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Sun King



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my grandma started acting strange when she got old.
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The protective thing is a little bit concerning to me. Perhaps when you noticed your appreciation for this person, you let yourself go a step further than that and became possessive. Even in long term relationships, being possessive is a huge turn off, and you gone and done it in the first little bit. In all seriousness, if I were you I would attempt to grow this ability to appreciate a woman, and try to extend it to more women if possible. That feeling is satisfying beyond any measure, and will outweigh any benefit there might be to being in control of one woman or another. If that appreciation lands you in a relationship, then so be it, but if it does it will be one of a more free and open character.
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: xFrockx]
#22072237 - 08/10/15 03:29 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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DisoRDeR
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: xFrockx]
#22072255 - 08/10/15 03:33 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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OrgoneConclusion said: I am now wondering how I am going to reclaim my old status after vomiting this out in public. 
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: xFrockx]
#22072256 - 08/10/15 03:33 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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Protective is way different than possessive. I never had kids, but I imagine that is the way a parent feels.
When I was a kid, my dad saved me from a dangerous situation wherein he risked his life without a second thought.
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: DisoRDeR]
#22072268 - 08/10/15 03:35 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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What is fear and sadness?
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Sun King]
#22072274 - 08/10/15 03:37 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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I know that SolarPrince always has my back.
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xFrockx


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Between Dido and Dido? At the risk of punishment, I am going to half jokingly say this to you in good faith. You are one fucked up individual.
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xFrockx


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Idk man, just the vibe I got.
edit: Is it any less fucked up you saw this person as a parent would see a child?
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: xFrockx]
#22072292 - 08/10/15 03:43 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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True. I am expressing my feminine side is all.
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-------------------- “Strengthened by contemplation and study, I will not fear my passions like a coward. My body I will give to pleasures, to diversions that I’ve dreamed of, to the most daring erotic desires, to the lustful impulses of my blood, without any fear at all, for whenever I will— and I will have the will, strengthened as I’ll be with contemplation and study— at the crucial moments I’ll recover my spirit as was before: ascetic.”
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From some crystal & unicorn website:
Many Twin-Flames face obstacles such as distance, significant age difference and other conflicting circumstances that force the two to remove ego and many patterns of thinking they previously thought were right.
Damn, what does it all mean?
I know it wasn't all in my mind as my host and best friend commented that we seemed perfect and natural together.
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Quote:
Many Twin-Flames face obstacles such as distance, significant age difference and other conflicting circumstances that force the two to remove ego and many patterns of thinking they previously thought were right.
Perhaps the other half holds the key?
Otherwise, there are ways to overcome such superficial differences...
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thats weird. The post you made just before this was a bit dastardly. Kinda a send the bitch some anthrax vibes. peace
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Lion]
#22075635 - 08/11/15 09:48 AM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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Ya'll are some trippy cats. And here's my
Glimpsing the divine in another is definitely a spectacular moment. It's made even better when you then in turn see the divine in yourself. As a mirror. It makes me think of some quotes out there about only being able to see one's own humanity through others'.
If a single person is the ticket for you, I think that's well and good. Just as for many a guru/preacher/teacher can be useful and helpful. A singular point of focus can IMO be quite good. Especially if a broad focus leads one away from a sense of divine presence. In that case focusing in on whatever it is that triggers a sense of divinity, well, why not?
I do think that if one can take that singular focus and gradually expand it outward, then the risk of dependency dwindles in turn
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Kickle] 1
#22075981 - 08/11/15 11:20 AM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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Had a few significant breakthroughs last night.
1. It was the first night without dreams of her and subsequent tears. I realize that I cannot win her back with sadness, poor me and neediness. I may never get her back, but if we do meet again, I cannot be all like "Look at all the pain you caused me!" as that is one of the reasons she ran in the first place.
2. Corollary to #1: Fear, not hate, is the opposite of love. I cannot claim to love while being consumed by fear.
3. In a similar fashion to WWJD (what would Jesus do?) as a guide to actions, I am attempting to use my own internal phrase of "I love her more than my own life."
Example: I am trying to reform my body (weight loss & tone) and other areas of my life. So when I reach for a soda or beer or... I simply ask myself "I love her more than my own life, but do I love her more than a soda (or an hour of mindless TV or...)?"
Sounds silly, but it is a powerful tool for personal transformation!
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Try learning how to exercise with strict nasal breathing. I do it 
Also, you shouldn't renounce anything if you don't enjoy the renunciation. Look for dat place where you have no guile or motive 
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: yeah]
#22076264 - 08/11/15 12:58 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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I don't really know where I'm going with what I said I hope you get through this shit because I as well have been through a period of strong sense of loss/beyond wistfulness over a girl and only "getting over it" worked in the end
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Sun King



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I am sorry that you have lost your mind.
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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Sun King]
#22076823 - 08/11/15 02:58 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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I know it is around here somewhere. *OC checks under the couch*
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