comedown and always wanted to fucking die, but the next day it always seemed like a great idea again. fucking weird how that works.
been there bro
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
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That wassup man thanks for the advice. Addys are fucking magic for me as far as studying and my neuro lab shit goes so that would be so clutch
I decided one day a couple years ago I wanted a prescription to Addys.
I called a pyschiatrists office 10 minutes up the road.
I said I had difficulty concentrating, but I did use a real-life example to support my claim such as working and taking a full load of classes. I basically said I was really stressed out with school, had very important classes, but was unable to concentrate on the tasks. I was distracted easily and was getting behind in school, and I am looking for something to help.
It was a big scam and they wrote me for 30 addy's I believe, of the extended release 20mg. Next time I was back I told the doctor that 1 a day wasn't enough. I needed one in the early morning and 1 in the early afternoon, lol. Sure enough, 60 tabs, but I had him switch me to the instant release.
Had some fun times, always took them while drinking, maybe 3 to 4 over the course of several hours. Did this 2-4 times a week. But eventually the cons far outweighed the pros.
I was unable to sleep. Even if I stopped taking addy's for a couple days. I would literally lay in bed awake for the entire night.
It was pretty dire so I went to a different doctor and started getting xanax. I had to pop 1mg of xanax or else I could not fall asleep. Took those every day for a month and finally got off both medicines.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Confucian]
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I went in for some Xanax once and got this really sweet and kind old man doctor. I told him all sorts of shit and was obviously very convincing because he genuinely seemed worried about me and sat and talked about shit and then wrote me a pretty decent script for em. I mean, it worked, but I left feeling pretty scummy about myself (this was 2005 when I was new in Green Bay and didn't have any sort of drug connection what so ever... And my gf was reliant and making my life hell, so two birds with one stone sort of thing. )
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I used to chain smoke tobacco. 21 years of addiction.
I quit. I have continuous access, I just quit.
I used to chain smoke cannabis. 12 years of weed all day every day.
I quit. I have some in my house always, I just QUIT.
The key to quitting a drug is NOT WANTING IT ANYMORE AND BEING CONSISTENT IN THAT.
Flip the switch.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Asante]
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pfff. I had a dream that I had a girlfriend (this being the first good sleep I had in weeks) then i woke up and realised it wasnt real. Was so fucking sad and disappointed I made a big fat shot of noddy heroin and cheered myself up
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: kakashi68]
#22191473 - 09/05/15 05:50 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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a buttshot of 30mg MXE would really cheer me up about now
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22191475 - 09/05/15 05:53 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Depends what you mean by stopped. My story involves one of the worst addictions but commonly glanced over. Gambling addiction! I was lucky enough to have a family who could send me to a gambling specific rehab and at the time only a few existed (not sure how many now). Celebrated my 19th birthday in that place. You see if you over do it with drugs you either burn out your brain or over dose. But with gambling nothing stops you from going deeper, Crack heads don't use a friend's identity to play online poker (I was only 17, and he let me but I talked him into it). I was linked to his bank account. I gave him cash. That's a sophisticated system for a 17 year old to execute just to play poker.
My lucky ass got what I needed from that place. However to say I don't obsess over things or didn't just trade addictions isn't entirely true. No you will never catch me injecting anything but right now I'm focused on revisiting a past activity and call it "intellectual stimulation". Am I rationalizating wanting to "party" or am I actually making a rational approach based on my previous experiences and current mental faculties? That's an answer I won't know for at least a few months. I'll let you know if I end up with a goose or epiphany because it will be either or.
I personally feel the self expectance of perfection when staying "clean" is the common loose board on the bridge of post addiction life. I in no way think recovery is the right word and is part of the problem. For example I moved a year and a half ago and had a nasty break up with a five year live in family (cunt and cunts son who I miss way more than cunt).
I bring this up because I started playing tournament poker at a casino after that. FIRST TOURNAMENT I PLAY I WIN. Got back into for like 6 months, I probably made like a few grand total but the last one I played was last December. The guy who knocked me out in third was the statistical last horse. Like winning the lottery. It was too much...said fuck it and havn't been back since and have no plans to.
Not only did I have the addiction past but I was winning money and took third in the last tournament I ever played. By every definition I should have had no ability to "walk away". My secret? Hell if I know but maybe my story can inspire a battle plan to fight your very difficult journey ahead. My best wishes and if I think of anything more you will hear from me again. If I figure out the part of me that got fixed you will be relatively the first to hear it.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: kakashi68]
#22191476 - 09/05/15 05:53 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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The best prescription thing I had going was probably about 5 years ago in this small run-down 70s style office with no receptionist - just 1 Indian doctor running the place with 70s era equipment.
