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SirShroomsAlott
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Psychonautica] 1
#21937604 - 07/13/15 02:45 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Psychonautica said: This kid had a wonderful wonderful life. Everyone loved him. His smile was more contagious than any disease. In high school I always looked forward to our classes together. He always had some smart ass shit to say. I just don't get it. No one disliked him. He was in a good college. Good at sports. Had a beautiful girlfriend. I'm not sure about his family life but I just can't imagine that anyone could dislike him. He was never mean,or angry. He is one of my favorite people I've ever known. I was going to say was, but just because he's gone it doesn't mean it needs to be passed tense. He had more than a chance. He just couldn't see it.
I'll be getting a tattoo sometime next month for him. I'll post it up when it's done. My artist is on vacation.
That's usually how it is, I've mentioned it on here before because no one knows me, but I wanted to kill myself for a long time and have attempted, which looking back I guess I can't say was a bad thing that I failed in my attempt, but not a single person in my life from friends and family even noticed I was at such a low point mainly because I didn't want them to.
I had friends, a job, parents who cared, but when you're in the mindset you truly feel no way out, totally isolated and alone at all times, even when you're with other people, you're just stuck inside your own mind. I can only speak from my own experience because I didn't know him and I'm not going to attempt to act like I did, it's just unfortunate, and too easy to hide. Even on my lowest days when someone finally gives you that shoulder to lean on or asks what's wrong, you turn it away, because it all seems hopeless and even if you find a moment of happiness, it's only a short time before it comes back. If he or other people were anything like me, they're always happy and helping people because they don't want to drag people down or go through the same thing as them, even if they don't notice what you're going through yourself.
It really is one of the worst things when someone so young leaves us so early, especially when he really did have so much more to his life, it's one of those things you can't ask yourself how you didn't see it or anything like that though, because a lot of the time it isn't shown. He seems like an awesome dude from what you've said, and you're right, it isn't past tense, his memory and his impact on you and everyone he cared about and all the happiness he brought everyone will live on, remember all the good times, and don't ever forget about him.
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: SirShroomsAlott]
#21938563 - 07/13/15 06:19 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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His obituary just came out. He's actually 20 and time or death was July tenth.
He lied to me about being 21 but I don't mind. My parents didn't like underage drinking.
Makes me more sad to know he was only 20
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Psychonautica]
#21938577 - 07/13/15 06:22 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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How stupid of an idea would it be to blaze at the cemetery? I wanna smoke with him one more time.
-------------------- The chances of you even being born, Were forty million to one. There's two parts of the statistic And I want you to live through one 3/8/95 - 7/10/15 Rest In Paradise, Brother. Sheekle said: yeah, i said i was afraid of psychonautica

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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Psychonautica] 1
#21938581 - 07/13/15 06:23 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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It isn't stupid, I did for my best friend when he died, and a beer, and then again when his identical twin brother died.
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: SirShroomsAlott]
#21938589 - 07/13/15 06:25 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I'm going to do it anyways. I'll pay the ticket for smoking if they make me. Any cop who would actually ticket me for that is a limp dicked piece of shit. Luckily in Minnesota I wouldn't go to jail, just a ticket.
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Psychonautica]
#21938590 - 07/13/15 06:25 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I did it all the time with a friend of mine who shot himself when I still smoked. It was my "sit and ponder things" time. Anyone who doesnt leave you alone is an asshole that can go fuck themself..
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Amanita86]
#21938596 - 07/13/15 06:27 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I'm thinking about spending the night there even.
-------------------- The chances of you even being born, Were forty million to one. There's two parts of the statistic And I want you to live through one 3/8/95 - 7/10/15 Rest In Paradise, Brother. Sheekle said: yeah, i said i was afraid of psychonautica

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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Amanita86] 1
#21938598 - 07/13/15 06:27 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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They'll understand, I didn't have a cop stop but a groundskeeper or whatever they're called patrolled by, I told him the truth, that my best friend died and this was something they did and I didn't know what else to do.
He gave me a very short lecture about not handling my problem with drugs, but that he wouldn't bother me and to attempt to hide if other people came by.
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: SirShroomsAlott]
#21938613 - 07/13/15 06:32 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah. I don't see how anyone can make someone who's mourning life worse intentionally. If anyone asks me to stop I'll be respectful and put it out until they leave
-------------------- The chances of you even being born, Were forty million to one. There's two parts of the statistic And I want you to live through one 3/8/95 - 7/10/15 Rest In Paradise, Brother. Sheekle said: yeah, i said i was afraid of psychonautica

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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Psychonautica]
#21938649 - 07/13/15 06:40 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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sometimes people just need love and a hug and rational thinking from a freind I just got told to move the fuck out cause i told my rents to enjoy there night and stop fighting
I can feel for people who feel trapped and sad.. life isnt perfect but its beautiful... emotional sometimes very dark
but in the end i feel
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: SunnyD] 2
#21938678 - 07/13/15 06:47 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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You are a grown man. Why are you living with your parents in the first place?
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: zappaisgod] 2
#21938822 - 07/13/15 07:21 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: zappaisgod]
#21938859 - 07/13/15 07:32 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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zappaisgod said: You are a grown man. Why are you living with your parents in the first place?
Because im a fuck up
I honestly fucked up my early adulthood I still feel like a kid and im almost 20
Il get there or die trying
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: SunnyD]
#21938904 - 07/13/15 07:40 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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So uh, can you take that "die trying" negativity to a different thread, please? And the why don't you have a job thing.
I mean, I troll a lot and derail threads too but like, this is definitely not the place to do it.
Thanks guys. I still love you all.
-------------------- The chances of you even being born, Were forty million to one. There's two parts of the statistic And I want you to live through one 3/8/95 - 7/10/15 Rest In Paradise, Brother. Sheekle said: yeah, i said i was afraid of psychonautica

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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Psychonautica] 2
#21939083 - 07/13/15 08:23 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Psychonautica said: How stupid of an idea would it be to blaze at the cemetery? I wanna smoke with him one more time.
There's not typically a lot of people at a cemetery. I've smoked weed several times in em after funerals or a grave visit.
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Psychonautica]
#21939242 - 07/13/15 08:57 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I wasnt thinking about that that was a coincidence
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Psychonautica]
#21939379 - 07/13/15 09:25 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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sorry to hear bro, breaks my heart, especially cuz he loved weed..
rip 
i've lost a loved one to suicide before, i know how hard it can be..
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: Psychonautica]
#21939402 - 07/13/15 09:28 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Psychonautica said: How stupid of an idea would it be to blaze at the cemetery? I wanna smoke with him one more time.
I don't think that's a stupid idea at all. The chances of getting caught for that seem extremely low and I believe, especially with the legalization going around, that most souls would understand.
I'm sorry for your loss and you both will be in my thoughts.
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Re: So as I'm sure you all know, I haven't been on lately. [Re: hex_enduction]
#21939416 - 07/13/15 09:31 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Parting with loved ones is one of the hardest things there is
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