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My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it.
#21985454 - 07/23/15 03:09 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Letme start by saying that I make really good money, have a nice place, nice cars/trucks, and nice toys. I have a good family that loves me and life should be perfect.
But lately more and more I'm starting to hate my life. I really like doing drugs and partying but I can't because 1 failed drug test and I would lose my job and any chances of getting one like it.
It's fucking depressing. I'm only 29 am I having a mid life crisis? I was talking to my bartender last night and he is like 35 and he's still running around doing coke, calling into work, and just having a good time. He's living life on his terms ya know what I mean. I'm not, I feel like I'm in this fucking rat race just so I can pay for shit.
I got so jealous of my bartender when he was telling me what he did all weekend. That's shit I could do today but it would destroy my job which would destroy my family’s life.
I wish I could get balls deep into an 8 ball tonight and call into work tomorrow. Wish I didn't have to pay for all these god damn bills. wish I could just work at fucking mcdonalds and still have that fun lifestyle I use to have. I'm only 29 I shouldn't feel like this.
I just wanted a place to vent, I really ain't got people down here to talk to about these kinds of things.
Edit: I wish I could just disappear for two months. Wish I could just tell my girlfriend and my daughter that I just need two months off. Just go to fucking Amsterdam or something like that for two months. Do some of the shit I should have done before I settled down.
-------------------- Nothing I write on Shroomery's message boards or in private messages are true. I am fucking crazy and I make all this shit up because I can.
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Edited by ShootinD5nukes (07/23/15 03:12 PM)
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21985506 - 07/23/15 03:12 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Welcome to adulthood.
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ShootinD5nukes
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: nooneman]
#21985526 - 07/23/15 03:14 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I've been walking the strait and narrow since I was 20. This lifestyle isn't really anything new but it's really starting to make me unhappy.
It's not my family that's making it that way. It's what I have to do as a man ya know what I mean.
-------------------- Nothing I write on Shroomery's message boards or in private messages are true. I am fucking crazy and I make all this shit up because I can.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21985539 - 07/23/15 03:14 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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ShootinD5nukes said: He's living life on his terms ya know what I mean. I'm not, I feel like I'm in this fucking rat race just so I can pay for shit.
That's shit I could do today but it would destroy my job which would destroy my family’s life.
He made himself the priority in his life. You are making your family your priority. It's called being a man. And it sucks. A lot. Life is about choices and priorities. Yours seem to be in the right place.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes] 3
#21985551 - 07/23/15 03:15 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah but there's a point that shit loses it's magic and can just make life suck. Enjoy your health, financial, independence, family, roof, full belly and ability to sleep at night.. If I had to pick over your life or the barkeeps, yours is much more desirable, and honorable..etc.
Either way you're going to be busting your ass so you might as well have something to show for it other than dusty ziploc corners on the carpet and vomit rings in your toilet.. you're not missing anything.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: SteveRogers]
#21985571 - 07/23/15 03:16 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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SteveRogers said:
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ShootinD5nukes said: He's living life on his terms ya know what I mean. I'm not, I feel like I'm in this fucking rat race just so I can pay for shit.
That's shit I could do today but it would destroy my job which would destroy my family’s life.
He made himself the priority in his life. You are making your family your priority. It's called being a man. And it sucks. A lot. Life is about choices and priorities. Yours seem to be in the right place.
I know I'm making the correct choices, I really do. Do you all hate your life from time to time? Do you all just wanna GTFO and go do some real shit every once in awhile?
-------------------- Nothing I write on Shroomery's message boards or in private messages are true. I am fucking crazy and I make all this shit up because I can.
Why would anyone want Mac or Windows? Windows never quits shoving updates down your throat and Mac is just so expensive for the same exact hardware that's in a PC. Go Linux.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21985632 - 07/23/15 03:19 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Psychedelics at the lake/river..etc. + hard work like you're doing = win/win. The best of both worlds.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21985638 - 07/23/15 03:20 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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last night I rode around on my golf cart drinking beer and everytime I would pull up to the house to go in I ended up just getting my the fridge in the garage and getting a beer and leaving again...I just didn't wanna walk into the house. I just didn't feel like walking in and watching the fucking news and getting shit ready for tomorrow. I just wanted to ride around and figure shit out.
-------------------- Nothing I write on Shroomery's message boards or in private messages are true. I am fucking crazy and I make all this shit up because I can.
