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teamkiller said: eh, i'm gonna disagree OP. Your mind is your own, and I wouldn't let any random drug shit bubbling from the subconscious take control.
Altered states can like, be forceful in their strength, but its always a dialogue that you have say in .
Eat two 10-strips of potent LSD at once and tell me you can maintain control
There's just no way to not be overwhelmed
you know, i actually find really large doses of psychedelics to be much less overwhelming than kinda large doses. i've handled +2mg of lsd better than i have some 500-700ug trips.
op, i wouldn't just go straight to 5 grams. i've found that 3.5 gs and 5 gs are a good step up from each other. 5 grams would always having me sitting in one area for a while just watching everything move and hearing all these different thoughts.
-------------------- I fucking hate you... God damn, I love you... But we both know if we stick together, we'll just tear ourselves apart You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are grey You are my heroin, but there's an abscess... God damn, I miss the vein!
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Wow honestly I didn't expect much of a response. I haven't been a part of an online community for a really long time, especially with myself as some type of "established online entity" you know? So I want to say I really appreciate everyone welcoming me here and for weighing in on what I had to say. I felt like it was a little vague to start with, but you all took it in exactly the direction I wanted it to go, so thank you for that too.
I am seeing a lot of people recommending lower doses that what I have been tending to take. I'll get to that in a moment.
Firstly I recall in the first response I was suggested meditation or a practice of the sort prior to my experience. I forgot to include that intention in my first post. I do have it in my mind that I want to become moderately capable of quieting my mind. To be honest I am not sure exactly how to do that. I feel like my thoughts are not as straight forward as a lot of people have their's...or at least that is how I perceive it to be. I've been thinking about meditation a lot and I figure "well hell I do that shit when I go for walks in the forest or when I medicate and chill out", but you know I have never I guess, "traditionally" meditated before, at least not long enough and with enough devotion to do it daily to try and see a difference in my mental functions. So if anyone has any insight into that as well, I'd love to hear it, but if it really just is "sit still and breathe and bring your attention to attention" then I'll run with that.
Um, sorry I ate dinner in between this paragraph and the last so I may not entirely be back on track with myself.
To be honest about this, my idea for taking 5 grams was because of what Terence Mckenna has had to say about it. I understand I have little to no experience with mushrooms, and as he said, the first time you take them is the easiest because you don't know what you are getting yourself into. It seems like people regard that as bit of a bad, or just slightly irresponsible thing to do. I want to experience this, but I want to take it seriously. This is all going to be a part of my life and to the very core of how and where I am going to be building the core of my life, that core being nature. I want to do this as deeply as I can and surrender myself to what I view as a part of god I can experience.
As I stated before, I have had a few previous experiences with mushrooms. All having good portions of positivity and then I ended up getting into some tough places, and looking back, I really feel it was because I approached some kind of membrane that my spirit was trying to push through, but I held on too tight and it scared me. I attribute that to my own ignorance to psilocybin. I had no idea it went further than visual games, colours, and nice feelings. I feel like the mushroom really was gentle with me because it felt that I was not quite sure what I was doing.
With that said, if you guys recommend me to take 3.5 or so instead, then I will set my sails for that. I understand my waters are uncharted but with the words of those who have come before me I will look to all of your knowledge to help guide me. I want to respect this and I take it seriously, while I want to retain a free-ness to completely indulge in how amazing, beautiful, true, and fun the imagination is.
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