I want to share one of the two scariest trip situations I´ve ever had. It was a normal evening and I had some fresh shrooms that I wanted to eat and I´ve done so. It was "only" about 10 grams of fresh B+ that I finished eating about 22.15. Because I had no other thing with taste to flush them back to my throat I used some cola(I would tell this the first mistake). I spent the time coming up to get something to smoke, I was used to smoke on my trips nearly everytime since I began eating them but hadn´t smoked since a few days. The point is I had to drive 5-6 kilometres with my bike, it not felt like a problem and it was nice to come up on the fresh air. After I came home again I was a bit puffed but I felt still good. I started a LoL game like I do some times on such a dose but there were 2 problems, sometimes I get a bit to into it and get adrenaline rushs and second I played a champion that needs some kind of more focus. The first game was ok, but I already noticed changes in heart rate but nothing to be nervous about, they normalised really quick to an eleveated pulse. But then I had the great idea to smoke a small bowl and I was still drinking the cola...(I didn´t really fought about the coffeine). Then another game and there things are getting bad, it was with a easy champ but since the beginning there are situations with much attention needed and with some stress plus it was the time there I began to peak. I felt deafnes and tingling in my fingers and my hands then on my nose, my lips, my tongue and if I was walking I felt it on my lower back too. I wasnt to stressed about that(I already know this kind) but about my heart beating fast and powerfull through my chest.(never saw it like this) Finally I noticed what I was drinking there, stopped it and switched to water, because this wouldnt really helped in that situation. I thought, "Ok, lets stop playing, lay down, chill and drink enough" I´ve done so but it really doesnt helped, it was getting stronger and stronger, I began to panic and it was really hard to calm me down every felt minute for over 2 hours to not freak out. There was times with really strong beats, my carotid artery noticeable beating on the mirror but stronger on the left side, my heart was just beat after beat, I dint measered my pulse but it had to be over 200 because I checked it on my troat and my hand and I wasn´t able to catch on with my pulse if I came to the two digits... I could also still see my pulsating stomach, had some bad half sided paresthesia on my face, big rushes on my body like waves of energy, sometimes in hand some kind of optical rush. Then I was going to the toilette and laying down again, there was strong but not much regular beats with 1 second pauses by breathing out and by breathing in like 3 beats a second. I really fought I will die on a heart failure, heart attack, getting a stroke or something. After an half hour I could always calm me a bit down by the thought, "it wasn´t that much; you are strong; your body will handle it by time; you are still alive with these big issues". But I already was in the spirale of bad thoughts and now there was a new option for me, call the ambulance, but there was like 10 things that always stopped me from doing it, one thing was, "what will they do then?", my answer was they will give me benzos, pfff, not worth all the trouble I will have then and the fact that the call will me not give less stress. Calmed down a bit(just in my brain, body was in this conditon the whole time) the spirales gravity catched me like before, mostly induced by the symtoms mentioned before and for example the idea that my shrooms arent ok or me having acute problems with my body(thyroid, kidneys or something). I´m glad that I wrapped my trash back on the outside of my tub, so I could check if I see anything contaminated, but there was nothing. But the thing that somethings wrong with my body was keeping spirales gravity strong. Finally I laid it out, after about 2 hours my pulse normalised and the influence on my thoughts was nearly gone, I was able to think nearly nothing and chill. Half hour more was maybe in the 100 range and I felt really weak but couldnt sleep after 3 or 4 hours the trip had ended. This is a good example how far a low dosed mushroom trip can go with the "right conditions".
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