Why would anyone want Mac or Windows? Windows never quits shoving updates down your throat and Mac is just so expensive for the same exact hardware that's in a PC. Go Linux.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Amanita86]
#21985674 - 07/23/15 03:21 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Amanita86 said: Psychedelics at the lake/river..etc. + hard work like you're doing = win/win. The best of both worlds.
your exactly right. I do that kinda stuff when I can which usually is like once a year. My girlfriend doesn't care if I do the shit, it's just hard to carve the time off and time to detox.
-------------------- Nothing I write on Shroomery's message boards or in private messages are true. I am fucking crazy and I make all this shit up because I can.
Why would anyone want Mac or Windows? Windows never quits shoving updates down your throat and Mac is just so expensive for the same exact hardware that's in a PC. Go Linux.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21985680 - 07/23/15 03:22 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Nothing wrong with that. I've done some of my best thinking riding down back roads with a drink and a smoke, listening to the music playing..
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Amanita86]
#21985687 - 07/23/15 03:23 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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feels good to finally talk about this
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes] 1
#21985864 - 07/23/15 04:03 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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"I make really good money".
Many folks make the mistake of chasing money, which is relatively easy to get if you are willing to sell your soul, but yeah, happiness is not found there.
Gold ain't where it's at.
On the other hand, I have heard it said, life is just as hard with the weight of lead. 
Seek a job you enjoy, and forget about the money. Save for a year if you feel like you need security.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: AroundtheSon]
#21986848 - 07/23/15 07:28 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I was just re reading this thread and it helps a little just to get it out in the open, thanks everyone that participated.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21986890 - 07/23/15 07:37 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Try to strive to be self employed man
that way no drug tests !
i 100% plan to be self employed in the *legal* weed scene
greenhouses of the sort
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: SunnyD]
#21986908 - 07/23/15 07:42 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Your life man with all your lovely stuff and your awesome lovely family.
count yourself lucky man some people never had that yea its hard being a man but youve gotta live with it!
peace and love coming your way man enjoy living your worth go on holiday when you can go for a day out fuck it bro.
Give me yourlife sounds alot better than this shit head im living in.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Cujllickduo]
#21987012 - 07/23/15 08:02 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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JustAnotherFreak said: Your life man with all your lovely stuff and your awesome lovely family.
count yourself lucky man some people never had that yea its hard being a man but youve gotta live with it!
peace and love coming your way man enjoy living your worth go on holiday when you can go for a day out fuck it bro.
Give me yourlife sounds alot better than this shit head im living in.
my life sounds good but it's just a routine. Work, bills, home for a few hours, work, bills, home for a few hours. g'night people. I have to goto bed cause the start of the same fucking routine starts tomorrow morning and I need all my energy to get through the day.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21987053 - 07/23/15 08:07 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21987093 - 07/23/15 08:15 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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ShootinD5nukes said: my life sounds good but it's just a routine. Work, bills, home for a few hours, work, bills, home for a few hours. g'night people. I have to goto bed cause the start of the same fucking routine starts tomorrow morning and I need all my energy to get through the day.
Think of it this way. At least you are starting to see though the veil that's been pulled over your eyes. You are a productive contributing family holding member of society. Just like school and the government trained you to be. The feelings you have are not atypical and you should not disregard them.
The world/society is not designed for you to be "happy" or live your "dreams." Routine and minutia are what keeps this shit train on the tracks. Free thinking people who seek change and new intellectually satisfying experiences do not always make families, pay taxes, work for 30+ years, and spend tons of money in the economy.
You are ahead of the game. That does not mean you will be happy though. Happiness is cheap and fleeting. Reality is forever and fucking expensive. I know you will be a man and handle your responsibilities.
Good Luck.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21987498 - 07/23/15 09:54 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Most jobs don't test for things like DMT and mushrooms. You can trip until you no longer feel the need. If you're tripping the substances will probably advise against you doing party drugs which will solve your desire for crazy partying. Psychedelics are leading me to the path of bliss that I had no idea exists. I'd say trip on the weekends and you'll find peace with life eventually.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21987617 - 07/23/15 10:24 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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The reason you feel bad is because coke fucks up your emotions and brain and health and life so bad.
Quit all drugs except coffee, weed. dmt, mushrooms and kratom and you will love life!
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Moonshoe]
#21987623 - 07/23/15 10:27 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Did the OP ever say he was doing cocaine???
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21987867 - 07/23/15 11:54 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah, when u grow up, u lose all your freedoms. It sucks.
