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spaceeatr
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i am confused please help me
#22007677 - 07/28/15 12:49 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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so i feel pretty lost for once...
i barely even know where to start..
it just seems that my mind if so powerful and reality seems at time to be merging with another.
i seem to of lost my light and direction.
i am hearing voices.
i feel like i have let down mother nature and love itself.
i feel i have went too far and can't turn back.
i have lost my will to be love and i am confused that my intuition seems to be more echoed i my surroundings than an actual feeling.
so much is happening and i dont know if it can be disclosed online..
but i feel sometimes i am walking into death but then at other times i wonder if the voices / flow is tricking me.
i can't ever pay my spiritual debt?
or i can but it feels like i have to die..
it feels like the right thing.
but then i dont know.
how do i hear my voice/inutiation again and know that i am on the right path???
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007691 - 07/28/15 12:55 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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-------------------- : To define is to confine.
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spaceeatr
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? :/
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007751 - 07/28/15 01:30 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Have you been taking any hard drugs that might make you act this way i.e methamphetamine or the like
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spaceeatr
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No.... i wish i could say more :/
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007765 - 07/28/15 01:38 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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i can hear violent sceanario happening all around me...
but all around me is also another sceanario they day to day life i am living
but violent scenario is loud and echoes through the atmosphere
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007769 - 07/28/15 01:39 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Is this the first time you've heard voices? Are you taking any drugs at all? If so I would say just take a long break and see if your thought pattern doesn't change.
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007771 - 07/28/15 01:40 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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aliens? truth? distraction?
how do i find my feelings?
my feelings sometimes are that i should just blend with my environment and float away?
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007777 - 07/28/15 01:42 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I feel before I cared so much about the earth and love in every moment/ action. but i have dumbed myself to sleep and become an apathetic loser. how do i even feel after going so bad?
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thanks for the advice 
Uhm.. it all started late last year and has come and gone.
but my intention at the time was to face the truth and do the right thing.
then voices and all kinds of stuff has been happening.
but the voices usually involve death.
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007784 - 07/28/15 01:45 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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or maybe more an urgency to get off the self destructive path i have been going down..
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007785 - 07/28/15 01:45 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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how old are you? Schizophrenia usually starts in your late teens to early twentys
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Heh, I'm 25.. I feel like I'm living my life backwards in a stage.. I never really conformed as a teenager or adult.. until recently.
but that also made me pretty antisocial...
Now I feel like I touached on the ultimate reality of oneness a year or two ago. But I freaked out at the overwhelming nature of it and have been burying it in blindness.
In other words I'm a selfish idiot.
I have to go back on this path to the truth i.e life / reality, but I've been avoiding all the pain that comes with the truth...
and the responsibility and have made myself totally stupid.
Now I am more likely to let other people control me and tell me what i right or wrong rather than listen to my own voice.
Because I know that my own voice probably equals me being alone in the wild and killed peacefully by the earth.. drifting into my surroundings.
cause i dont know how to a human being anymore and i've found that most human beings are either really good ( and i can no longer relate) or just as useless as me or dangerous.
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007803 - 07/28/15 02:00 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
Now I feel like I touched on the ultimate reality of oneness a year or two ago
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I feel before I cared so much about the earth and love in every moment/ action.
This is who you truly are.
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: Love_spirit]
#22007814 - 07/28/15 02:05 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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go out in nature and find your true self. You're never really gone just lost
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thankyou for your advice 
but when i am in nature my mind/ (maybe) is so loud that i start hearing my thoughts echoed in all of my surroundings... the wind, the birds, everything.. :/
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007833 - 07/28/15 02:15 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Are these your thoughts in your head or is it like someone else is talking to you?
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: spaceeatr]
#22007837 - 07/28/15 02:18 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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You just need to tune into the right frequency.
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it's like lots of people are talking..
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Re: i am confused please help me [Re: Love_spirit]
#22007846 - 07/28/15 02:22 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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thank you 
i may be learning this.. i just double guess a lot.. because i hear voices in trouble when i feel in a neutral mood..
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