He wrote me ONE HUNDRED norcos (vicodin 10mg/325) and I had that going for about 6 months or so. Great feeling picking those up at the pharmacy for a $15 copay.
If you think about it, if you are in a lot of pain, 3 vicodin a day as needed (~100/month) really isn't that much.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Asante]
#22191482 - 09/05/15 05:55 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Kicking a serious addiction that nearly kills and rediscovering will is the ultimate purge.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Confucian]
#22191495 - 09/05/15 06:03 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Confucian the more I read of you, the stronger my impression is that life is very hard for you and that you suffer it, psychologically, quite a bit.
No offense intended.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Hobozen]
#22191507 - 09/05/15 06:11 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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blankk said: Kicking a serious addiction that nearly kills and rediscovering will is the ultimate purge.
I feel like your right on the money. Like that last tournament I played was when my true will power took back over and let me have control again. I didn't think about or play poker for years, started playing like 2-3 tournaments a week averaging like 15 hours a week at the casino. I was on a complete self destructive path and then stopped on a dime while going 100mph. I like the theory! Only difference is sub out "nearly kills" for causes "self annihilation of character". I was so manipulative back then... Im ashamed of all the people I used who were literally just trying to help. Death is death but I'll go the rest of my life knowing the most important relationships in my life will never go back to before I gambled. I make due by helping others try to help themselves which is ultimately the only thing that I can control. It isn't my fault if they want to always hold it over my head but nobody told me I didn't have a reset button...
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Sekutma]
#22191537 - 09/05/15 06:36 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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It was benzos for me, relapsed maybe 5 times before finally kicking it. At one point I ate something like a gram of pure valium and felt nothing. The addiction nearly killed me... rented a motel room, bought a bag of heroin, loaded up on alcohol, went to inject it all and some nonvisible thing swooped by and knocked it right out of my hands. No shit, I was ready to go. I had the intent to die and made the choice to die as I went to shoot it all into vein. Carpet got it instead. Divine intervention? I dunno. But it was freaking weird.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22191555 - 09/05/15 06:48 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Patlal said: Is there anyone in here that managed to sober up and stay sober?
If so. Give me tips man. How the fuck do I stop? How do I deal with the boredom? How do I deal with the cravings? How did you pull it off?
I think this thread would be good advice for most of us. We all need a sober cmpanion to give us tips at some point.
I have managed to get sober, but not stay sober.
My DOC is alcohol. I am currently on Day 20 alcohol free.
What's helping me right now is having a kind of informal "sponsor". I asked for the universe or whatever for help, and it arrived as a friend who I can text day and night whenever I'm having cravings. A friend/mentor who is committed to helping me just make it to my pillow without alcohol every single day. It's getting easier and harder every single day.
I have to run now, will check back in later....
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22191640 - 09/05/15 07:39 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Bitter Cactus said: I have real ADD but it's easy to fake there is no obvious way to tell when you are talking to someone.
Go to a doc, tell them your symptoms, they refer you to an ADD doctor, then you do a test and whether you have it or not you can put two and two together and get the script by answering the questions correctly.
I'm on 30mg of vyvanse a day. Never taken two pills together and honestly people with ADD are at higher rates for addiction. It'll be helpful for school which starts Tuesday.
Damn..vyvanse?
I get 60mg Adderall per day. You know...the good shit
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22191643 - 09/05/15 07:40 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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but yeah, im still having trouble with IV heroin. 6 years and running as of now. I just cant seem to get it...its so fucking addictive. Much more addicting than cigs or anything else, IMHO.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22191654 - 09/05/15 07:46 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Do you mean 60 mg vyvanse. Or you take 3 20 mg addys a day? Bc 60 mg addys definitely don't exist
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22191661 - 09/05/15 07:49 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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he probably gets 3x 20mg or 2 x 30mg a day.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22191752 - 09/05/15 08:34 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: Do you mean 60 mg vyvanse. Or you take 3 20 mg addys a day? Bc 60 mg addys definitely don't exist 
Im on 3 20mgs a day
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: Whats your drug of choice? I'm not sober but I didn't think you really did anything
The devil's nector
I'm a sucker for GABAergics as well. Honestly, I think I'm just addicted to being addicted to things if that makes any sense. If I have a handle I'll crush it, If I have an quarter of bud I'll smoke it, If I have a bunch of bars I'll benzo binge for a week. I think its just some inherent personality flaw I have. I've managed to stay functional so thats a plus. I don't really have any advice except good luck man.