Wish we could all be rockstars, but practically, we cant. we need normal jobs that are more our norms.
Routine sucks but its really hard to avoid.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Moonshoe]
#21988528 - 07/24/15 04:46 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Moonshoe said: The reason you feel bad is because coke fucks up your emotions and brain and health and life so bad.
Quit all drugs except coffee, weed. dmt, mushrooms and kratom and you will love life!
I was using coke for an example. My fav shit is molly, mushrooms, and acid. my work however can test for mushrooms and obviously molly. acid is abit much for me. I haven't done coke in many years.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21988532 - 07/24/15 04:48 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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How often are you tested and how stringent are their procedures when they test you? It is possible to work around this shit.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Bodhi of Ankou]
#21988696 - 07/24/15 07:04 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah you can't really do Molly but I have never heard of anywhere testing for mushrooms.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: grower182]
#21990576 - 07/24/15 02:49 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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my employer has to do DOT drug test on me because I drive big trucks. These are truely at random and happen minimum once a year.
My employer has a drug test they do when we get DOT tested that's a 15 panel that includes mushrooms.
Their test is so good it test for metabolites from coke that cause a positive 10 days after you do coke.
Also if someone I'm riding with has an accident, if some random person drives into me, or anything of the sort I get this 15 panel drug test. This positive will be known to all employers who do what I do for a living, because what I do for a living is in the top 10 deadliest jobs you can have, so they only pick the safest of the safest people they can hire.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21990670 - 07/24/15 03:06 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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ShootinD5nukes said: Letme start by saying that I make really good money, have a nice place, nice cars/trucks, and nice toys. I have a good family that loves me and life should be perfect.
But lately more and more I'm starting to hate my life. I really like doing drugs and partying but I can't because 1 failed drug test and I would lose my job and any chances of getting one like it.
It's fucking depressing. I'm only 29 am I having a mid life crisis? I was talking to my bartender last night and he is like 35 and he's still running around doing coke, calling into work, and just having a good time. He's living life on his terms ya know what I mean. I'm not, I feel like I'm in this fucking rat race just so I can pay for shit.
I got so jealous of my bartender when he was telling me what he did all weekend. That's shit I could do today but it would destroy my job which would destroy my family’s life.
I wish I could get balls deep into an 8 ball tonight and call into work tomorrow. Wish I didn't have to pay for all these god damn bills. wish I could just work at fucking mcdonalds and still have that fun lifestyle I use to have. I'm only 29 I shouldn't feel like this.
I just wanted a place to vent, I really ain't got people down here to talk to about these kinds of things.
Edit: I wish I could just disappear for two months. Wish I could just tell my girlfriend and my daughter that I just need two months off. Just go to fucking Amsterdam or something like that for two months. Do some of the shit I should have done before I settled down.
You never did settle down. You're the guy that doesn't see anything wrong with cheating right?
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Matt87]
#21990736 - 07/24/15 03:15 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I don't see what you think is so great about partying your ass off and fucking random girls.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Matt87]
#21990754 - 07/24/15 03:17 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Drugs only take you so far then your gunna become a burn out. Stick to your guns. Living sober is what becoming a man is. You can only drift but for so long and that's what your 20s are for. End of your 20s is a bit reality check if you got It or not.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Bigjonbrews]
#21990774 - 07/24/15 03:20 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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uh, I disagree with your sentiments. Sounds like a rationalization for the lifestyle you chose. Some people can't handle life, and drugs don't help, but I don't think it's fair to generalize the way you have.
What do you plan on doing for the next 40 years>?
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: AroundtheSon]
#21990909 - 07/24/15 03:37 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I would simply keep my job whilst trying to find a new line of work..
If you've been with this company for awhile, you can get a good recommendation.
Tell your employer that you have a family and never have time for them and fear that you may one day never see them again due to how often big trucks get into accidents.
When you find an employer with similar pay, do some groundwork and snooping and see if they test.. a lot of employers (esp in the computer industry, and in a lot of places) do not drug test, and if they do, it's just to get the job.
This is an option, along with cutting some of your more B.S. bills, and saving to start an entrepreneurial experiment that could end up making a lot of money, (your own business.)
It seems like a big deal, but it's really not.
You sound so psychedelically determined to fail at the BS. lifestyle that you will subconsciously do something to get into trouble to end it. So do something conscious and think about trying one of the above methods.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Matt87]
#21990942 - 07/24/15 03:47 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Matt87 said: I don't see what you think is so great about fucking random girls.
