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Amanita86
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007889 - 07/28/15 02:50 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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You don't have to believe everything you think.
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spaceeatr
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: Amanita86]
#22010156 - 07/28/15 02:55 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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it's definately not my thoughts alone, the sounds have echoes and use different creatures and sounds and then work with them to speak.
my entire reality is becoming sound
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spaceeatr
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22010193 - 07/28/15 03:01 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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As I get closer to the earth and try to get more grounded the voices get worse, they are really blunt but they basically tell me that I am fucked and to get into the wild
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Rebelutionsssss
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22010200 - 07/28/15 03:03 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Feel like you're trolling now
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spaceeatr
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22010269 - 07/28/15 03:15 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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No I'm not trolling.
I just opened my mind through will late last year and have had a range of ridiculous experiences since.
entities aliens etc.
But the main thing is that I had the REAL experience of the ultimate reality and what should have been my death (I belive) about a year and a half ago.
Since avoiding the higher truth I have been on a selfish destructive path and have pissed off the spirits or something.
Now It seems like I really am doomed, like I'm almost not a human being anymore.
This morning I had my families voices come right to my face and tell me that they are leaving soon.
It popped my bubble, cause I've been so destructive, and pushing them away and it's basically ruining them. It's like I've murdered thier spirits.
So.. I don't know
Seriosuly so much fucked up stuff has happened since last year I wouldn't even know where to start nor would I safely be able to type it over the internet
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spaceeatr
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22010289 - 07/28/15 03:18 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I've went too far, my family are heartbroken because of me, i treated them like shit.
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Rebelutionsssss
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22010306 - 07/28/15 03:20 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Go to the hospital! Sounds like you have a serious mental illness
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spaceeatr
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22010314 - 07/28/15 03:21 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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And the worst thing is I am hurting my brother the most, who is the person who is most important to me, I think I've killed his spirit.
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Rebelutionsssss
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22010323 - 07/28/15 03:22 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Good luck. I gave my advise
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spaceeatr
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22010326 - 07/28/15 03:23 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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No, I don't I just opened some kind of door, and am dealing with really wierd experiences,
thanks
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spock
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Quote:
Rebelutionsssss said: Go to the hospital! Sounds like you have a serious mental illness
This. OP, you will not get the help that you need here. Talk to a doctor.
Peace and be safe. Spock
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sudly
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22011080 - 07/28/15 06:01 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
spaceeatr said: No I'm not trolling.
I just opened my mind through will late last year and have had a range of ridiculous experiences since.
entities aliens etc.
But the main thing is that I had the REAL experience of the ultimate reality and what should have been my death (I belive) about a year and a half ago.
Since avoiding the higher truth I have been on a selfish destructive path and have pissed off the spirits or something.
Now It seems like I really am doomed, like I'm almost not a human being anymore.
This morning I had my families voices come right to my face and tell me that they are leaving soon.
It popped my bubble, cause I've been so destructive, and pushing them away and it's basically ruining them. It's like I've murdered thier spirits.
So.. I don't know
Seriosuly so much fucked up stuff has happened since last year I wouldn't even know where to start nor would I safely be able to type it over the internet
I met a guy on the street like this once, he told me he had experienced death and was a living zombie, turns out he was schizophrenic.
You said you felt you had to repay your spiritual debt. Do you feel like you have sins?
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spaceeatr
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: sudly]
#22011694 - 07/28/15 07:49 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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first of all thanks everyone for your input.
I feel I've probably written this entire thing really badly and it's kind of just a mess.
So there is WAY more to it than simply using the label of a mental illness.
It doesn't make sense the way that I have posted it.
But that's ok.
Cheers for your opinions
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Rebelutionsssss
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22011772 - 07/28/15 08:07 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Talking about hearing voices and stuff that aren't there what are we suppose to say?
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TrippieHunter
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If you want people to be able to respond and help you need to be honest and tell us whats actually going on, otherwise no one can really understand wtf you are talking about.
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