|
shadyy
aHhahhHA



Registered: 09/08/08
Posts: 21,330
Loc: winchestertonfieldville i...
|
I need ego death
#22025817 - 07/31/15 07:22 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
I've been treating my social anxiety with phenibut, and it's great - awesome - but I don't think it's something I can continue.
My dosage is really getting up there due to tolerance, and I would rather get off this path now (before I dig myself deeper in the hole I'm already somewhat in).
I feel like I have too much focus on ME. I used to be more about everyone else -- really show interest in others (and it was genuine). But now I feel like whenever I'm talking to someone (unless I'm on the phenibut), I'm just thinking about how I'm being perceived. My focus tends to be on the next thing I'm gonna say, rather than actually listening/interpreting to what the other person is saying.
I hate this. I don't want to be this way but I can't help it.
I feel like "ego death" is something that should be considered to help me get out of this jam. Just unsure about how to achieve this.
My sources for psychs have slowly dissolved since high school -- I kind of left the drug scene for a while.
Are there any substances that I could buy legally that can help get me there? I know I have all the info I need to grow, but I don't think it's the best idea right now.
Just looking for some advice.
I've been working out, eating right, and all that - so please don't suggest the healthy living shit.
Like I said, phenibut has been my cure but the tolerance is becoming an issue.
--------------------
ga ga ga eets eets how you gone be mad on vacation? MONICA COULDN'T TELL TIME UNTIL SHE WAS 13
|
MilkdudTitties
My Nipples Look Like Milk Duds



Registered: 03/22/09
Posts: 3,796
Loc: USA
Last seen: 7 years, 5 months
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22025839 - 07/31/15 07:26 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
Smoke or chew on some salvia
|
nicechrisman
Interdimensional space wizard



Registered: 11/07/03
Posts: 33,241
Last seen: 4 years, 6 months
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22025844 - 07/31/15 07:28 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
San Pedro cactus, ayahuasca, or 4 aco dmt would be my suggestions.
Or apparently there's this whole "dark net" where you can pretty much get anything, but I fail at computer so I dunno.
-------------------- "Cosmic Love is absolutelely ruthless and highly indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not." John C. Lily
Edited by nicechrisman (07/31/15 07:29 PM)
|
shadyy
aHhahhHA



Registered: 09/08/08
Posts: 21,330
Loc: winchestertonfieldville i...
|
|
Ok, and I know I can't ask for sources, but would be the best way to go about finding sources for these things? I feel like Google can be misleading
--------------------
ga ga ga eets eets how you gone be mad on vacation? MONICA COULDN'T TELL TIME UNTIL SHE WAS 13
|
nicechrisman
Interdimensional space wizard



Registered: 11/07/03
Posts: 33,241
Last seen: 4 years, 6 months
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22025897 - 07/31/15 07:38 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
If you do some Googling around, you can find forums where people do discuss vendors and give feedback about them and stuff. I haven't ever ordered any rcs so I'm not quite sure the best way. Cactus and ayahuasca can both be found very easily through reputable vendors. I would suggest though that you stick with bridgesii if you are ordering cactus because the vast majority of pedros and peruvianus out there are weaksauce.
-------------------- "Cosmic Love is absolutelely ruthless and highly indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not." John C. Lily
|
Janky Tits
Registered: 06/19/14
Posts: 4,037
Last seen: 5 years, 6 months
|
|
People who go out looking for ego death don't really find it in the right ways. Don't just go into a trip expecting yourself to achieve a state of pure selflessness or ego death. I think you need to go into a trip not expecting anything.
Smoke some DMT and you might achieve what you desire.
|
nooneman


Registered: 04/24/09
Posts: 14,561
Loc: Utah
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22025943 - 07/31/15 07:49 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
You'll have to wait for safeorscam to come back online.
|
OhMrJohnson
Ashes Against The Grain

Registered: 01/12/14
Posts: 17,544
Loc: Terra Incognita
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: nooneman]
#22025966 - 07/31/15 07:59 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
Sounds like psyches could definitely help you
I need that sort of emotional cleansing myself
--------------------
Diminish the sub-principle and leave its toxic trace.. Once and for all!
|
Janky Tits
Registered: 06/19/14
Posts: 4,037
Last seen: 5 years, 6 months
|
|
I remember when I sought out ego death I was in for a hell of a surprise. What I got when I smoked DMT was cosmic obliteration. Losing your sense of self is terrifying, it is absolutely terrifying to feel everything that you are be obliterated and just erased. If you are no longer there then it means you have been destroyed and that feeling is terrifying. Ego death is good but be prepared to experience likely one of the most terrifying feelings a human can experience.
|
shadyy
aHhahhHA



Registered: 09/08/08
Posts: 21,330
Loc: winchestertonfieldville i...
|
|
I've been reading dmt stories for a while, and I think it sounds like something that could really be what I'm looking for
Is ot definitely legal?
--------------------
ga ga ga eets eets how you gone be mad on vacation? MONICA COULDN'T TELL TIME UNTIL SHE WAS 13
|
makaveli8x8
Stranger

Registered: 02/28/06
Posts: 21,636
Last seen: 7 years, 7 months
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22026008 - 07/31/15 08:10 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
can't you just go to sleep to experience ego death?
--------------------
  We were sent to hell for eternity Ø h® We play on earth to pass the time Over-population the root of all Evil-brings the Elites Closer to the gates.
|
Giftofdeprivation
Discerning Vagrant



