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zappaisgod
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Amanita86]
#21932861 - 07/12/15 10:48 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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The girl can definitely play
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Confucian
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: zappaisgod]
#21933326 - 07/12/15 12:31 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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There is a big market for Asian pornstars on chaturbate.com
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daz01
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Confucian]
#21933346 - 07/12/15 12:36 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Confucian said: There is a big market for Asian pornstars on chaturbate.com 
I would not be surprised if CG was a whore. How the hell does she afford her lavish, crazy-ass drug fueled lifestyle!?
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: daz01]
#21933414 - 07/12/15 12:51 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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By having drive and ambition By living
But like every single thing i ever encountered in this *life* she isnt perfect
she has been sucked into addiction over n over
I think alot of good people have But i have hope she can still pull through and shine 
I got ky own set of problems atm Albeit the drugs i abuse are just weed mxe n kratom its stilldependance
Mainly i feel its from my lack of social life atm I have 0 people in my life atm that i can have a heart to heart physically When you are filled with love and crave soical aspects that most people dont get down with (as in it takes that pure speacial truthful person) i know a few but they aint in my immediate physical life atm
Alas it is all my fault in the end Al th ought im still improving and im not going down hill
I still have weaknesses so does CG so does zappa burke etc etc
everyone and everything has a weakness Some people need a hug a word a smile a face a embrace etc etc etc
some People cant help themselves and some can
But OP has alot of potential and i hope she gets out of that endless sad n confused cycle 
 excuse my sad emotion filled rant im going through alittle rough patch soically atm this and a few people on this site that i talk to daily is all i have in that department
I wanna do nothing but improve myself and the world around me I hope my words hav positively impacted anyone of you 
please be safe
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Edited by SunnyD (07/12/15 01:00 PM)
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G]
#21933810 - 07/12/15 02:51 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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There are no people only I's. Realize what life is and that you are life and dope will seem less appealing.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Eggtimer]
#21933835 - 07/12/15 02:56 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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This is why you don't do heroin, your guna be a junkie forever even if your clean its always something your guna have to fight.
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heroin is addikted to heroin
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Trichome_Delta9


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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Konyap]
#21934233 - 07/12/15 04:36 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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when you become addicted to something it is for the rest of your life but that does not mean you have to use the rest of your life.
you can stay clean for the rest of your life and in your mind there will be something that wants you to be high on said substance.
it will get easier with time but it will be something that is a part of you.
I hope things work out and you stay clean.
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Acaterpillar
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Trichome_Delta9 said: when you become addicted to something it is for the rest of your life but that does not mean you have to use the rest of your life.
I know you have good sentiments, but this is bullshit. Sure, for some people they will always have serious cravings for most of their life; but that is the exception. It took me two years two stop craving heroin, but now I could be around it and have no genuine desire to use it again. Addiction hard wires your brain to want something, but you can just as easily rewire your brain to not want it.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Acaterpillar]
#21934303 - 07/12/15 04:52 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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i think even if someone can consciously do that the fight will always be there subconsciously though.
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Acaterpillar
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I tried it for the first time in a while not that long ago and it was disgusting to me. The effects felt alright, but it had totally lost it's appeal. Tastes gross as hell, and afterwards I felt like total shit.
Maybe I'm the exception? 
Seems like I see the same thing happen with cigarettes for a lot of people. I know several people who used to smoke a pack a day that can't even tolerate the smell of second hand smoke now.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Confucian] 2
#21934579 - 07/12/15 06:18 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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zappaisgod said: Yes she does. That is just one of the reasons why I hate to hear about her fucking up. She has so much going for her. She could do anything and she chooses death.
she's such a bright girl, ambitious as hell but she's bored too easily which is what leads to this shit
Ambitious when it comes to scoring dope or exercising. I don't think she is ambitious when it comes to her education or employment, but correct me if I am wrong.
consider yourself corrected
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Prisoner#1] 1
#21934593 - 07/12/15 06:25 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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yup, as far as i can tell, she's a bright individual
ur def way above the dope crytalG
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Acaterpillar]
#21934618 - 07/12/15 06:33 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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trying a drug once and having a drug addiction are different things.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: zZZz]
#21935017 - 07/12/15 08:44 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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zZZz said: yup, as far as i can tell, she's a bright individual
ur def way above the dope crytalG
That doesn't cut it.