You know how I know your gay?
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ServantOfBaphomet]
#21990966 - 07/24/15 03:52 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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ServantOfBaphomet said: I would simply keep my job whilst trying to find a new line of work..
If you've been with this company for awhile, you can get a good recommendation.
Tell your employer that you have a family and never have time for them and fear that you may one day never see them again due to how often big trucks get into accidents.
When you find an employer with similar pay, do some groundwork and snooping and see if they test.. a lot of employers (esp in the computer industry, and in a lot of places) do not drug test, and if they do, it's just to get the job.
This is an option, along with cutting some of your more B.S. bills, and saving to start an entrepreneurial experiment that could end up making a lot of money, (your own business.)
It seems like a big deal, but it's really not.
You sound so psychedelically determined to fail at the BS. lifestyle that you will subconsciously do something to get into trouble to end it. So do something conscious and think about trying one of the above methods.
Hail Eris! All Hail Discordia!!
I build power lines for a living. Every lineman drives a class B truck therefore needs a CDL license. Every person in the USA that's employed by a company and drives a CDL gets these random drug test per federal law. I can goto any company I want in America that does this, they would all hire me tomorrow but they all do these drug test.
And it isn't just about drugs everyone. I'm just saying that freedom to do stuff if I want to do them. If I was allowed to do drugs I wouldn't do them often. I'm just saying no matter where I go I'm strapped down. I'm not really good at anything else I've been doing this for 10 years or so. I can't provide the life my family deserves if I choose another job. Any other job I get would be a massive paycut...like 60% paycut at best.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
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ShootinD5nukes said: my employer has to do DOT drug test on me because I drive big trucks. These are truely at random and happen minimum once a year.
My employer has a drug test they do when we get DOT tested that's a 15 panel that includes mushrooms.
Their test is so good it test for metabolites from coke that cause a positive 10 days after you do coke.
Also if someone I'm riding with has an accident, if some random person drives into me, or anything of the sort I get this 15 panel drug test. This positive will be known to all employers who do what I do for a living, because what I do for a living is in the top 10 deadliest jobs you can have, so they only pick the safest of the safest people they can hire.
DMT trust me. Unless they spend money on blood work they won't find DMT because DMT is already in your body. Buy a gram for like 80 bucks and smoke it once or twice on the weekends until you find what you're looking for. It's life changing no joke.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21992888 - 07/24/15 10:06 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Matt87 said: I don't see what you think is so great about fucking random girls.
You know how I know your gay?
You're the one who is starting to hate your life 
Maybe because you have no meaning in what you do?
Like implying fucking random girls is the epitome of satisfying your urges to love and have relationships 
Actually I don't even see where you said that 
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: twighead]
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Matt87 said: I don't see what you think is so great about fucking random girls.
You know how I know your gay?
You're the one who is starting to hate your life 
Maybe because you have no meaning in what you do?
Like implying fucking random girls is the epitome of satisfying your urges to love and have relationships 
Actually I don't even see where you said that 
This opening poster is into cheating on his girlfriend I learned in a different thread. I was just pointing out how that might be related to his current unhappiness. It seems like he doesn't really give a shit about his "family".
Hell, just break up with the poor girl so she can have a meaningful relationship and you can live out your childish desires day in and day out.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Matt87]
#21993105 - 07/24/15 10:47 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I'm doing it. I was gonna take my kid and wife out on the road with me in a van like I used to when I was in my teens and early 20's, but then reality hit me, what a fucking stupid idea, so they're gonna stay here with her family and I'm gonna go and fuck off till I can figure out what to do with the last half of my life. I plan on eating more mushrooms and figure out what the fuck this is all about. I've become so cold and angry towards the world and society at large in the last 3 years. I'd say just drop out, better to ruin everybody else than yourself right? If you destroy your humanity by continuing to grind it away against the laurels of society they will suffer more than if they forgo your presence for a little while.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Eggtimer]
#21993862 - 07/25/15 06:46 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I would love to dry it but I've never been lucky enough to get it
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Why would anyone want Mac or Windows? Windows never quits shoving updates down your throat and Mac is just so expensive for the same exact hardware that's in a PC. Go Linux.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21993882 - 07/25/15 07:03 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I know exactly what you mean. I live my life in 4 month cycles of work/study and no time for anything, then a month or two of just working and that being my downtime or party time. You just get fed up with the cycle. No rigidity no fun. Can't go out and let loose cod you got other shit to take care of. Eat sleep work. On the weekends you're too tired to do shit anyways and just recovering for the next week.
