4th Trip. Mind refreshing as always.
I'm 21 now and the last time I indulged in psilocybin mushrooms was about 2 years ago. The first time or two it was mainly low key visual trips with lots of laughing, good times and euphoria. The last time however, the third trip, my best friend and I had a much different experience as the true powers of the fungi showed its colours. Still young I was in the initial learning stages. My mind opened up to areas I never even thought possible before. Acceptance became easy and my ego was lost. By the end of the trip I was mind blown by my newfound outlooks but a part of me still wondered what was the true cause of these instances. Was it just the shrooms messing with my mind or were they a gateway to more divine forces at work? Regardless, I left the experience amazed and oddly comfortable finding out life is an incredibly complex concept and we understand a wildly small portion of what it is. Fast forward two years later now, i never forgot what I had learned through my initial experiences but I had fallen into regular routines where I became complacent again. Just so happened that the opportunity arose for my same friend and I to have another experience together.
It's now about 6 hours after I came down back to reality after our 4th trip and here's how it went...
Started around midnight, D and I ate around 2.5 grams each. Starting with about a gram then throughout the next hour or two we munched on another gram and a bit. We first started hanging out on D's deck smoking chronic and cigarettes all while going through cycles of eating, toking, and smoking.
Around 3 am after a relatively tame first few hours, D started to feel cold and began to feel really uncomfortable. I believe he was being confronted with thought patterns he was planning on having during the trip. As he was "running" away from addressing the issues he was generating, the shrooms started to slap him in the face by making him more and more uncomfortable. D ended up going to washroom and threw up his portion of the shrooms. After intense uncomfortable hallucinations by him during wretching, he felt better after. He then went to the couch and melted into sleep state for the remainder of the night.
His trip was short lived which was unfortunate for me because i had yet to get to that stage as I was still "coming up" so it meant I was going to endure the rest alone. Sure enough, not too long after he passed out and despite my efforts (after seeing him in such discomfort) to go to sleep too, my thoughts began to race in remarkable ways.
I began to lose myself in the worry that my discomfort would be settling in soon so I continued to reject the voices of my thoughts and I kept trying to go to sleep. This was not going to happen lol. I mainly didn't feel like puking cause obviously, no one likes that feeling. As time went by, it of course started losing its meaning. Wrestling with reality wasn't working so I decided to let go a little bit. Started going with the flow and began to sit back and listen to the messages being sent to me. I went to the washroom as well at this point as I continued to "come up" to "peak". As I knelt over the toilet, not even really feeling like I had to puke, I got ready to really let go. As soon as I looked into the water, I relaxed and dove in. As I puked I lost control and I let it take over. Before I knew it, I began to communicate with invisible entities. Some good, some bad, but all along, there was a spirit type presence guiding me along the path. I interpreted it as a mother type figure such as the earth itself. Mother Earth/Mother Nature was taking my hand and waking me up, showing me all the wrong in the world. Showing me the problems with my materialistic life and grooming me to change my thought patterns into ones that have nothing but the best interest of our universe in mind.
It felt as though she was taking her children, that being all of us who live on this beautiful planet, and made us(me) wake up to serve her. She showed me how she is dying and how she needs help to come back to life again. I could see she was scared in that she was doing this out of desperation. She used many different means of waking me up. I met multiple different entities as she brought me to the lowest of lows and up to the highest of highs. I met an incredibly intimidating evil presence that would laugh at me as it reached out for me. Mother was dangling me in front, showing me the source for all evil. It was the source of all negative emotions and thoughts in the world today. Greed, power, egotistical self serving traits were some of the worst characteristics it was emulating. She showed me we (earth/universe) were the battleground for good and evil, God and the devil, lightness and darkness...she showed me this by bringing me then to the true god almighty. I don't mean god up in the clouds or anything. I mean the god that is in all of us, everywhere, at all times. He was a judging god who told me how powerful he was and how much good is coming to those who accept him and the darkness that is coming to those that reject his love. I became amazed at how similar the feeling I was feeling fit into most prominent religions around the world. It gave new meaning to them all for me. The problem I saw is that we started to try to make more sense of everything than ought to be known. We began filling in the blanks through power and greed and people changed from just being god loving, universe serving individuals into personal gain chasing people who realized the lust for answers became so powerful, manipulation of perceptions of people en masse could be done for control. I think the fact of the matter is is, a lot of religions have it fundamentally correct, but the nooks and crannys are vastly misunderstood. It's not meant to be known in depth possibly. If followed to the extent of just loving everything and everyone around you and beyond, life becomes much simpler and more glorious.
I was in the washroom for what felt like hours but it turned out being not long at all. I then went back outside and began watching youtube videos on other trips. After reading and listening to others who have seen what I was seeing, it felt really comfortable. Not 100% comfortable because not all the answers were there but generally, I was happy that I now saw the world for what it is. I didn't know exactly how we are going to go about saving our world but I knew I wasn't alone in this fight. I knew there were a lot of you out there who are on a similar page and that we will find a way to band together and address our issues as one. I'm now in the education phase, spending my free time learning what I can and growing as much as possible. We must play ball with our destructive system to a point in order to gain more mass consciousness awakening. I'm incredibly optimistic about the future as I always have been but now I have the new found knowledge that we are all connected by an unseen force that's in all of us and that we are all in this together. God lives in all of us at all times in a dimension that we can't even comprehend. With god being in all of us, we are all god too.
Peace everybody, everything is okay, and together the light will overcome any obstacle in our way.
What do you guys think? Regardless if there are other factors at work or if it's just the shrooms talking, the experience is the same. Those ideas were in my mind somewhere and it just so happened the shrooms helped pull them out. That fact alone, although it won't work for everyone as the mindset before hand needs to be right, means it needs to be studied more.
Edited by JV Dubzz (07/20/15 09:26 PM)
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