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Moonshoe
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: cosmicg]
#22168802 - 08/31/15 12:01 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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The LSD and MDMA would be for if you were going to die anyways, from a terminal illness like cancer. LSD is often used for death anxiety and often helps people come to profound peace with their own death process and allows people to die with equanimity, peace and understanding. The MDMA is useful for PTSD type symptoms. Together they would potentially allow you to die glowing with love and understanding and joy.
If I was actually going to KILL myself (not going to die otherwise) I would go for like heroin and xanax, get the best rush of my life then fall into an unconscious sleep.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Moonshoe]
#22168807 - 08/31/15 12:03 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Want to clarify that I strongly advise against suicide and i am in no way counselling it or advising anyone how to do it!
Please get help, you have no idea how much happienss in your future you might miss out on or how much you might hurt your friends and family if you kill yourself.
So much better to sell all your possessions, quit your job and go on a trip around the world.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Moonshoe]
#22168850 - 08/31/15 12:14 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I hear you Mantis.
Go out Aldous Huxley style.
I also concur on selling your possessions, travelling, and taking chances before going to such drastic, final measures. Who knows what you may run into in a world so full of opportunities.
The trick is to transcend the bullshit.
Still I feel as though dying would be similar to a trip on it's own. You hear countless stories about people and children having near-death experiences and seeing the light, or being surrounded by all of their loved ones, their entire lives flashing before their eyes, tunnels, etc...
Isn't DMT released in the brain naturally upon birth and death, or is that just a rumor?
I personally believe in reincarnation, and ending your own life will lead to bad karma and follow you into your next one. When the days get really bad, I wonder what crimes of morality I committed in my past life.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: cosmicg]
#22168859 - 08/31/15 12:16 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yes Near death/ death experiences will be a trip and many thing its natural DMT at work. But I figure why take the chance? Ill smoke a bunch of DMT on my death bed to make sure my body has extra to squirt into me when I die.
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Bitter Cactus
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Moonshoe]
#22168891 - 08/31/15 12:24 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hobos downtown in the winter get cold and sometimes just jump off the buildings.
Heroin is tough to find here and nobody has any guns that I know.
Most drug overdoses DO NOT work no matter how hard you try. My friend did two half gram shots back to back of meth and survived. He had to go to the hospital but he survived.
I do not advocate for suicide either. Just gotta mention that at least so I don't get another ban.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22168926 - 08/31/15 12:32 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Meth is really hard to OD on. If those were two half gram shots of H and your friend had no tolerance, he'd be dead no question.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: hex_enduction]
#22168950 - 08/31/15 12:38 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I bought a 150$ bag of meth in it, that had a least a gram and a half of meth in it. Over the course of the day I was doing shots and smoking it, then got so paranoid I ate the entire bag cause I thought I was seconds away from being arrested and didn't want to go to jail.
I had full blown psychosis and was sprinting up and down streets, hiding in people's backyards and garages, doing front flips over fences running shirtless. I am surprised as fuck I never got arrested or had a stroke. I ate at least a gram not even fucking with you.
It is very tough to OD on meth.
And btw I still have slight PTSD from that psychosis, there would be armies of cops and choppers chasing me man it was so fucked up. That was my ultimate low.
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Asante
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: hex_enduction]
#22168964 - 08/31/15 12:40 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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My life has ran off the rails. I have become 360 lbs. You have no idea what an ordeal, agony and humiliation that is.
I am in the process of changing that but do get occasional thoughts of dying as the easy way out.
One way's getting hit by a brick sized metallic asteroid, the other is macgyvering together a high explosive bomb and blowing up my head with it. If you're a chemistry enthusiast, all you need is a few shopping trips away.
