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moonrockmushy
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Yeah go to the doctor if you're really not sleeping, or just start getting up early and don't spend all night dicking around on the internet.
Alcohol is an awful way to self medicate for insomnia. I'm not exactly sure what your goals are here, but you should read over what you wrote here before and try to remind yourself of what is really important and not puss out when things start to get tough. Stay focused. If you work at it and put actual time in trying to develop a healthy routine you will feel better in the long term.
Nice work tho.
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Yeah that sucks. I am always compelled to drink while withdrawing, but I always regret it. I'ts a shitty sleep and makes me feel bad enough upon waking that I have a really hard time keeping my priorities straight. I'd worry you're headed for trouble because now your use is having an impact in your life and you're kinda dragging your feet not really even fully confronting the problem, which you're entitled to do, but that's not the way to move forward. That's a good way to get stuck in this cycle for years on end and most likely allow things to escalate.
You would do yourself a huge favor if you kept it in mind the long-term consequences of your actions and not give in to momentary pleasure that really isn't even that pleasurable. Put in the work, then you will feel better, but only to an extent. Without some larger idea about what you want out of life it can be really hard to get through the rough parts, so even if you slip try to stay focused and always be thinking about improving. Putting that out of your mind for one night to get a break often sets you back more than you expect.
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What is the finest feeling before the thought that "I need/deserve that drink..."?
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Re: what can i expect? [Re: yogabunny]
#22136950 - 08/24/15 06:50 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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i dont understand the question?
how did i feel before i started craving a drink?
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What's the best feeling other thank drunk. What's the best feeling before you decided to start convincing yourself you need alcohol to sleep?
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Re: what can i expect? [Re: yogabunny]
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honestly, its clouded. my triggers are really small and once i get it in my head, its over. however, i did not drink last night. instead, i drank a whole box of yogi tea, about 6 bags of sleepy time tea with valarian root, some ib profen, and melatonin. this probably wasnt the healthiest route, but it worked.
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Yay!
Woo hoo day 22 
Day 9 for me!
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Re: what can i expect? [Re: yogabunny]
#22139908 - 08/25/15 09:26 AM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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i find that the first week is the hardest. the yogi kava tea bags actually work...
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yogabunny
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I will have to get some of those! I tried kava tincture last year & didnt really get any effects.
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Re: what can i expect? [Re: yogabunny]
#22146133 - 08/26/15 12:20 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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yogabunny said: What's the best feeling other thank drunk. What's the best feeling before you decided to start convincing yourself you need alcohol to sleep?
hmm well I enjoy K more than drinking.. I used it to quit drinking because I decided I liked K more than alcohol and combining the two is really bad for your organs, particularly your liver. After I stopped craving alcohol, I slowly tapered off of the K.. it was easier than trying to quit drinking cold turkey because the K addiction is solely psychological. although Im not necessarily recommending it, in fact I would actually recommend against it because it will feel much better to rid yourself of alcohol without relying on other substances to do it.
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Hmmm I kind of meant the finest feeling while sober.
For example one of mine is right after a good yoga session.
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Re: what can i expect? [Re: yogabunny]
#22146647 - 08/26/15 01:45 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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I guess its a difficult question to answer because I was a generally unhappy person before I discovered drugs & alcohol. My home life was shitty and I was depressed all of the time and pretty much all I did was play video games constantly -- arguably just as unhealthy as bingeing on drugs. Drugs & alcohol made me start to enjoy and appreciate life in a manner I previously didn't. Although I must admit, as time goes on, I find myself feeling down when I feel like I cant feel good without drugs. This ultimately has led me to start exploring other avenues of endorphin production, such as playing music, making art, or rock climbing. And of course, drinking Slurm.
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Re: what can i expect? [Re: yogabunny]
#22146929 - 08/26/15 02:44 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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yogabunny said: I will have to get some of those! I tried kava tincture last year & didnt really get any effects.
ive had real kava before and it was actually pretty damn good, but the process in making it is a pain in the ass. the yogi kava tea bags have kava in it, but a small amount. i usually make a drink using 8 tea bags, water, and some milk. ill get the liquid up to just under boiling and then let the bags sit for a good 30 minutes. i also agitate the bags every so often. mixing the kava drink with the sleepy time mix makes for a great relaxing feeling. i mean, you dont get fucked up, but you def notice a pleasant difference.
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