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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Sun King]
#23044228 - 03/25/16 10:13 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Rahz]
#23044231 - 03/25/16 10:14 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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OrgoneConclusion said: Rahz, she agreed to meet with me come May! She wrote: "I have to after all we have been through!"
Stockholm Syndrome anyone? 
If there's one thing we can learn from Beauty and the Beast, it's that love's all that matters if you keep them locked up long enough. 
I am hoping you will be a character witness at the trial.
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This is such a fun thread. What's going to happen if she shows up with her boy friend?
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Icelander]
#23044455 - 03/25/16 11:40 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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Her son is a big, strapping 19 yo. Will probably be there and say "I hear you been messing with my mom, old man." *slowly he puts on leather gloves* "You and me are gonna have a serious talk!"
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OrgoneConclusion said: That is not her - just what she looks like to me! 
Well it is quite the picture! and big ! seems Interesting that you say you have no fantasies, yet do your best to stimulate them in others ... or yourself?
my libido is certainly attenuated, to the point of some ambivalence ...
in my case 'back in the day' there was the 'relationship' based on mostly lust, the one based on mostly friendship, and various mixtures. What never manifested was a long trusting joyous evolving intimacy with the ability of both parties to explore vulnerabilities
might have been interesting...
but whether the path is 'relationship' or meditation it seems the boundaries of the seeking self will get burned
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Many of my edges have already been rounded (or burned) off due to the changes I am going through. I am discussing this event here and not in the Relationships Forum because something otherworldly happened to me.
One example would be me reconnecting with my father after 8 years of being estranged. How does merely meeting a woman make one want to heal unrelated broken relationships? In my previous world, there is no correlation.
I am hoping that during this next meeting, I can discover if it was something "real" (external) or all just a crazy projection (internal) triggered by some unexpected affection.
Not sure if I mentioned it in this thread, but for about a month after our encounter I was getting hundreds of powerful "electric" shocks running through my body every day. Kundalini perhaps? An ordinary romantic crush doesn't cause such weirdness.
The pain of merely being separated from her was the worst feeling I ever had - and that lasted for months. I really don't have the words to describe it except to say, that in one sense, this ride has been wilder than my deepest psychedelic journey.
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OrgoneConclusion said: One example would be me reconnecting with my father after 8 years of being estranged. How does merely meeting a woman make one want to heal unrelated broken relationships? In my previous world, there is no correlation.
Yes. I did this with my own father after years of being estranged after my 'other-worldly' woman experience.
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OrgoneConclusion said: Not sure if I mentioned it in this thread, but for about a month after our encounter I was getting hundreds of powerful "electric" shocks running through my body every day. Kundalini perhaps? An ordinary romantic crush doesn't cause such weirdness.
I've also experienced this to a high degree since. Coupled with the endless synchronicity that occurred whenever I was with her.
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OrgoneConclusion said: The pain of merely being separated from her was the worst feeling I ever had - and that lasted for months. I really don't have the words to describe it except to say, that in one sense, this ride has been wilder than my deepest psychedelic journey.
Yes.
So basically, yes, yes, and double yes. It gives me faith that what I experienced was not just barmy to hear you talk of your experience. And I know, as a scientist, you have researched the phenomenon in other places (as have I). Pretty sure we aint bonkers, although it's always a possibility...
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Can't we be both bonkers AND having had a "real" experience?
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Sometimes I think the world makes us feel 'bonkers' for having a 'real' experience...
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OrgoneConclusion said: Can't we be both bonkers AND having had a "real" experience?

If you now believe in the paranormal etc. why do you keep going after others who lay claims to such stuff? You've had a long history of debunking the very thing you've come to believe.
Have you ever asked yourself why you and not everyone else? What makes you so special?
These are serious questions. I'd like a seriously considered answer.
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Icelander]
#23046606 - 03/25/16 11:15 PM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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Bonkers, all of you.
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Thanatos10]
#23046613 - 03/25/16 11:17 PM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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That's a little all inclusive not to mention the pot calling the kettle black.
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Icelander]
#23046637 - 03/25/16 11:24 PM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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I know I'm crazy, but that doesn't change the fact that you are all crazy
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Thanatos10]
#23046872 - 03/26/16 01:03 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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Then why bother to say it. It's a given. Humanity is insane.
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Icelander]
#23047121 - 03/26/16 04:54 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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OrgoneConclusion said: Can't we be both bonkers AND having had a "real" experience?

If you now believe in the paranormal etc. why do you keep going after others who lay claims to such stuff? You've had a long history of debunking the very thing you've come to believe.
Have you ever asked yourself why you and not everyone else? What makes you so special?
These are serious questions. I'd like a seriously considered answer.
I am not sure what happened or if it was paranormal. It was however, the most unusual personal event of my 60 years.
If I accepted Twin Flame mythology to be real, I would also have to accept the idea of souls and life-after-death which I do not.
What I DO know is that my symptoms have matched others (JSB for example); yet I have not come to a conclusion. I am merely sharing a personal narrative.
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You seemed pretty sure when it happened. If I heard a woman's voice plainly talking to me while I looked at her from a distance not moving her lips or making a sound and then consequently had major life changing events of the magnitude you proclaim I would likely default to belief all the while knowing it's still a best guess.
My skepticism comes from the fact that you said that if it had been a man speaking to you instead of a woman you wouldn't have had the same reaction. So that tells me it's romantic in nature and so makes it connected to spirituality proper unlikely IMO. Unless the fairy tales be true that is.
I've asked this before but you have never answered in depth but how has this event changed your day to day life experience with the world and humanity in general? Other than this thread I've seen no change in your overall posting style. How has this ground breaking event changed the way you live moment to moment and relate to humanity at large?
Again my guess from all you've said and your subsequent doubts and uncertainty since the event are that it was romantic in nature and your assessment of possible PTSD or something similar would be the most likely. Maybe you've been shut down for a long time and your psyche had a melt down.
What say you? The only reason I'm pushing on this is that you have brought it up for discussion in open forum. I realize some may think it unseemly for me to question you in such a direct and pointed way but it seems you want to talk about it.
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Icelander] 1
#23047213 - 03/26/16 06:07 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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Other than this thread I've seen no change in your overall posting style
And my penmanship remains unaltered...
Besides relationships with my family having changed for the better (how do you witness that in a forum?), I have been tackling many personal issues long avoided, both material and emotional.
I no longer hide out in TV, drugs or alcohol. I sold off my marijuana paraphernalia, grow lights, equipment and so forth. I am not a teetotaler or a reformed druggie, but I don't drink & toke out of self pity any more. Those things are now an adjunct rather than a staple.
My post count has dropped dramatically because I have more productive things to do.
In short, for the longest time I avoided living life - just killing time waiting for The Reaper, now I want to embrace what time I have left. If that is not a significant change then I do not know what would fit your criterion.
This encounter pulled me out of my complacency - kicking & screaming, mind you, but it took a powerful shock to effect such.
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Will you please write a self-help book?
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Sun King]
#23047263 - 03/26/16 06:48 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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The biggest insight is that now I get Sun King's brand of humor.
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