Look at this, its perfect, soda bottle full of PLX, you wouldnt notice a thing in the 1/40,000 second the shockwave needs to do its thing:
But I do NOT want to die. I'm not suicidal at all, part of me just daydreams about a quick fix.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22169013 - 08/31/15 12:50 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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It is indeed very hard to OD on meth but I never said that was the plan, I said opiates and benzos, which it is extremely easy to OD on and is what they are now using for executions in America on death row. Used to be phenobarbitol but now they are using hydrocodone and midazolam (opiate and benzo)
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Moonshoe]
#22169069 - 08/31/15 01:03 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
Moonshoe said: It is indeed very hard to OD on meth but I never said that was the plan, I said opiates and benzos, which it is extremely easy to OD on and is what they are now using for executions in America on death row. Used to be phenobarbitol but now they are using hydrocodone and midazolam (opiate and benzo)
That's not at all what I would have expected. I figured they just shot you with strychnine or some shit
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: hex_enduction]
#22169125 - 08/31/15 01:19 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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hex dude you have no idea how mostrous a strychnine injection is.
You convulse and cramp to death while wide awake. The Nazi swine Oskar Dirlewanger had groups of Jewish women strippped and injected with strychnine to convulse to death as an amusing spectacle for him and his friends to watch, the sick fuck. Their naked bodies would twist and contort to death in the most agonizing way imaginable.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Asante]
#22169158 - 08/31/15 01:26 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I am not really into tech n9ne but this thread has me thinking of this song I listen to sometimes when I need a fresh change of perspective. Lyrics are real.
[url=http://https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KW2Eo1dnL8c]http:///url]
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Moonshoe
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Asante]
#22169161 - 08/31/15 01:26 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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By the way Asante I love you and hope you feel well. I know you struggle with feelings related to your weight and that is understandable. But try to have the perspective that whatever your problems they are only temporary and apparent reflections of maya or illusion. The true underlying spiritual reality from which you are inseperable is love, light and Bliss (Sat, Chit, Ananda).
The path you are on (spiritual revelation through chemognosis) is far preferable to suicide. If you ever feel like ending it is becoming a more attractive solution, please PM me, I am always here to talk.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Moonshoe]
#22169176 - 08/31/15 01:30 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I have plans for when life becomes unbearable, but you guys probably think it's dumb. It's also pretty agonizing.
The plan is to go to a dangerous nature place, probably a jungle or desert, then I will eat my final shrooms and wander into the wildernis without supplies. I'll be dead before I'll come down.
And it will give my family a great story...
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Turtletotem]
#22169181 - 08/31/15 01:31 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Why make agonizing plans? To me opiates are a tragedy for healthy people but a godsend for the very sick.
If you have to die why not enjoy the rush of opiates that you (hopefully) denied yourself during life?
I am saving opiates for when all else is grim and dark.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Moonshoe]
#22169183 - 08/31/15 01:32 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
Moonshoe said: Why make agonizing plans? To me opiates are a tragedy for healthy people but a godsend for the very sick.
If you have to die why not enjoy the rush of opiates that you (hopefully) denied yourself during life?
I am saving opiates for when all else is grim and dark.
I'm affraid I don't really want to die when life is blissful.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Turtletotem]
#22169185 - 08/31/15 01:32 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Unless you believe in fairies and dragons, you really only get 80 years of existence and it's over. You are only going to be on the planet earth alive one time. Fact.
My attitude is, for the next zillion trillion infinite years I will not exist ever. This is your only time alive which is crazy if you think about it.
Why end it now?
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22169194 - 08/31/15 01:33 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
Bitter Cactus said: Unless you believe in fairies and dragons, you really only get 80 years of existence and it's over. You are only going to be on the planet earth alive one time. Fact.
My attitude is, for the next zillion trillion infinite years I will not exist ever. This is your only time alive which is crazy if you think about it.
Why end it now?
Woah not now, mate. But when like, alzheimer's kicks in or cancer or some shit like that.
I got PLEEEENTYYYY of years left, fairies and dragons willing.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#22169203 - 08/31/15 01:35 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I would only kill myself if I had a terminal illness that I could not hope to cure and destroyed my quality of life and was certain to only get worse. In that case it would be better to die quickly and in euphoric bliss rather then slowly and agonizingly.
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Re: Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? And how would you choose to die if you could pick? [Re: Turtletotem]
#22169206 - 08/31/15 01:36 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I know, but for a religious person they think they are gonna be flying in the clouds with angels and jesus and all that. I really doubt they have kratom or weed in heaven too so it would be super lame and boring after the millionth year of giving Jesus blowjobs all day.
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