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Just...fucking rant pity party
#21997682 - 07/25/15 11:02 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Went out last night. Get inside at the crowded club for an artist I want to see. Go upstairs to the bar and it's kind of packed. I find an opening and there is this chick standing way too far from the bar for someone who needs a drink so I ask her if she is trying to get a drink, (so that she can get the fuck out of the way if not). She is gorgeous like 8/10 sexy dress and all that - whatever. She starts making small talk with me but I am just not really paying attention. I don't know what to say to her I kind of blank/don't really care. I let her walk away after she gets her drinks even though she smiles and says bye. I didn't even ask her name or if she wanted to dance. Knew I had a great opportunity and just fucking blew it because I am so self-absorbed in my own sorrow and afraid to talk to women anymore.
I know it's just one girl but it just infuriates me that I am like this. I am so tired of being alone on so many levels. I haven't had sex since feb. I turned down a few chicks since then but who am I kidding it's not like they were even attractive enough to get my dick up so I'm not really a player or anything I try to make myself believe. I am just crippled by fear and the constant self-devaluation that plays through my mind. Shitty thing is the only thing that makes me feel happy anymore is getting to know a girl romantically but I struggle with finding someone willing.
Beautiful girls all around me on the dance floor with their friends or lovers. I don't approach girls on the floor anymore. I like dancing with and without someone but I just feel creepy approaching chicks there now. When I was younger I had no problem and once out of 5 times maybe they would reject me but now that fear stops me. Just fear fear fear all throughout my life every moment is over-analyzed and my reaction is adjusted to my fears.
I don't want to fucking live like this. I don't want to fucking drift through my years and miss out on all the women I could be with. I don't want a "good day" to be one where I don't wish I was dead. I want to be happy before it's over. That's what I am holding out for...that one day I will be happy. We all struggle with something...some people are addicted to cigarettes, some to food...me, I just can't figure out how to be happy.
Edited by Anonymous (07/25/15 11:13 PM)
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Anonymous #2
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: Anonymous #1]
#21997698 - 07/25/15 11:06 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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hmm, well sorry for ya bruh.
I am so burnt out from heroin addiction I could care less about pussy, even though I know I want it sometimes I am just to burnt out. I hope the PAWS gets better so that I might be able to be a normal person around some ladies, but that seems so far away.
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Anonymous #3
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: Anonymous #2]
#21998037 - 07/26/15 12:38 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Stop being a poonface
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: Anonymous #1] 2
#21998890 - 07/26/15 08:46 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Seek professional help for your obvious crippling depression. Good luck.
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: sun_spots]
#22003939 - 07/27/15 11:04 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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i dont pity your situation you wrote of. you went to a show and didnt leave with a dirty whore. you didnt hook up and catch an STD, you didnt have a drink thrown at you, nothing to pity here.
but i do pity the way you use your mind against yourself. last time you had a woman, were you actually happy? you need to deal with your depression dude, or youll never LET yourself be happy or have a proper romantic connection.
Not talk about dealing with it, actually DEALING with it you want to be happy DO IT
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: Anonymous #4]
#22004152 - 07/27/15 11:55 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: empty space]
#22004160 - 07/27/15 11:58 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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It happens man. Not everyone can be lady killers like 99% of the population acts like. The right person will eventually stumble upon you and be just as shy
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stop jerking off
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Anonymous #6
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: Anonymous #1]
#22006977 - 07/27/15 09:25 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I kind of get you except for the part about picking girls up at clubs/shows/festivals. That just feels dirty to me.
I have been hit on countless times and pretty obvious ones too. I always just play it down. It is only when a topic of discussion that I am well aware of, or maybe working out that I am like, what up bitch?(not literally)
I have missed out on so many really wonderful women that blah blah blah. I have a hearing issue. Fuck it.
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: Anonymous #6]
#22007800 - 07/28/15 01:56 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thanks for the replies yall. I just beat myself up HARD over everything, especially with women. I scrutinize every detail.
The shai labuff thing is hilarious I watched all the remixes a few weeks ago.
