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nice1returns
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#22135917 - 08/24/15 03:04 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hi fellow shroomers, I just got out of hospital after over dosing on opiates.
I was taking kratom, etizolam and snorting fent analogues from china.
I remember taking a large dose of all 3 and puking then blacking out.
I went to hell. The experience was beyond any drug or any experience ive ever had in my life. Truely a NDE although I was never actually dead but I left my body, I experienced astral travel. I was bouncing forwards and backwards in time. Viewing other dimensions, other timelines.
I went to hell and heaven. Those words are not meant in the christian form. What I saw was that I'm born with several attributes, I'm a travellor, keeper of knowledge, burden and the sign of the moon. I died several times over and over, the pain was undbearable, I was being burnt alive, poisened, killed by a secret order...
I saw hell, theres many spirits there all extremely negative but they have a choice to reincarnate and elevate their spirits if they choose. I was told I would be shown the the truth. We re all one being, seperation and time are illusions, this life is only a school and everything has a purpose we are not aware of here...
Doing good deeds elevates the spiritual self. If you make it to heaven you can do anything you want, i saw creations other spiritual beings had made and the joy there is immense, the music was beautiful, we are the music.
I was told no one would believe me if I spoke the word. Tell what I saw on the other side. Odd thing is I can't disregard it for several reasons, one is tha the things I was shown contradicted my previous beliefs about life. The other is that I saw my own future and that of many others and all the predictions came true. Its been scaring me shitless because I know what people are going to do and say before they do it. My psychic abilities have been blown open.
I was also told I could heal people with my hands, my father gave me the gift.
I realise ths sounds like a heap of shit to most people, I just had to speak my truth. I only know what I've experienced. God spoke to me and told me we are all one being but we are not alone. I know we are all one as I saw and lived so many lives. We actually exist as many lives at the same time parralel universes of all possible choices.
In one of them I died when I overdosed, I had to see it all, my corpse was shovelled into a bin, I haunted the hospital staff and they confirmed a cold presence everytime i did but they blamed natural causes. I told them all their names, what they were doing as I saw it from outside my body.
If I went into people I saw their lifelines and the insane truth that I am them, I am you, you are me, we all one but we're not alone.
Fucked up shit make of it what you will. I could write a book I saw so much on the other side.
Please play carefully, don't think your life has no meaning as you are truely valueable and every little action effects our counsciousness, we feel what is right, we're here to learn and elevate the human spirit, to ascend. Peace and joy to all.
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It's crazy that you experienced all that after overdosing, but what you were "shown" is something common. It's just a form of Spiritualism believed by many.
I know members here that subscribe to the same theory, so does my dad and girlfriend. Maybe it's something you believed all along but didn't know how to explain it until this experience.
Also, I really don't think the Kratom contributed to your OD since it doesn't cause respiratory depression. Etiz and dangerous Fentanyl Analogs certainly do, though. Not surprised at all when people OD off of any benzo/opiate combo since it's one of the most common OD cases in the US>
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Re: Overdosed [Re: kr0nik0]
#22135979 - 08/24/15 03:21 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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I need to go OD so I can achieve spiritual enlightenment. I've experienced what you describe on other drugs, without ever OD'ing or blacking out - so that's good I guess. I experienced everything pretty similarly years ago on DXM/MDMA - psychic time travel, etc. Still confuses me to this day. Glad you're ok. How many OD tales does it take before people stop using RC's?
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Re: Overdosed [Re: kr0nik0]
#22136006 - 08/24/15 03:26 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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I should of known it was dangerous i think i was meant to have this experience,
when i came round i was on a respirator, tubes down my throat, up my nose and in my arms, it was awful, i shit myself, i had drool coming down my face but cudnt move as this breathing tube was down my throat, even had a tube in my dick, it hurt like fuck when they ripped it out.
The oddest thing is all my life once a year i get this roaring in my ears, the day before the over dose i had the roaring all day and in hel; i became a part of a water fall and the roaring was the sound of the water fall. I hope its done with now and I never get it again.
The doctors said it was a rare form of tinnitus. Its actually a sound from one of my lifelines where i reincarnated in a shower and went down the drain, thats just one lifeline of thousands I lived.
