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Shroomslip
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SirShroomsAlott said: Feeling shitty as all hell, at work, trying to survive the day and leave early.......woke up to find out I got drunk and started calling everyone faggots in various threads.....
It was all in good fun but immediate regret washed over me lol. Can't wait to get out and smoke a jay to get rid of this hangover.
Now you know how I feel. I get drunk or blacked out on benzos and then I wake up and try to log in and I'm banned
Stop posting on benzos. I do every night and then wake up to check the threads section and see a bunch of shit I don't even recall reading much less responding to.
At this point I've actually gone past the "wtf stage" beyond the "oh shit stage" and have entered the "what the fuck did I go and do now" stage.
I guess the upside is my more unchecked/non-cautious side seems to be well liked. I tend to get a lot more +1's, ratings and general "well saids" than when I'm sober..
By some fucking miracle, benzos and alcohol actually seem to make me LESS of an asshole.
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With my face against the floor I can’t see who knocked me out of the way. I don’t want to get back up but I have to so it might as well be today. Nothing appeals to me no one feels like me, I’m too busy being calm to disappear. I’m in no shape to be alone contrary to the shit that you might hear. You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
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Malcolm_Xtasy
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Re: Eerily Manic Chihuahua [Re: Shroomslip]
#22187116 - 09/04/15 09:49 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Most of my Enjoywho posts and ones where I get 20 +1s is when I'm the most fucked up as well
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Re: Eerily Manic Chihuahua [Re: Sheekle]
#22187128 - 09/04/15 09:54 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Dys said: We had some kids partying above us last night. I called the front desk at 10, 11, 12 and 1. I'm about to ruin someone's day at check out because I'm not paying for this shit. Fuck no, I'm still pissed, useless fucks.
partyhrt
Lol I love you Sheeks.
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Re: Eerily Manic Chihuahua [Re: Adden]
#22187134 - 09/04/15 09:55 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Dys said: Yeppers. On our way to Oregon. Had a tire blow out on our uhaul in the middle of nowhere ND and it took over 4 hours to get a guy and a tire to fix it so we lost a day.
Two more 5.5h days and we will be at our extended stay. Two weeks for 500ish bucks at a decent hotel. Post labor day specials I guess, most expensive nights are Saturday and Sunday or it would be cheaper. Our apartment was supposed to be ready for the 1st but the last tenants demolished it, so they're replacing carpet and painting the walls and whatever else.
So far so good, trying to calm down and just take the ride.. today is the first day I've been upset. Whatever can go wrong will go wrong as they say. My bipolar and other anxiety/depersonalization has been great up until today, but after the tire blowout and film crews making it impossible to sleep I guess I'm handling it okay.
I was hoping to stop and see dinkles, but she's NW where we have to cut SW. Oh wells. Can visit friends and peeps later.
Hope to grab some edibles in Washington. Can't wait to see signs for dispensaries and stuff.
What up Dys? Medical edibles are the shit. Stock up on as much as you can. If I would've known getting them through the airport was going to be as easy as it was I would've bought like $300 worth from Denver. Sorry to hear you're feeling down though, my anxiety has been getting the best of me lately as well. Not really sure what to do about it though
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Smoke weed!
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Is anything in particular making you anxious, like life stuff, or is it the anxiety that creeps up on you and you're confuzzled and don't know what's causing it? Benzo w/d?
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SirShroomsAlott
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SirShroomsAlott said: Feeling shitty as all hell, at work, trying to survive the day and leave early.......woke up to find out I got drunk and started calling everyone faggots in various threads.....
It was all in good fun but immediate regret washed over me lol. Can't wait to get out and smoke a jay to get rid of this hangover.
Now you know how I feel. I get drunk or blacked out on benzos and then I wake up and try to log in and I'm banned
Round 2 will most likely be tonight, or at the very least starting sometime around 6. Luckily Koods just edited my post and didn't ban me or give me ban points.
And yeah, anxiety has been tearing me apart lately too, been pretty much under the influence of something 24/7 since last friday because of it never did benzos though because I know I'd get hooked instantly.
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Re: Eerily Manic Chihuahua [Re: Adden]
#22187188 - 09/04/15 10:08 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Nah. Just making the transition from college to being a functional adult. Looking for "real" jobs and deciding what I want to do with my life has proven to be harder than I thought. Combining this with heavy drinking and benzos isn't really helping though.
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Dys said: Smoke weed!
I can't really smoke weed anymore unless its combined with a little alcohol or a benzo. My thoughts just kinda spiral outta control and I end up over analyzing the fuck out of my life. If I do smoke without a benzo or drinking I have to be actively doing something that occupies my mind like a video game or working out.
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Malcolm_Xtasy
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Yeah it kinda sucks. But I was smoking daily for about 7 years so I had a good run. It's not like its going anywhere. It'll always be waiting when/if I decide to come back
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But you still enjoy edibles?
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: Yeah it kinda sucks. But I was smoking daily for about 7 years so I had a good run. It's not like its going anywhere. It'll always be waiting when/if I decide to come back 
I stopped smoking from like 21 to 26 or so. Sometimes you just need a break. Mary Jane was there for me when I needed it for pain. I had already been smoking just as long. It's been 5 more years now. Mid 20s just wasn't jiving with weed.
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Yeah but i'm usually on etizolam
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I woke myself up angrily saying "rock, paper, scissors..." and a list of other options that don't exist.
Weird senseless nightmares have been messing with my head the past few nights...
The night before last I dreamed that I woke up and had a medical professional sitting in a chair next to me, explaining that I'd had a stroke, and I couldn't lift my head up off the pillow and it felt all numb... finally occurred to me that I was just dead asleep and my pillow was making the side of my head numb, so I went back to sleep in my dream and woke up locked up in a psych ward that was more like jail, as there were no doctors, just buff guard-like nurses that were telling me I'd be there for awhile because I'd overdosed on duster?
Weirdness. Oh well
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Good afternoon me bruddahs, an sistears 
ANother day I'm glad to be alive, although I woke up feeling alittle icky from no being in my brain, sad but ill fix it sooner or later
Making food, gonna  Then smoke week, shower, eat more food, rinse and repeat
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Re: Eerily Manic Chihuahua [Re: Shroomslip]
#22187870 - 09/04/15 12:34 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Well I did it, without throwing a single tool. Only now wanting to sleep but it's too late to bother. Might as well just stay up the few extra hours and go to bed "early".
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With my face against the floor I can’t see who knocked me out of the way. I don’t want to get back up but I have to so it might as well be today. Nothing appeals to me no one feels like me, I’m too busy being calm to disappear. I’m in no shape to be alone contrary to the shit that you might hear. You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
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