Let me tell you I've gone on my fair share of benders and you always end up regretting it. Like I'll have a binge being the light at the end of the tunnel for me for a month or two of hard work. Fully frothing to get blitzed. And then I get there and go ham on drugs and im like yeah this is shit... Why do I bother with it? It's not worth. It's annoying though thst even knowing all of this logically in my mind, it doesn't change the cravings or wanting to escape.
A lot of the times the elation from achieving w/e it is I set out to leads me into getting high and then fucking it all up again. When really I'd be a lot healthier if I could just learn to ride out the natural elation I earn and not push things too far with drugs. Cos drugs just fuck you up more in the end really. I mean you can't really say that drugs ever really help you or leave you in a better position then when you started.
Buuuuut If you were set on some droogz you could consider DMT. Very short but deep psychedelic experience. No hangover or after effects. More then likely won't show up in tests. Also Ketamine. Lots of fun and feels, relatively short acting. Also a rarer more obscure drug that doesn't show up on many tests.
But the main thing I was trying to say is that maybe you don't need to get an 8ball and you might end up regretting it if you did. Maybe you should talk to your gf about this and also looking at taking a holiday soon if you can
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Soulidarity] 1
#21993893 - 07/25/15 07:14 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it
Let me translate that for you:
I have always done what I perceived to be expected of me and now I am leading a life that is not my own.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Matt87]
#21993912 - 07/25/15 07:24 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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This opening poster is into cheating on his girlfriend I learned in a different thread. I was just pointing out how that might be related to his current unhappiness.
Dude your not into fucking woman I get it. I'm not judging you for enjoying dick, more power to you. I think you and your partner Roger are great for each other and I'm glad you can marry him legally anywhere in the USA but that's not what this threads about. Start a new thread about different sexual positions that Roger likes doing to you. Name the thread "The life of a bottom"
If you think fucking woman is the reason I'm unhappy I must say once more......
You know how I know your gay?
-------------------- Nothing I write on Shroomery's message boards or in private messages are true. I am fucking crazy and I make all this shit up because I can.
Why would anyone want Mac or Windows? Windows never quits shoving updates down your throat and Mac is just so expensive for the same exact hardware that's in a PC. Go Linux.
Edited by ShootinD5nukes (07/25/15 08:51 AM)
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21993928 - 07/25/15 07:36 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Sorry Matt that was pretty funny
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#21994548 - 07/25/15 10:16 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Indeed it was.
There's no point getting into it with someone over the internet. In person I have my precious trump card that would force him to listen to me without talking shit.
If you don't think cheating on your family(being a piece of shit) is related to your unhappiness and can't be convinced of such I guess I'll step away from this conversation.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: Matt87] 1
#21994622 - 07/25/15 10:38 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I'm in a bit of a transitional period. I've got stuff coming up to look forward to, traveling for a bit this September, and new work prospects on the horizon. But I feel very out of touch and stuck in a weird kind of purgatory. I don't enjoy anything I used to, but I'm so sick of missing out on everything life offers and how much fun I used to have.
I also just found out my thyroid is pretty much non-functional, which explains being cold all the time and my hair starting to fall out and the chronic cough and soreness and feeling so tired I could sleep for days if I let myself, and apparently it can cause significant feelings of depression and general shittiness. It's getting treated now as of a couple weeks ago and my hair seems to be going back to normal, so hopefully it'll help me feel less sucky about things soon.
Either way, a change is in order, but I've been saying that for a while now.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: pirate-blues]
#21994680 - 07/25/15 10:56 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Move to Hawaii and open a food truck on the beach and get high all day
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: twelvelookslikeu]
#21994780 - 07/25/15 11:24 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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As nice as it sounds, I'm kind of married to living in dense walkable cities, at least for now. I could see myself giving up living in a city that's more northeastern in size and feel and moving to the PNW. Seattle or a smaller WA city, or even Portland would be a dream come true, San Francisco is way too fucking expensive to ever even remotely consider.
I would totally live by the beach and be perma-baked if it was a shorter-term situation like <6months
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21994924 - 07/25/15 12:02 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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This opening poster is into cheating on his girlfriend I learned in a different thread. I was just pointing out how that might be related to his current unhappiness.
