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DANKSICLE
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Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts
#21995917 - 07/25/15 03:48 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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So last night I took 6.5 grams of mushrooms. I also drank a 40 of miller high life. Earlier in the day I had taken 2 tramadol. I've triped probably 10 times in my life an they have all been pleasant. Last night started out great with mild hallucinations and an amazing body high. About half way into my trip I started to feel retarded. My brain literally felt like it was melting or something and I found myself not being able to concentrate. I stared at walls for minutes at a time and was extremely slow. I had a hard time even understanding simple concepts. Towards the end of the trip I started to feel the need to kill myself for some reason. I don't want to die but something was urging me to do it so much. I started getting worried. I pulled through it tho. Does anyone have any idea as to why this happened? We're the mushrooms bad and that's why my brain felt like it was melting or was it just a bad trip? Keep on mind I've tripped like every few days for the past few weeks. I also mixed different strains (if that's what it's called).
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Edited by DANKSICLE (07/25/15 03:56 PM)
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Psilosoulful

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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: DANKSICLE]
#21995973 - 07/25/15 03:59 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Latent suicidal thoughts/feelings that you have been repressing for a long time is my best guess. Mushrooms tend to bring these hidden parts of your subconscious into conscious awareness. My best advice is take a long break from all psychoactives and analyze what it is that would make you happy. What are you striving for in the future? What do you want to see yourself doing in five years. These are important questions to ponder, and you don't need drugs to help you escape. Tripping that often can lead to some serious mental breakdowns, and this last last trip definitely showed you that firsthand. Spend time in nature, eat healthy, exercise, and make more friends. You will be okay, just do the right thing.
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zZZz
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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: Psilosoulful]
#21996096 - 07/25/15 04:29 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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ive heard of this happening several times before..
my guess is that it was something within u that caused it, but the shrooms brought out it to the surface as mentioned already, they tend to trigger these things..
i'd also advise u to take a long break, because i dont mean to rain on ur parade, but if u're taking mushrooms several times within the span of a month then u're probably not using them to the best of their abilities..
abusing mushrooms can cause temporary madness.. i speak from experience..
also, do u by any chance know why exactly u felt suicidal?, like how u got to that stage, what kind of thoughts were going through ur head?..
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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: DANKSICLE]
#21996133 - 07/25/15 04:36 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I personally wouldn't mix mushies with anything else like beer or medication. However, like everyone else has stated, they tend to bring out repressed emotions. Good thing you have a strong mind and was able to pull through it, glad you're still here. Sounds like a bad trip. Definitely take a break and try to work out any issues in your life. When you're ready to try again, I'd suggest starting with a low dose like 1.5-2g. 6.5 is quite heroic.
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DANKSICLE
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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: zZZz]
#21996182 - 07/25/15 04:49 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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zZZz said: ive heard of this happening several times before..
my guess is that it was something within u that caused it, but the shrooms brought out it to the surface as mentioned already, they tend to trigger these things..
i'd also advise u to take a long break, because i dont mean to rain on ur parade, but if u're taking mushrooms several times within the span of a month then u're probably not using them to the best of their abilities..
abusing mushrooms can cause temporary madness.. i speak from experience..
also, do u by any chance know why exactly u felt suicidal?, like how u got to that stage, what kind of thoughts were going through ur head?..
Well I did have a horrible day yesterday. That must be why. Me and my ex just broke up after 4 and a half years and she recently moved out. She fucked me over in more ways than i even want to think about. Yesterday was a super down day. I've tripped when down before tho and never had any problems. Makes sense though.
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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: DANKSICLE]
#21997995 - 07/26/15 12:29 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Well, there you have it. Next time when you trip ask yourself about what mental state you are in that period, you will carry it with you on your trip. Regarding mushrooms and you being retarded... you are not. 6.5 grams is a lot of psilocybin, don't ask for miracles, some users won't even be able to stay on their feet or speak. That part is expected
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Psilosoulful

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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: peyotillo]
#21998044 - 07/26/15 12:39 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I never trip unless my set and setting is perfect, and I've never had a "bad trip". Sure I've had frightening thoughts and perceptions but I never react fully to it because I know I'm still on a drug.
Taking a psychoactive substance while you're depressed over a breakup!? That's extremely irresponsible and no wonder why you had the hellish trip you did. You were using the mushrooms wrong dude, and they made you pay for it.
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DANKSICLE
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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: Psilosoulful]
#21998192 - 07/26/15 01:16 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Psilosoulful said:
I never trip unless my set and setting is perfect, and I've never had a "bad trip". Sure I've had frightening thoughts and perceptions but I never react fully to it because I know I'm still on a drug.
Taking a psychoactive substance while you're depressed over a breakup!? That's extremely irresponsible and no wonder why you had the hellish trip you did. You were using the mushrooms wrong dude, and they made you pay for it.
Well its better than the 40 dxm pills I just got clean from. I've defdefinitely learned from it however, I will trip again very soon. An occasional bad experience isn't going to stop me from doing what I love.
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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: DANKSICLE]
#21998212 - 07/26/15 01:29 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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DANKSICLE said:
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Psilosoulful said:
I never trip unless my set and setting is perfect, and I've never had a "bad trip". Sure I've had frightening thoughts and perceptions but I never react fully to it because I know I'm still on a drug.
Taking a psychoactive substance while you're depressed over a breakup!? That's extremely irresponsible and no wonder why you had the hellish trip you did. You were using the mushrooms wrong dude, and they made you pay for it.
Well its better than the 40 dxm pills I just got clean from. I've defdefinitely learned from it however, I will trip again very soon. An occasional bad experience isn't going to stop me from doing what I love.
Damn that's rough. But you're brave for jumping right back in. Safe journeys man!
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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: DANKSICLE]
#22000361 - 07/26/15 03:13 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Sounds like. a bad trip
i understand these angry evil feelings calm down bub  its ok
take a gander of what you feel is *wrong* with your life atm and improve
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DANKSICLE
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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: zZZz]
#22000613 - 07/26/15 04:26 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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zZZz said: ive heard of this happening several times before..
my guess is that it was something within u that caused it, but the shrooms brought out it to the surface as mentioned already, they tend to trigger these things..
i'd also advise u to take a long break, because i dont mean to rain on ur parade, but if u're taking mushrooms several times within the span of a month then u're probably not using them to the best of their abilities..
abusing mushrooms can cause temporary madness.. i speak from experience..
also, do u by any chance know why exactly u felt suicidal?, like how u got to that stage, what kind of thoughts were going through ur head?..
So I tripped again last night on a dose of around 4.5 grams. While tripping I realized exactly what happened. Just like you said my subconscious thoughts that I've never actually thought about became concious. This is why I was so confused and having trouble understanding because there was to many thoughts going on at once. Thankyou for your input everyone as I feel much better.
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Re: Extreme depression and suisidal thoughts [Re: DANKSICLE]
#22001567 - 07/26/15 07:46 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Good to hear.
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