See I'm not like that.
I drink too much and I smoke weed while drinking. During the day I never drink and would refuse a free beer even. I kee my addiction boxed in. No drink before 7Pm is my rule and I despise breaking it.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Niffla]
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Niffla said: I used to be a cocaine & xanax addict. The addictions coincided each other. For about two and a half years I'd say. I'd pop a few bars and buy coke daily -- and not just fucking twenty bags.
My full paychecks were going to the habits. I mean I was fucking working solely to support my addictions at that point. And then I eventually lost jobs (plural), severely damaged relationships, and even stole from family when I was broke. I was scum, basically.
It took being faced with eviction, and being fucking homeless, before finally making the decision to quit. I cut ties with a dude I was pretty tight with -- because he was a coke dealer. I went cold turkey on the bars and went through an absolutely hellish, seemingly month plus long withdrawal period.
That was 8 years ago. Now the only substances that I partake in are psychedelics. That's it. Oh, and I enjoy drinking once a week. My cocaine & benzo days however are now a distant memory, thankfully.
Screw you for having been an asshole in the past, but congratulation for kicking the habit...
Do you still crave it after all these years or has your brain finally come to terms with it?
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
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The less I drink, the more I hate it. The more I drink, the more I love it. I drink maybe once or twice a month lately, I try to remind myself of how shitty the feeling is, by remembering how shitty it feels, during htr depressing drunk and the hangover. Its an exercise in remembering when the thought of drinking emerges, and it works. Just gotta make sure never to drink on consecutive days or I start to forget how shitty it feels, and start loving it again.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: shLong]
#22191959 - 09/05/15 09:42 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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shLong said: It took my getting arrested to finally get my shit together back when I was royally fucking shit up. Fucking crack  This was over a decade ago, though. 
Are you serious dude?
You? Crack? I would never have guessed.
It's fucked up how you have to really hit rock bottom to even consider doing something about it.
That's my problem I think (in a fucked up way). I'm fully functional. I never drink and drive, I don't do stupid shit, I don't flip out in anger, I don't drink until I see the bottom of the bottle, I know when to stop, I can control my usage and drink only after a certain time, I never lost a relationship due to it, Other than money, there are no consequence to my life.
But I can't stop.... Which is the major consequence in the end. But of course, until the doc tels me that my liver is failing, odds are I'll keep on drinking....
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
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I guess the moral of the story from what ive read here is: if you've had a serious addiciton, the only 'rehabilitating' way out is getting a legal pharm that covers the bases of your previous DOC. For stim people its ADD meds, for junkies its suboxone/methadone (or kratom), for alcoholics I would guess its benzos?
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Nova]
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Nova said: I guess the moral of the story from what ive read here is: if you've had a serious addiciton, the only 'rehabilitating' way out is getting a legal pharm that covers the bases of your previous DOC. For stim people its ADD meds, for junkies its suboxone/methadone (or kratom), for alcoholics I would guess its benzos?
Yeah, I don't really know anyone who hasn't gotten "sober" without acquiring a replacement addiction. If it's not a substance, it's another habit/crutch like religion, internet, working out, or some other new/rediscovered hobby or interest. The replacement is usually healthier than the original addiction, so I guess it works. We all just want to be happy. Some of us just find happiness in more dangerous places than others, or we mistake immediate absence of pain for actual happiness.
Someone said earlier in this thread that drug users have a harder time enjoying life without drugs because our reward centers are too accustomed to the flood of good feels (paraphrasing, obviously), and I think that's very true. I also think finding a relatively healthy addiction that allows us to grow as human beings can be enriching to our lives.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
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Ive been addicted to Etizolam, I quit that completely(it was very hard at first) Kratom ( which I'm still a daily abuser of) Weed( I used to smoke and buy weed weekly) Now I buy it every few weeks
I have gotten over benzo addiction, when I thought I never would have
Its possible, but its no easy feat
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Exercise and immersing myself in hobbies are two things which have helped me stay sober from heroin and nicotine.
Really cycling saved my life.
Also, you are who your friends are. If your friends are heavily into substances and you're trying to be sober, then you're fucked mate.
You need to surround yourself with people that have similar goals in life.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Lucis]
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Fennario said: Exercise and immersing myself in hobbies are two things which have helped me stay sober from heroin and nicotine.
Really cycling saved my life.
Also, you are who your friends are. If your friends are heavily into substances and you're trying to be sober, then you're fucked mate.
You need to surround yourself with people that have similar goals in life.
Well I don't have to worry about friends. I don't have many, and those I have are good people.
