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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: MarkostheGnostic]
    #23058134 - 03/29/16 08:48 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

*BREAKTHROUGH ALERT*

She called last night and giggled like a schoolgirl. She told me "I am glad I know you, for now I "see" you for who you really are." This after a year of pouring out my heart in letters, hundreds of hours of praying to a God I don't believe in and way too many tears.

Strange, but I was only quietly pleased, whereas month ago, I would have felt like heaven opened up and rained manna down upon me and danced naked in the street in celebration. Perhaps that means I am much more grounded now or have matured. Dunno.

Then my ego mind did a very human thing: tried to turn a positive into a negative. It suddenly dawned on me that this very fragile and guarded woman was opening up and that I could very well be responsible for the care and safety of her heart. What if I fuck up and inadvertently hurt her?

I forget which wise sage said:

If you don't get what you want you are unhappy.

If you get what you don't want you are unhappy.

And even if you get what you want you are unhappy, for now you are afraid you are going to lose it.





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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #23058149 - 03/29/16 08:52 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

and giggled like a schoolgirl.

Not a good sign at all imo.  However I suggest you go through with the experiment. Maybe the next level of wake up or true love as in the fairy tales. :popcorn:


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #23058166 - 03/29/16 08:58 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

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What if I fuck up and inadvertently hurt her?



I think this is a given. Never had a deep relationship where this didn't happen.

It goes both ways.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Icelander]
    #23058170 - 03/29/16 08:59 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

Why not a good sign? To me it shows trust and playfulness.

That's the way I am reading it, DAMMIT! :mad2:


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23058180 - 03/29/16 09:01 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

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What if I fuck up and inadvertently hurt her?



I think this is a given. Never had a deep relationship where this didn't happen.

It goes both ways.




I know that, but it means that this man-child will have to complete his transformation to a functional adult. That is very scary.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #23058185 - 03/29/16 09:03 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

Yeah. Fear. That seems to unerlie all my actions right now. Fucking bummer. So much fear.

Still, I know what awaits if I can conquer it; my true self. That's worth more than anything.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23058197 - 03/29/16 09:07 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

Uther, it is time to pull the sword from the stone and slay the dragons.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #23058295 - 03/29/16 09:36 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

You need to quit waffling and go full nutter.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Sun King]
    #23058334 - 03/29/16 09:54 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

Do you mean to tell me there is another level?

:woah:


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #23058391 - 03/29/16 10:11 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

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OrgoneConclusion said:
What if I fuck up and inadvertently hurt her?



I think this is a given. Never had a deep relationship where this didn't happen.

It goes both ways.




I know that, but it means that this man-child will have to complete his transformation to a functional adult. That is very scary.




When I was interested in the girl at the apartment office, I was terrified. I think I was more afraid that, she would say yes than no.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Sun King]
    #23058402 - 03/29/16 10:15 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

Exactly!


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #23058461 - 03/29/16 10:33 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

See how deep I am.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Sun King]
    #23058473 - 03/29/16 10:37 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

Umm... I would rather not answer.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #23058484 - 03/29/16 10:42 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

:awkwardconfusion:


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: Sun King]
    #23058650 - 03/29/16 11:31 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)



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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: tryptkaloids]
    #23058664 - 03/29/16 11:36 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

I don't think the Buddha got laid much.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: tryptkaloids]
    #23058701 - 03/29/16 11:47 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)

I was very calm when I met her. It was only after we parted that I went nuts.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: tryptkaloids]
    #23059175 - 03/29/16 01:46 PM (7 years, 9 months ago)



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" All that lives was born to die"-Anom.

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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #23059296 - 03/29/16 02:19 PM (7 years, 9 months ago)

Buddhist and Stoic observations.

Good! You really don't want to lose yourself in your elation, because another adage runs something like, "Careful what you ask for - you may receive it." The God you don't 'believe' in is THAT which is Ultimately Real, and for us mortals, THAT which 'actually is.' I prayed to have my former marriage saved, but today I can exuberantly say that I'm quite pleased I didn't remain a moment longer with that woman. Back then, I wanted to punch out those who said things like "Every dark cloud has a silver lining." But these human adages work both ways, hence the wisdom of the sages, East and West. Tread lightly.


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Re: My Existential Crisis [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #23062608 - 03/30/16 09:44 AM (7 years, 9 months ago)



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