Dude your not into fucking woman I get it. I'm not judging you for enjoying dick, more power to you. I think you and your partner Roger are great for each other and I'm glad you can marry him legally anywhere in the USA but that's not what this threads about. Start a new thread about different sexual positions that Roger likes doing to you. Name the thread "The life of a bottom"
If you think fucking woman is the reason I'm unhappy I must say once more......
You know how I know your gay?
He's probably on to something, judging by how worked up your ego gets by him mentioning it
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: twighead]
#21995013 - 07/25/15 12:22 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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This opening poster is into cheating on his girlfriend I learned in a different thread. I was just pointing out how that might be related to his current unhappiness.
Dude your not into fucking woman I get it. I'm not judging you for enjoying dick, more power to you. I think you and your partner Roger are great for each other and I'm glad you can marry him legally anywhere in the USA but that's not what this threads about. Start a new thread about different sexual positions that Roger likes doing to you. Name the thread "The life of a bottom"
If you think fucking woman is the reason I'm unhappy I must say once more......
You know how I know your gay?
He's probably on to something, judging by how worked up your ego gets by him mentioning it 
not at all, he just seems like he's obsessed with me cause he brings it up in other threads.
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Why would anyone want Mac or Windows? Windows never quits shoving updates down your throat and Mac is just so expensive for the same exact hardware that's in a PC. Go Linux.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21995032 - 07/25/15 12:26 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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This is the first time I've brought it up. Aside from the initial thread where you were glorifying that Ashley Madison website.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21995070 - 07/25/15 12:34 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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This opening poster is into cheating on his girlfriend I learned in a different thread. I was just pointing out how that might be related to his current unhappiness.
Dude your not into fucking woman I get it. I'm not judging you for enjoying dick, more power to you. I think you and your partner Roger are great for each other and I'm glad you can marry him legally anywhere in the USA but that's not what this threads about. Start a new thread about different sexual positions that Roger likes doing to you. Name the thread "The life of a bottom"
If you think fucking woman is the reason I'm unhappy I must say once more......
You know how I know your gay?
He's probably on to something, judging by how worked up your ego gets by him mentioning it 
not at all, he just seems like he's obsessed with me cause he brings it up in other threads.
It's a pretty valid point though 
Cheating on a family you say you value is much different than just fucking women.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21995226 - 07/25/15 01:12 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Sounds like you need a vacation. Living a life of leisure isn't all it's cracked up to be, a life filled with responsibilities and goals is much more fulfilling. At the same time though you need to cut loose once in a while. Doing a bunch of blow isn't going to make your life any more enjoyable either, coke doesn't improve anyone's mental well being except maybe in the short term. It's fun, but so is a lot of other things that don't make you feel like shit for several days after doing them. Coke is a much better option if you actually enjoy your life most of the time.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: twighead]
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Cheating on a family you say you value is much different than just fucking women.
I'm not married, cheating doesn't bother me in the least. I don't carry on two relationships at once. But if I'm out at a bar and I can get it in with some hot chick then it's going down even if you all don't agree with it.
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Why would anyone want Mac or Windows? Windows never quits shoving updates down your throat and Mac is just so expensive for the same exact hardware that's in a PC. Go Linux.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: fapjack]
#21995668 - 07/25/15 03:10 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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fapjack said: Sounds like you need a vacation. Living a life of leisure isn't all it's cracked up to be, a life filled with responsibilities and goals is much more fulfilling. At the same time though you need to cut loose once in a while. Doing a bunch of blow isn't going to make your life any more enjoyable either, coke doesn't improve anyone's mental well being except maybe in the short term. It's fun, but so is a lot of other things that don't make you feel like shit for several days after doing them. Coke is a much better option if you actually enjoy your life most of the time.
What's bothering me isn't just drugs, drugs is a very small part of it. It's that I'm not really free to do what I want. I know everyones saying that's what being a man is about and I totally agree. I'm just unhappy with how locked down I am.
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Why would anyone want Mac or Windows? Windows never quits shoving updates down your throat and Mac is just so expensive for the same exact hardware that's in a PC. Go Linux.
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Re: My life is good but I'm really starting to hate it. [Re: ShootinD5nukes]
#21995681 - 07/25/15 03:11 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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ShootinD5nukes said: I would love to dry it but I've never been lucky enough to get it
Before you look into any of this stuff you must first download tor.
Look up the darknetmarkets on Reddit. Basically if you have an address, live on earth, and can use a computer/ buy some bitcoins you can have a gram of DMT within a week. Any drug for that matter.
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