I had opposite views to most things was shown, ive completely changed, Im a different person now. I dont do drugs anymore. Im an idiot for doing so much fent and eti together, i could of lost my arm, i was blacked out fr several days on bathroom floor.
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Yeah I wouldn't do drugs anymore either.
What's the Alan Watts quote? Once you get the message, hang up the phone? Yeah.
-------------------- koods said: Young male going by the name "Bassfreak" entered Worcester General complaining of a sharp pain in his buttock region after attending EDM event. Attending physician considered a possible diagnosis of acute rave anus, but upon further investigation it was determined there was nothing cute about patient's anus. Life-long trip report
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Re: Overdosed [Re: pfxtc]
#22136036 - 08/24/15 03:33 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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I actually enjoyed the hospital a lot and my family bought me all this new shit hehe it was like an awesum holiday but i came round a non smoker and non drinker/druggy
apart from this methadone the docs fed me, a huge syringe of methadone twice daily lol but i quit it immediatly against there advice after one week :p
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I actually enjoyed the hospital a lot and my family bought me all this new shit hehe it was like an awesum holiday but i came round a non smoker and non drinker/druggy
apart from this methadone the docs fed me, a huge syringe of methadone twice daily lol but i quit it immediatly against there advice after one week :p
Well you've been a non-druggy for what, a few days? maybe a week? Be careful, relapse is always possible. Toss those RC's in the trash. I've had a few surgeries, some pretty major, and always liked being in the hospital too , but waking up after an OD sounds pretty terrible. I've never had to deal with that, I've always went to sleep sober.
-------------------- koods said: Young male going by the name "Bassfreak" entered Worcester General complaining of a sharp pain in his buttock region after attending EDM event. Attending physician considered a possible diagnosis of acute rave anus, but upon further investigation it was determined there was nothing cute about patient's anus. Life-long trip report
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Re: Overdosed [Re: pfxtc]
#22136109 - 08/24/15 03:47 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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I was also told I could heal people with my hands, my father gave me the gift.
I realise ths sounds like a heap of shit to most people,

Nice work on getting clean, but putting yourself up on a pedestal is setting yourself up for a hard fall. Have maybe a realistic plan where you can be happy and get by to fall back on in case this whole messiah thing doesn't pan out.
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nice1returns said: The oddest thing is all my life once a year i get this roaring in my ears, the day before the over dose i had the roaring all day and in hel; i became a part of a water fall and the roaring was the sound of the water fall. I hope its done with now and I never get it again.
That's interesting. Lots of people associate a roaring or rushing sound with the beginning of a sleep paralysis episode or as an indication a lucid dream is about to happen. It's a really common hypnagogic hallucination. If I "hear" it I know I'm in for sleep paralysis with a high chance of a lucid dream to follow. Your NDE experience reminds of that kind of stuff.
The roaring tinnits thing is something I experienced wide awake at least once as a very young kid. Pretty sure I had a lucid dream hours later when I went to bed.
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Real sorry that happened to you. Those fentanyl analogues are bad news I'm afraid. Super happy you survived
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Man it sucks to hear you pushed yourself that far, but I am glad to hear you're ok and that you've grown from it .
Those beliefs are not far off my own, particularly the time thing. I believe all lives are the same thing, we are not separate, but each ego is a prick on the surface of the same whole.
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Re: Overdosed [Re: Cepheus]
#22136335 - 08/24/15 04:37 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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What you saw was a chemical clusterfuck because you where dying. eg hallucinations things that ARNT REAL.
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kakashi68 said: What you saw was a chemical clusterfuck because you where dying. eg hallucinations things that ARNT REAL.
Apparently, neither is grammar.
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kakashi68 said: What you saw was a chemical clusterfuck because you where dying. eg hallucinations things that ARNT REAL.
How the hell can you know that. Please tell me how you know what happened to him.
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Is there a megapicard?
why yes there is
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Re: Overdosed [Re: Salomon]
#22137029 - 08/24/15 07:04 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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This has been the best thread I've read all day.
OP, were you very spiritual before this evebt and/or were you raised in a religious household? Just curious...
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