Registered: 07/20/13
Posts: 3,933
Last seen: 8 years, 28 days
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22026038 - 07/31/15 08:16 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
I'm a psychology major who suffered from social anxiety all my life, but severely so (too scared to even go grocery shopping) between the ages of about 16-22. Now that I've built my "higher authority" argument, I'll admit that what I'm about to say is only as relevant to you in so much as you can identify with. Take it with a grain of salt if you have successful results!
In my experience, self medicating with psychedelics had mixed effects. While it does allow an ego death and would promote a (mostly temporary) mindfulness based (metacognitive) change in your attention and perceptions, it also has a great deal of impact on your emotions and can really throw your irrational fears into a further irrational, or psychotic place.
Looking back, usually my emotions didn't get the best of me and psychs helped me organize my thoughts a LOT. When it was bad, it stuck with me for a while. Granted, I took them with the intent of tackling my social anxiety and put forth a lot of thought in that direction during my trips (placebo is great in its own way). Who knows, man, just look out for irrational fears that you present to others with a sense of urgency that they end up not finding valid. Symptom of psychosis.
I realized that the problem wasn't that I was afraid of people, I just had a hard time relating to them. That also made it difficult to identify with them, which causes feelings of disassociation, depression, low self worth, and anxiety. I just stopped caring about relating to them
--------------------
Looking for recipes? Have some recipes to share? Please post what you have in the official cooking thread for Pubbers! HERE! Shoutout to Azur's Official cooking thread for OTDers! Posters Beware!
Edited by Giftofdeprivation (07/31/15 08:19 PM)
|
LogicaL Chaos
Ascension Energy & Alien UFOs




Registered: 05/12/07
Posts: 69,359
Loc: The Inexpressible...
Last seen: 51 minutes, 23 seconds
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22026043 - 07/31/15 08:17 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
Uhhh, this may be a dumb question, considering its the Shroomery, but why not grow mushrooms?
shrooms are known for their ego dissolving abilities.
And they are cheap to grow too.
-------------------- "What you must understand is that your physical dimension affects everyone in the higher dimensions as well. All things are interconnected. All things are One. Therefore, if one dimension is broken or out of balance, then all other dimensions will experience repercussions." - Pleiadian Prophecy 2020 The New Golden Age by James Carwin PROJECT BLUE BOOK ANALYSIS! (312 pages!) | Psychedelics & UFOs | Ready to Contact UFOs? | The Source on Mushrooms | Trippy Gematrix | Dj TeknoLogical | Fentanyl Test Kits R.I.P. Big Worm || The Start of the Ascension Process was 2020. Welcome to the Next Great Era of Earth 🌎🌍🌏
  Oregon Eclipse Festival 2017 :: Aug 19th - 21st :: Pure Paradise   Very Effective LSA Extraction Tek | 💧 Advanced Cold Water LSA Extraction Method 💧 |  Mescajuana - Mescaline with Marijuana | DMT Dab Bongs | UFO Technology! Shpongle
     
|
OhMrJohnson
Ashes Against The Grain

Registered: 01/12/14
Posts: 17,544
Loc: Terra Incognita
|
|
I think trying to resist the power of the experience is where people tend to get into a negative headspace
You have to have an appropriate set and setting to have a positive experience that's why I like to treat my solo trips like a ritual with a dark room candles positive psychedelic imagery soothing music and what not you have to create a good space for yourself which is conducive to that state of mind
It can and does become extremely terrifying but if you can let that fear emanate within you and course through every part of your essence you'll find that there's really nothing to be afraid of
--------------------
Diminish the sub-principle and leave its toxic trace.. Once and for all!
|
Soulidarity
With Your Halo Slippin . . .



Registered: 07/15/12
Posts: 17,617
Loc: Atlantis
Last seen: 8 years, 1 month
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22026052 - 07/31/15 08:19 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
DMT is definitely illegal, but its awesome
--------------------
  R.I.P. WoodRuss67, Todcasil, TheMerryIguana, The Rompus, Lord Senate. [/url]
|
Love_spirit
Circle Of Power


Registered: 07/18/15
Posts: 1,208
Last seen: 7 months, 27 days
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22026056 - 07/31/15 08:20 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
That's an awesome goal you have. Enlightenment is light years better then any opiate high. I don't know how to achieve it. It just happened for awhile after a decade of no drugs, spiritual work and meditation. There's nothing special about me that I can ascertain
|
Shiithead
Your Huckleberry



Registered: 04/05/13
Posts: 9,997
Loc: God's Flat Green Earth
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: shadyy]
#22026064 - 07/31/15 08:22 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
Anything you say, do, or use will leave you in a bubble of limitations. You must realize this before you can reach infinity.
--------------------
Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Psalm 12:6 The words of the Lord are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times. Hebrews 11:3 Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear. Revelation 3:11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown.
|
OhMrJohnson
Ashes Against The Grain

Registered: 01/12/14
Posts: 17,544
Loc: Terra Incognita
|
|
Quote:
Soulidarity said: DMT is definitely illegal, but its awesome
However I believe ACRB is still legal
I've used Cyb's hybrid salt tek to extract DMT from it and I can guarantee it works
--------------------
Diminish the sub-principle and leave its toxic trace.. Once and for all!
|
Shiithead
Your Huckleberry



Registered: 04/05/13
Posts: 9,997
Loc: God's Flat Green Earth
|
|
Quote:
OhMrJohnson said: However I believe ACRB is still legal
I've used Cyb's hybrid salt tek to extract DMT from it and I can guarantee it works
Knock Knock
--------------------
Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Psalm 12:6 The words of the Lord are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times. Hebrews 11:3 Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear. Revelation 3:11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown.
|
OhMrJohnson
Ashes Against The Grain

Registered: 01/12/14
Posts: 17,544
Loc: Terra Incognita
|
Re: I need ego death [Re: Shiithead]
#22026078 - 07/31/15 08:26 PM (8 years, 5 months ago) |
|
|
--------------------
Diminish the sub-principle and leave its toxic trace.. Once and for all!
|
|