It's the hobbies I need. There's only so much reading I can do in a day...
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
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Fennario said: Exercise and immersing myself in hobbies are two things which have helped me stay sober from heroin and nicotine.
Really cycling saved my life.
Also, you are who your friends are. If your friends are heavily into substances and you're trying to be sober, then you're fucked mate.
You need to surround yourself with people that have similar goals in life.
Well I don't have to worry about friends. I don't have many, and those I have are good people.
It's the hobbies I need. There's only so much reading I can do in a day...
Exercise mate,
then get some pusssy
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: SunnyD]
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addiction has been a bitch in the past for me adter six years of trying to stop substances I have managed to stray away for 5 months now
i am pretty isolated i don't get much out of aa meetings and haven't been to thrilled to meet people their or work the steps
as far as boredom goes stumbleupon, audiobooks, nature walks, video games, making money online, youtube have been my go tos
its a definitely different but substances did not get me to where I want to be even though i am not even entirely sure where that is
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: SunnyD]
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Fennario said: Exercise and immersing myself in hobbies are two things which have helped me stay sober from heroin and nicotine.
Really cycling saved my life.
Also, you are who your friends are. If your friends are heavily into substances and you're trying to be sober, then you're fucked mate.
You need to surround yourself with people that have similar goals in life.
Well I don't have to worry about friends. I don't have many, and those I have are good people.
It's the hobbies I need. There's only so much reading I can do in a day...
Exercise mate,
then get some pusssy
Dude, you have no idea how much I hate exercise and everything that comes with it. I keep in shape by walking and controling what I eat.
I tried the gym and I just can't... I get bored out of my fucking mind. My brain isnt engaged in anything other than trying the flex a damm muscle. Boredom is my biggest enemy. It will drive my to the liquor store faster than anything else. I like watching sports, but not doing them. I hate sweating and feeling exhausted and the muscle pain... I don't know why people say its amazing and endorphine and feel good type of shit. It's not true. Plus I have no use for muscle. They are to expensive to build and they require too much attention otherwise they pout and decide to go away.. Needy motherfuckers these muscles man...
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
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Niffla said: I used to be a cocaine & xanax addict. The addictions coincided each other. For about two and a half years I'd say. I'd pop a few bars and buy coke daily -- and not just fucking twenty bags.
My full paychecks were going to the habits. I mean I was fucking working solely to support my addictions at that point. And then I eventually lost jobs (plural), severely damaged relationships, and even stole from family when I was broke. I was scum, basically.
It took being faced with eviction, and being fucking homeless, before finally making the decision to quit. I cut ties with a dude I was pretty tight with -- because he was a coke dealer. I went cold turkey on the bars and went through an absolutely hellish, seemingly month plus long withdrawal period.
That was 8 years ago. Now the only substances that I partake in are psychedelics. That's it. Oh, and I enjoy drinking once a week. My cocaine & benzo days however are now a distant memory, thankfully.
Screw you for having been an asshole in the past, but congratulation for kicking the habit...
Do you still crave it after all these years or has your brain finally come to terms with it?
Thanks, Pat. I owned up to it for what it's worth. Told the people that I hurt straight to their face what I did, why I did it, and didn't make any excuses.
The Xanax I have zero cravings for anymore, and the only time I would/could conceivably have cravings for coke is if I'm drinking and around someone who is doing it. And I don't put myself in that situation. Shit I have old friends (and a cousin too) who still do coke regularly, and sadly I just have to avoid them.
Being around it isn't good for me. But outside of that I don't have coke cravings anymore. The first few years though, I did. But it doesn't even cross my mind anymore.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
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Lol that's the most retarded statement I've ever seen you make
The East Coast is fucking flooded with that shit you out of touch Canadian
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: OhMrJohnson]
#22194379 - 09/05/15 08:19 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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^^ im on the eastcoast and have been in the heroin game for over 6 years and never seen or heard anyone say they have meth or could even get meth.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22194406 - 09/05/15 08:27 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Location location location.
It was all over the mid-east, not a far stretch to think it would continue east.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: TNK]
#22194447 - 09/05/15 08:36 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I am in Western Canada and can go to the city and find meth in five minutes without even having a source. People literally come up to you and offer to sell you some.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22194459 - 09/05/15 08:39 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I know, that is how it was in Seattle.
You couldn't walk down the street without someone asking if you needed anything.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: TNK]
#22194513 - 09/05/15 08:51 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hey 
I know what you are feeling. I was addicted to amphetamines, severly, for around a year and a half. About the middle of 2012 to the end of 2013, give or take a few months.