I had a lot of bright and intelligent friends that just threw it away because they were lazy.
Intelligence without hard work and diligence as useless.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G]
#21935020 - 07/12/15 08:44 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Crystal G said: Update: My boyfriend and I talked things over. We had a long talk, actually.
He said that he would always love me and support me unconditionally and be there for me regardless of whether I can stop using or not. I had never experienced this type of reaction to my drug use. Usually with all my loved ones, I've always only encountered the typical AA/NA "tough love" adage of "sober up or get the hell out," which really only ended up fueling and deepening my drug addiction even worse than ever before.
He even said that if things are really bad with my parents, I am free to move in with him back in Philadelphia. He said that he accepts me moving back, even if I cannot stay sober and continue to stay strung out on dope, because he loves me and does not want to abandon me.
I cried hearing this, quite a lot in fact, but they were happy tears. Because hearing that kind of response made me feel something I've never felt before. I've just never had anybody react that way to my addiction with such acceptance before. And for the first time, hearing that gave me true determination and motivation to turn my life around.
Johann Hari was right when he wrote this in his "cause of addiction" article: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/johann-hari/the-real-cause-of-addicti_b_6506936.html
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Loving an addict is really hard. When I looked at the addicts I love, it was always tempting to follow the tough love advice doled out by reality shows like Intervention -- tell the addict to shape up, or cut them off. Their message is that an addict who won't stop should be shunned. It's the logic of the drug war, imported into our private lives. But in fact, I learned, that will only deepen their addiction -- and you may lose them altogether. I came home determined to tie the addicts in my life closer to me than ever -- to let them know I love them unconditionally, whether they stop, or whether they can't.
When I returned from my long journey, I looked at my ex-boyfriend, in withdrawal, trembling on my spare bed, and I thought about him differently. For a century now, we have been singing war songs about addicts. It occurred to me as I wiped his brow, we should have been singing love songs to them all along.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/johann-hari/the-real-cause-of-addicti_b_6506936.html
So…. I've decided I'm going to take some steps to get better. I told him that the truth is, I am not ready to delete any of my dealer's contacts right now. Because even though I don't intend to score drugs, the simple fact that I have these contacts at my disposal makes me feel better. It's sort of a comfort blanket for me, knowing that if everything DOES fall apart and everybody I know leaves me in my life, I will always have drugs to fall back on. It gives me comfort knowing that I will always have those numbers at my disposal.
BUT, I intend on taking different steps to clean my act up together. And to do that, I have decided to start by setting up a new bank account in my name and transferring all my savings over there. I'm going to let my parents set up the password so that I can't withdraw any money out. This way, whenever I have any cravings, I will not be able to make any "impulse buys" like I always do that manages to screw everything up. This way, I can actually save money over the course of the next 6 months, and then we'll decide whether I should move back to Philly or my boyfriend's going to move to Cali.
Haha i told you it was a good article.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Enjoywho]
#21935028 - 07/12/15 08:47 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I read it months ago, like before I even went to rehab.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G]
#21935091 - 07/12/15 09:04 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Oh 
Ya my sister randomly shared it with me bout a week ago. Lots of good thoughts in there. Hit the nail on the head.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Enjoywho]
#21935109 - 07/12/15 09:08 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I was watching his TED talk today actually. Been following all his posts on Facebook for a while now
http://www.ted.com/talks/johann_hari_everything_you_think_you_know_about_addiction_is_wrong
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