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Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... 2
#21989056 - 07/24/15 09:22 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I need someone to talk to about this because it's really bothering me. Someone more experienced with weed and drugs in general. I need some logical reasoning.
I'm not really sure what to make of what happened. I've never had shrooms, or LSD or any other hallucigenic substance other than marijuana. So I can't relate it to anything and I don't know the proper terminology to use in my description of the other night.
I smoked a bowl of weed, the same stuff I've had since June with no similar reactions. I didn't smoke much to the regular user, but to me it was quite a lot. Too much obviously. The ride up was a regular marijuana high. I got super nerdy as usual, began reading a lot about current events and things that interest me. Then I found an article about CERN discovering 2 new particles with the LHC. I wish I hadn't read that under the influence.
I began thinking about how they always seem to find new subatomic particles, and I asked why? That word, the question, "why?" was so profound to me. It's the most intoxicating word in every language. I kept thinking about the discovery of new particles. Why is there always something in between two points of an atom. No matter how small it is, there is always something to be found, there doesn't seem to be space or distance between anything of an atom. With "nothing", the meaning of nothing, ever truly never existing because there is always something. It's just a matter of observation.
And then it happened, it felt like I had jumped into a cold pool of water and I was being washed away. It felt like my mind was ripped apart and then subdivided an infinite number of times. To an impossibly small point that never ended. I continued to think about the never ending smallness that makes up the universe. I kept continuing, smaller and smaller. I had gotten lost in infinity. There is never nothing. There is never a beginning, never an ending. An infinite number of beginnings beginning, as if you're diving to the bottom of the ocean but can never reach the sea floor.
And then the second part of whatever this was began. Everything was so small that it suddenly began to feel unbearably huge. Unimaginably huge. I experienced infinity itself. Infinity continues with no end, no beginning. It felt very important that I understood that there is no start and no end. Life had no meaning, death had no reason. Life and death were no longer important. Everything was being explained to me, without voice but as an emotion. I experienced emotions that I couldn't possibly describe to anyone in a million years. As if you tried explaining color to a very old man who had been blind all of his life. It came as a realization that our minds, bodies and everything that makes up our consciousness(something that is not tangible, functions in a way that we can only seem to describe as neurons exciting other neurons in such a manner that makes up who we are individually) is so deeply intertwined with this smallness of the universe that it too becomes too impossibly huge.
I became even more scared at the thought of infinity, of no beginnings, no ends. I became terrified that I was stuck in this world of infinities with no way of coming back completely. I felt like whatever made my consciousness the way it was, my thoughts, emotions everything had been pulled out of me and replaced with something else. It felt like a part of me was destroyed and I could never get it back. I felt abandoned in this place, because of the new epiphanies that I had. I realized that I had lost nearly all sense of who I was. And I desperately clung to what remained.
It was extremely scary to me. That sense of self just didn't exist. I was there, I was apart of this impossible world, whatever it was. It left me with a very profound sense of existence. As if we existed on the plane of a push art toy.
There's just so much to that night that I couldn't possibly describe it. I don't think it's possibly to put into words.
It took me 2 days to feel mostly back to normal. I still feel like a piece of me is gone, that I can't reclaim, only rebuild. I was left with a sense to to find a purpose in life no matter how insignificant it may be. I feel like I will return to that infinite place at some point in time. I wasn't terrified of the place until I began to realize where I was, when I began grasping for a sense of self. There were a lot of emotions I never felt before. It was quite humbling, and incredible.
I am giving up the herb for a time until I can make sense of what happened, and what it means. I honestly have no idea what to make of it, I have no context to put it into.
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: Oggy]
#21989110 - 07/24/15 09:38 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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now try acid or shrooms lmao
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: Deathcore]
#21990378 - 07/24/15 01:57 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I don't think I want to try acid or shrooms
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: Oggy]
#21990557 - 07/24/15 02:43 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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You got high. Straight answer. If that reality was too much for you then maybe lay off the more potent psychedelics until you are ready.
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: Oggy]
#21990663 - 07/24/15 03:05 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Oggy said: I need someone to talk to about this because it's really bothering me. Someone more experienced with weed and drugs in general. I need some logical reasoning.
I'm not really sure what to make of what happened. I've never had shrooms, or LSD or any other hallucigenic substance other than marijuana. So I can't relate it to anything and I don't know the proper terminology to use in my description of the other night.
I smoked a bowl of weed, the same stuff I've had since June with no similar reactions. I didn't smoke much to the regular user, but to me it was quite a lot. Too much obviously. The ride up was a regular marijuana high. I got super nerdy as usual, began reading a lot about current events and things that interest me. Then I found an article about CERN discovering 2 new particles with the LHC. I wish I hadn't read that under the influence.
I began thinking about how they always seem to find new subatomic particles, and I asked why? That word, the question, "why?" was so profound to me. It's the most intoxicating word in every language. I kept thinking about the discovery of new particles. Why is there always something in between two points of an atom. No matter how small it is, there is always something to be found, there doesn't seem to be space or distance between anything of an atom. With "nothing", the meaning of nothing, ever truly never existing because there is always something. It's just a matter of observation.
And then it happened, it felt like I had jumped into a cold pool of water and I was being washed away. It felt like my mind was ripped apart and then subdivided an infinite number of times. To an impossibly small point that never ended. I continued to think about the never ending smallness that makes up the universe. I kept continuing, smaller and smaller. I had gotten lost in infinity. There is never nothing. There is never a beginning, never an ending. An infinite number of beginnings beginning, as if you're diving to the bottom of the ocean but can never reach the sea floor.