I remember once i got in a arguement with my ex gf (fucking whore) after staying up several days and went into a brief period of psychosis. I knew it was time to stop because i had a knife to my throat and WANTED death, but came to an agreement with myself to wait until i was sober then kill myself. I realized how insane it was the next day, after getting some sleep.
Worst part of my addiction i was using atleast 200 something mg vyvanse-120-150 (or what ever 2 and a half 60s are) adderall a day.
Smoked meth a few times, quit the shit before i moved on to meth completely.
I remember feeling no pleasure in anything for a few months after quitting. I remember feeling like i had no energy, no concentration, the intense cravings. General anger, anxiety, shittyness,body aches, etc.
It does get better. Marijuana helped a LOT.
I truely believe i got off easy because i was only addicted to amphetamine, which IMO is nothing compared to benzos/opiates.
I still dont feel like im the same person i was before the addiction. Im glad i quit before something terrible happened.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: xbloodwhipx]
#22194520 - 09/05/15 08:53 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I dont ever have to worry about getting addicted to em again though, because i dont feel shit anymore when i take them 
Tried them last may. Nothing but chest pains and anxiety.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#22194572 - 09/05/15 09:03 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Bill_Oreilly said: ^^ im on the eastcoast and have been in the heroin game for over 6 years and never seen or heard anyone say they have meth or could even get meth.
Dopeheads and methheads tend to not get along so well IME
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: OhMrJohnson]
#22194925 - 09/05/15 10:32 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah...even moreso alcoholics. I fucking hate most alcoholics.
Dudes think theyre addiction aint shit compared to us needle-users.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22196687 - 09/06/15 10:58 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Patlal said: Well I don't have to worry about friends. I don't have many, and those I have are good people.
It's the hobbies I need. There's only so much reading I can do in a day...
Get a part time job. I'd say you dont need more hobbies you need something to make your current hobbies meaningful. So work not for the money but because it create a balance in your life. The few hobbies you take pleasure in become a lot more fun when you only have certain days/times to commit to it. Coming home after work gives your brain something to feel good about, instead of same old, same old.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22197114 - 09/06/15 12:50 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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It's waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too slippery of a slope of strictly define "sober" without strictly defining "drugs." For example, at an AA meeting you'll find people smoking cigarettes/e-cigs and drinking coffee/energy drinks like it's going out of style. Nicotine and caffeine are definitely drugs. Does that mean those people aren't sober?
For me, I smoke weed every day. I'll once or twice a year get some really good cocaine and do it over the course of a night with a few friends. A few times a year I trip acid or shrooms. Other than that my drug use practically zero. I took MDMA on my birthday this year for the first time in 5 years or so and it was amazing. I take Xanax that I keep around on the comedown of coke or psychs just for the ease of sleep. None of these drugs has ever really done me wrong.
That said, I cannot go near amphetamines or alcohol. Alcohol was a bitch, and consumed me for a while. I went to rehab, did the AA thing, got through all that and I haven't touched a drop of alcohol in years now. It's not always easy. But when I say I'm sober, it's how I define it based on what I just typed above. For me, sobriety relates to problem substances and non-problem substances because "drug" is just too difficult to clearly define.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: abltsandwich]
#22197201 - 09/06/15 01:11 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Nobody is truly sober. Everyone is prescribed a drug or at least drinks caffeine.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: abltsandwich]
#22197213 - 09/06/15 01:14 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I have been addicted to weed (and tobacco) for 8 years. Sure its not IV heroin or anything but if fucked me up pretty good mentally.
When I quit almost seven years ago I filled the void with yoga and psychedelics.
I stayed completely clear for years but now I occasionally bake some space cake and I still cant handle that like a normal person. I take one piece, and I MUST have it again the next day, and the next, and the next until the thing is gone. What do I do when I am stoned? Watch series and fucking shows about gold miners
My life is filled with great things like a family and an awesome job. But I still have cravings for that period when I cared about nothing but getting high. Life was simple then. Empty but so blissfully simple.
So I am sober most of the time, life is good. I dont think I will ever be completely free from it though
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Patlal]
#22197287 - 09/06/15 01:31 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I was like you, Once I got ulcers in my stomach and colon I was motivated to quickly find something else to do.
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Re: Who here has a past of addiction, pulled through and still is sober today? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22198611 - 09/06/15 06:29 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Bitter Cactus said: Nobody is truly sober. Everyone is prescribed a drug or at least drinks caffeine.
Not true. I know people who don't take any prescription or nonprescription drugs and don't consume caffeine. They use incantations and yoga and meditation instead. Freaky new age hippies.
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