Past Experiences
Cannabis (smoked), DXM (oral robo-syrup), Salvia (smoked), LSA/HBW (oral), MDMA crystals (oral). The HBW seeds made me extremely sick, starting with extreme and prolonged nausea followed by general body discomfort and feeling sapped of energy.
Substance
A psilocybin cubenis extract in alcohol. A vial is supposed to be equivalent to about 2 grams. Enough people had vouched for the quality/authenticity of the product that I was fairly confident that it was as advertised.
Motivation
Curiosity. Desire for new experiences, new perspectives, adventure, beauty, whatever it has to offer. I am, however, always concerned about the possibility of bad experiences, so I started with 1 half vial (1 gram equiv), which I figured should be a relatively low dose for me, as someone weighing about 215 lbs. I had some MDMA handy for the unlikely event that I started freaking out. I was hoping for the next go around to be a whole vial (2g) if all went well.
Setting
Alone in my condo, evening.
Timeline
1:30pm - lunch (a foot-long sandwich from subway, a bag of chips, a diet coke) 7:33pm - 1 half vial psilocybin extract (1 gram equiv) 9:10pm (approx) - 100mg dramamine (2 pills) 10:30pm - small to moderate amount of cannabis (J1), smoked 3:00am (approx) - Sleep
Experience Log
[Note: Below are things I wrote at the time, with some minor editing after the fact. The time signatures indicate the time that I wrote whatever follows. Notes in brackets were added in later.]
7:33pm
I measured out half of the vial, mixed it with a little diet coke and drank it down. It didn't taste bad at all. The extract itself reminded me a bit of vanilla extract and when I mixed it with the diet coke I could barely taste it.
7:50pm
feel something subtle bodily
7:56pm
slight body high, tingly feeling across my skin
8:00pm
a bit of a subdued/spacey feeling
8:10pm
well this is sort of psychedelic. slightly dissociative. rather sedated.
8:25pm
I just lay in bed for 15 minutes, because I felt compelled to do so for whatever reason. The body high kicked up a notch. It felt really nice and relaxing. Better than a weed body high. Nothing too weird or psychdelic. I wanted to check the time so I walked out of my bedroom. In doing so, I noticed a bit of nausea or motion sickness or something. It more or less ruined the body high I had felt while lying on my back in bed.
8:37pm
The nausea's gotten a little worse. It's tolerable though. Anxiety isn't an issue, but this isn't very fun right now. :|
9:20pm
I went and laid in bed with music for a bit. My imagination was a little trippy when I closed my eyes. That is, it offered up some strange images, like mouths where they shouldn't be, an alien-ish man with a lot of eyes and some things that were too vague to describe or properly remember. These were not "closed eye visuals" mind you. Just free flowing imagination. I didn't particularly care for it, but it wasn't a big deal. [Note: Back when I took LSA I had actual closed eye visuals that would bombard and overwhelm me whenever I closed my eyes. Mouths in strange places was a common theme with them.]
I started to get a bit bored laying there, but was annoyed with the fact that it wasn't very enjoyable to move. I got up and called a nearby convenience store to ask if they had dramamine. They did. It's only a couple blocks away so I walked there. On the way, things looked slightly more beautiful than usual. Colors were a little bit more vivid and sometimes their shades seemed peculiar. The sun was still not all the way down at this point, but the street lights were on. The man's face at the counter seemed strange when I looked at it in the right way. Not in any way that I could put my finger on, though. I immediately popped two dramamine pills in my mouth after buying them and then walked back.
When I came back into the house I came across a full roll of paper towels in the kitchen. It made me want to touch it and made me think about how much I love and appreciate paper towels. [Note: *shrug*]
9:30pm
I was kind of tempted to go outside again, but fudge that. I'm just going to sit in my chair and wait for the dramamine to take effect. 9:38pm
I was enjoying listening to some music, but then the nausea got worse and ruined it. Seems to be worse now.
9:58pm
This nausea sucksssss Why is the dramamine not working? Hurry up and work? I'm on youtube just trying to kill the time at this point..
10:04pm
Someone in a youtube comment mentioned Dwight from The Office and I got this sudden desire to watch The Office. I said to myself something like "Dude, remember The Office, though? I can't believe it's been so long since I've watched that show. I should watch it. That would be awesome." I felt this weird sense of nostalgic love for the characters and almost missed them as if they were old friends I had lost or something. [Note: I was never a hardcore fan of the show or anything. I mean I liked it fine, it was entertaining.]
10:11pm
This nausea still sucks. Completely ruining the experience. I don't think the Dramamine's going to work if it hasn't done anything by now. It's not that it's unbearable or anything, it just gives everything a negative flavor.
10:27pm
Yeah this still sucks and it's been over an hour since I took the dramamine. I'm going to smoke a little bit. I know, I know, possibly a bad idea, but we'll see. [Note: Possibly a bad idea, because cannabis can be unpleasant for me sometimes and also interacts badly or unexpectedly with other substances for me sometimes. When I took HWB I didn't experience anything psychdelic at all for a good 8 hours or so and then after I smoked weed it sent me straight into an LSA trip within a few minutes]
Experience After I Stopped Taking Notes
I smoked some cannabis and unlike with HWB, it did not amplify the effect of the shrooms to a large extent, if at all. It was more just like both were there side by side. I'm not really the hugest fan of weed, so it was like "meh". But more importantly, it didn't help me feel any less sick. Also, it made me hungry and horny, neither of which I wanted to feel at the time.
I went and lay down again after a bit, this time on my stomach, which is how I sleep. I was going in and out of half dreamlike states. My leg was restless, which often happens to me and disrupts my falling asleep. I kept feeling like I was on the verge of tripping, like I would feel normal one moment and then "woah, this is weird!" for like a few seconds but then I'd go back to normal. I don't remember exactly in what way things were weird. I think it was something to do with distortions in my sense of physical space or something. Sometimes my inner perception of my body felt a bit distorted, like my legs were really small and stretched out and far away from my head.
I got bored and frustrated of lying down after some time. I went back to killing time with my computer. I actual did watch some of The Office. It way okay. I ate a fruit popsicle. I watched some random CollegeHumor videos. Anything to kill the time. I was able to laugh a fair bit, but still didn't feel very comfortable and just wanted the feeling of sickness to be over. I can't remember everything I did exactly, but I know it was nothing interesting. It was around 3:00am when I finally felt able to go to sleep.
Conclusions With the exception of the feeling sick, I actually felt like a higher dose of this stuff would be a good experience for me. Salvia and cannabis I sometimes associate with a sense of cold, alien, uncaring and that is always the type of thing I fear with new substances. But I did not get that sense from the small dose of mushrooms I took. There was a small taste of the strangeness, which I wasn't sure how to feel about, but there was also love, empathy, nostalgia, beauty. Subtle, but there. I wish I could experience a higher dose. But, even though it was not anywhere close to as bad as it was with HWB (because that was truly awful), the nausea still tainted everything. And with a higher dose it could be that much worse. This is why I'm disappointed. Unless I can figure out a way to not feel sick, I don't believe I will ever take a higher dose than I did this time.
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