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ModestMouse
IM WALKIN ON SUNSHINE



Registered: 05/06/13
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Paying the price
#22028765 - 08/01/15 02:21 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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Life's just increasing in intensity. Lately Ive realized my choices can't be so haphazardly made. Part of maturing I guess.
Screwing around with women who you know you're not interested in dating - Hoping it will stay fwb as originally established and they never seem to be ok with that. Part of this is my light benzo habit and part of it is just my selfishness as a young man. I just feel bad because I let two women down within an hour, and it's not wholly my fault but I still feel that pain.
Just putting this out there because I'm feeling a bit down over my behavior and their reactions to me breaking it off. Looking for some cheerfulness that can't be found in drugs and sex, and I know I'll have to start finding other outlets for happiness.
If you were in my shoes, what would you do to relax and try and recoup on things? I'm thinking a night out with no drinking/drugs, but I don't even know if that's a good idea.
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lood_dood
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Registered: 05/20/14
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Maybe a night out, or an interest to get you focused on something else other than drugs and sex.
For instance, this forum has a wealth of knowledge on cultivation (of legal shrooms) and mycology is extremely intriguing. (There is a torrent on TPB called "radical mycology" that's great for beginner to master students advanced if you are interested). That aside, I've used roller blading to curb my need for drugs and alcohol because I can't skate if I'm intoxicated.
I feel it is good to have a mix of things to keep yourself busy both intellectually and physically.
Kicking/reducing porn can help too; just to keep your mind off sex, or using it to accidentally lose interest in your sexual relationships.
I'm in a transitional phase myself. Acid/shrooms can help so long as the mindset is right. Acid helped me quit cigarettes and curbed my social anxiety
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ModestMouse
IM WALKIN ON SUNSHINE



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Re: Paying the price [Re: lood_dood]
#22028835 - 08/01/15 02:39 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah my social anxiety has gotten loads better aside from the benzos (I use them for other things), I think it was just a matter of getting enough social interaction to where everything was less "frightening" so to speak.
I'm glad that my anxiety has waned as I've aged, especially this year. That used to be a real issue and sometimes it still pops up but less and less these days.
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Mr.PhilCybin
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Registered: 06/13/11
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Loc: Gnarnia
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I can relate to a few months back. The key is transparency. If you were completely honesty and open with your intentions to these girls, then the fault lies in them for letting their emotions get the better of them, despite an agreement of interests.
Now, as with most things in life it's usually always a bit of both.
Lately, I've been sacking up and having difficult conversations with people, when it would be much easier to avoid having them, and I've been rewarded with such a relief of anxiety, and things have seemed to be going in my favor because of it. It sounds like that exactly what you did, and hence you broke it off, but you shouldn't feel guilty about it man.
nothing wrong with knowing what you want, and chasing it.
do some mediation/yoga to shake it out man
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MightyWhite

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When I want to relax a little I have a nice spot I can go and just think and not be interrupted or distracted, there is a viewing area at an airport I like going to. I just back my truck into a parking spot drop the tailgate grab a seat with my feet hanging and chill watching the planes come and go while I quietly contemplate.
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