And then the second part of whatever this was began. Everything was so small that it suddenly began to feel unbearably huge. Unimaginably huge. I experienced infinity itself. Infinity continues with no end, no beginning. It felt very important that I understood that there is no start and no end. Life had no meaning, death had no reason. Life and death were no longer important. Everything was being explained to me, without voice but as an emotion. I experienced emotions that I couldn't possibly describe to anyone in a million years. As if you tried explaining color to a very old man who had been blind all of his life. It came as a realization that our minds, bodies and everything that makes up our consciousness(something that is not tangible, functions in a way that we can only seem to describe as neurons exciting other neurons in such a manner that makes up who we are individually) is so deeply intertwined with this smallness of the universe that it too becomes too impossibly huge.
I became even more scared at the thought of infinity, of no beginnings, no ends. I became terrified that I was stuck in this world of infinities with no way of coming back completely. I felt like whatever made my consciousness the way it was, my thoughts, emotions everything had been pulled out of me and replaced with something else. It felt like a part of me was destroyed and I could never get it back. I felt abandoned in this place, because of the new epiphanies that I had. I realized that I had lost nearly all sense of who I was. And I desperately clung to what remained.
It was extremely scary to me. That sense of self just didn't exist. I was there, I was apart of this impossible world, whatever it was. It left me with a very profound sense of existence. As if we existed on the plane of a push art toy.
There's just so much to that night that I couldn't possibly describe it. I don't think it's possibly to put into words.
It took me 2 days to feel mostly back to normal. I still feel like a piece of me is gone, that I can't reclaim, only rebuild. I was left with a sense to to find a purpose in life no matter how insignificant it may be. I feel like I will return to that infinite place at some point in time. I wasn't terrified of the place until I began to realize where I was, when I began grasping for a sense of self. There were a lot of emotions I never felt before. It was quite humbling, and incredible.
I am giving up the herb for a time until I can make sense of what happened, and what it means. I honestly have no idea what to make of it, I have no context to put it into.
Sounds like an enlightenment experience of some kind to me. Obviously marijuana was in the picture somewhere, but was not essential to what happened. It could have happened if you had been under the influence of no substance at all. It is what is called a mystical experience.You should go to theopendoorway.org and check out the teaching of Peter Brown. That may help you to make sense of what happened.
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: Oggy]
#21990870 - 07/24/15 03:30 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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sounds like a Level 5 psychedelic trip to me, the highest u can go.
How many times have u smoked weed before?
It is possible to have such profound experiences on high doses of weed, but it is very rare.
I cant imagine what u will experience on shrooms!
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: LogicaL Chaos]
#21990974 - 07/24/15 03:53 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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LogicaL Chaos said: sounds like a Level 5 psychedelic trip to me, the highest u can go.
How many times have u smoked weed before?
It is possible to have such profound experiences on high doses of weed, but it is very rare.
I cant imagine what u will experience on shrooms! 
I've only been smoking for a year now. I have never been a daily smoker. Once every week or two and that's it. With a large emphasis on breaks, usually months at a time. The whole reason I joined this website was because of an imagination fueled hallucination from the first or second time of ever smoking. I won't be smoking anymore for a very long time, until I fully understand what happened to me. I kept myself composed while it was happening I think. I stayed in my chair, I didn't get up and move, only when I went to the kitchen for a drink. I asked my room mate if I did anything weird last night and he said no, just that I wanted to talk because I wanted to come back.
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: Oggy]
#21991132 - 07/24/15 04:30 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Dude don't worry, there are tons of people who had similar experiences out there. Its kinda the same thing as with psilocibin, new areas and possibilitys geht exploited. + What you wrote makes sense. Learn to enjoy that shit
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: hayabuser]
#21991291 - 07/24/15 05:01 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Dude that's normal. It's called growing up ( along with some pot smoking :P ) . Spent some time to get accustomed to your new "surroundings" as always and enjoy responsibly
Edited by l33t (07/24/15 05:02 PM)
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: l33t]
#21991357 - 07/24/15 05:17 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I'm 27! haha
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: Oggy]
#21991842 - 07/24/15 06:56 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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If you've never considered such things before, and I mean really considered them, then the weed pretty much amplified the feelings which arise when you first start drilling down on such ideas.
When I was little I used to try and visualise what there would be if nothing existed, but nothing is something, so I'd try and look behind that, and that too. It was like a feedback loop which would produce the most amazing yet awful sensations in my body and mind. An existential crisis made manifest in my flesh and emotion.
I'd also wake up with the perception of infinity, it was like an impossibly large black object stretching over me, up and away forever, and the perception of myself would be measured against that object, so it would crush me down to the size of an atom, then further and further - which would make the enormity even more terrifying.
As I grew older, it was these childhood experiences which drove me towards psychedelics, meditation and various philosophies, both natural and occult. Interestingly, I remember one exercise from a Dion Fortune book on the Qabalah which was a meditation on a circle with a dot in the center, where the dot's circumference was greater than the circumference of the circle. Really meditating on this concept produced similar feelings.
Anyway, the point of my rambling post is that these sensations are pretty natural when you really focus on certain ideas which the brain can't seem to handle, and at first they do generate fear reactions. These go away over time. Having such experiences when stoned is just going to bump up the captivation factor 10 fold.
Edited by misterjingo (07/24/15 07:03 PM)
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Re: Had a very intense reaction to weed, unsure what to make of it... [Re: misterjingo]
#21993781 - 07/25/15 05:51 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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My first joint in my life. Got an intense trip. i have tripped several times with shrooms and smoked Sativa for medicinal purpose and will start out smoking a joint every night (skipped last night as it was my wifeยดs birthday and we drank quite a bit and felt it would not be a good mix.) Smoking my 2nd one today.
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/21988489
You can read it my report there.
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