Yeah, I don't really hook-up with women when I go out. I mean, i did meet a girlfriend at a show one time but we clicked like magic. I would hook-up with women when I go out more frequently but I just don't really try. I either am trying to have a good time, having a good time or just want to go home, never really looking for women because I don't know how to seduce a woman at a bar. I wish I did. I feel super boring talking to people I don't know and just criticize myself to the point of not being able to think clearly. I feel much better going out with familiar people and doing something where I don't have to talk to people like music and dancing. I am a fun person but I am crippled in many situations by my mind. I can be the life of the party one second and the next just feel like a loser that just can't get things right.
On the positive side, I am going to fuck my ex all day tomorrow. And all night. And all the next day. She is such an excellent fuck. And just have a great time seeing old friends.
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: Anonymous #1]
#22007804 - 07/28/15 02:00 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Not sure how to get un-depressed. I try to do things that make me happy and healthy but old habits die hard. I fall in and out of wellness and treating myself like garbage. Ayahuasca is on my to do list for next year. I feel it will benefit me greatly, but I also need to learn to be greatful for what I have and stick with my healthy habits. I have just been in such a rut with my home and job. Makes me not want to get up in the morning.
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Quote:
Anonymous said: I have missed out on so many really wonderful women that blah blah blah. I have a hearing issue. Fuck it.
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Rebelutionsssss said: The right person will eventually stumble upon you and be just as shy
OK when? 1,2,5,10,20+ years
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: tripN]
#22011241 - 07/28/15 06:25 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
tripN said:
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Anonymous said: I have missed out on so many really wonderful women that blah blah blah. I have a hearing issue. Fuck it.
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Rebelutionsssss said: The right person will eventually stumble upon you and be just as shy
OK when? 1,2,5,10,20+ years
Probably when you stop waiting and just do it.
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: empty space]
#22011385 - 07/28/15 06:45 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
empty space said:
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tripN said:
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Anonymous said: I have missed out on so many really wonderful women that blah blah blah. I have a hearing issue. Fuck it.
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Rebelutionsssss said: The right person will eventually stumble upon you and be just as shy
OK when? 1,2,5,10,20+ years
Probably when you stop waiting and just do it.
Big difference between another piece of ass and "the RIGHT person"
I hunt for it but have not yet found the right person, don't think I will, hopefully I'm wrong.
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: tripN]
#22011441 - 07/28/15 06:55 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
tripN said:
I hunt for it but have not yet found the right person...
because you're chasing sweety.
forget this hunting business from now on I command you to attract.
Attract! Attract! Attract us to you damnit!
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: saralove]
#22011495 - 07/28/15 07:06 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
saralove said:
Quote:
tripN said:
I hunt for it but have not yet found the right person...
because you're chasing sweety.
forget this hunting business from now on I command you to attract.
Attract! Attract! Attract us to you damnit!

Can put that in really plain English, I'm super high
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: tripN]
#22011624 - 07/28/15 07:34 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Well I'm not gonna spoonfeed you.
Come back here when you're sober cheech.
Mkay.
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: saralove]
#22011641 - 07/28/15 07:38 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Ohhhh ok you mean I should attract (get lady's to come for me)?
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: saralove]
#22011647 - 07/28/15 07:40 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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when the time comes you and your soulmate will just meet and know.... Maybe when you're getting coffee, going to work, shopping... It'll just happen.
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Rebelutionsssss said: when the time comes you and your soulmate will just meet and know.... Maybe when you're getting coffee, going to work, shopping... It'll just happen.
I think it's when and IF.
I would like to know more from saralove about attracting. I'm willing to learn it and try it out.
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: saralove]
#22011680 - 07/28/15 07:46 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Lmao teach me Sarah I haven't picked up a girl in years
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She said I need to pickup girls a different way I wouldn't mind knowing what she means.
I have a method I use it works fine but the lady's are always terrible, stupid, or toxic.
Getting ass is not my problem it's brains/personality
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Edited by tripN (07/28/15 07:58 PM)
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Rebelutionsssss said: when the time comes you and your soulmate will just meet and know.... Maybe when you're getting coffee, going to work, shopping... It'll just happen.
You watch too many chick flicks sweetheart.
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: saralove]
#22012233 - 07/28/15 09:29 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Ive said this before and ill say it again
the flower does not long for the bee. it blossoms, and the bee comes.
i dont think getting high is considered blossoming
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Re: Just...fucking rant pity party [Re: Anonymous #4]
#22012267 - 07/28/15 09:35 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Or you could be doing cocaine in the bathroom of a party with her just depends on the circumstances
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