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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Konyap]
#21927879 - 07/11/15 08:29 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Well they took away the oc80s which at the least you knew what you were getting. Everyone just switched to heroin. And people are dieing left and right. People are going to use at least a pills a pill. Consistent.
I od'd doing my normal amount. Half a point. Woke up in an ambulance with ivs in my arms. Thats gonna cost me 6 grand but they'll never see a cent of that.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Konyap]
#21927908 - 07/11/15 08:39 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Illyabo said: Im basically the same way with weed tho
It's my crutch to waste time during the day
I'll most likely end up swearing it off as my soul floats into the next life
You can do that with video games or TV too. Opiates are way more dangerous though because they have a strong effect on the reward system in the brain. That other stuff mostly just staves off boredom for a while.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Enjoywho]
#21927926 - 07/11/15 08:43 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Hey this is off topic here, but I had a thought the other day when I heard someone mention UncleLuke in OTD and looked him up. This thread just triggered that thought again...
How do you guys find out these people died? I get the, if someone has a friend that's also a Shroomerite word would get back, but surely not everyone whose died had a friend who was also a member. Nobody I've ever met even knows what the Shroomery is..
Not to be doom and gloom here but is the reality here that if all the "lone wolf RIP's" were accounted for that vet lounge thread would bump up to about 150 pages, in theory?
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Amanita86]
#21927948 - 07/11/15 08:50 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I thought you were stable on Suboxone Crystal? What made you relapse?
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: zZZz] 1
#21928039 - 07/11/15 09:14 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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zZZz said: life is sooooooooooo much better sober anyway
Yes it is. There are times I get really depressed, in the past I would have done a fat shot and felt great again, but that was just my feeble attempt at masking the issues in my life, which in turn just made them worse.
I have been able to work out so many things over the last couple of years of sobriety, it astounds me. I know I would not be able to do such things though without having fell in love with staying healthy. Stay fit gives me a purpose I guess you could say, where before heroin was that purpose, going to get the next fix, being down in the ghetto buying dope was a rush, I was addicted to the lifestyle just as much as the dope.
Don't give in CrystalG, you say you like to work out, so be the best goddamned fit chick this world has ever seen , fuck that garbage which is only going to pollute you and turn your relationships toxic. You're worth it.
Anyway, I wont tell anyone to change their lifestyle because I know J's will only do so when they really want to. I just hope nobody dies along the way, or gets severely hurt. I wish the best for ya Mrs. G.
Keep moving forward.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Lucis] 1
#21928252 - 07/11/15 10:24 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Crystal, you need some serious help. Like, more than serious. Every thread I read from you is either a borderline impossible story that started off with a bad or impulsive decision and it always seems to be fueled with unhealthy amounts of hard drugs.
If all the stories you wrote down throughout the years are true, you have cheated death too many times to keep up the lifestyle you chose. One day you just won't wake up and it'll be over. Another lost soul eaten anyway by drugs.
So what is it? Do you hate yourself? Do you have esteem issues? Unresolved issues from your childhood?
At some point rehab only helps so much, you need to find the cause of your self destructive behavior and come to terms with it. Therapy, psychiatrists, psychologist, find what works for you.
Maybe this lifestyle of yours is 100% voluntary; if so, you have the full right to live like this, but are you happy?
Kudos on working out so much though, I don't know how you can muster the motivation to do that, but that's a healthy habit (if no steroids are included of course). Use that as an anchor and build on it.
Get well soon
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G]
#21928255 - 07/11/15 10:26 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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crystal how come u keep calling ur husband ur bf? did u guys get a divorce but stay together non-maritally
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Patlal] 1
#21928292 - 07/11/15 10:42 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Some of us are just self destructive by nature. I'm the same way. I always find a way to turn a good situation into something bad. I grew up with chaos so its hard to do anything else.
Any time something is going too well i have to fuck it up. I have a lot of regrets over it and I would be a lot better off if i hadn't. But i did it anyway and some bridges cannot be unburned. And all i feel 5 minutes later is regret. Why the fuck did i do that. Some people are just like that.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G]
#21928319 - 07/11/15 10:50 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Caught by who? Also, you are a dumbass. There are a lot of people who can be weekend warriors. You are not one of them. Accept it.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: zappaisgod]
#21928335 - 07/11/15 10:55 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Krazent]
#21928361 - 07/11/15 11:04 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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HuskyHonkey said: Have you tried DXM? I've heard that it helps curb cravings for opiates.
This could work, but it's definitely a bad idea. Could possibly start a new addiction and it's really bad for you in the first place.
It is pretty hard on your liver, but if you only take first or (more preferably) second plateau doses infrequently you should be fine. Now, I may know little about opiate addiction, but DXM is the reason I quit smoking (both cigarettes and weed). It is true that it could start a new addiction, but IME the cravings have never been worse than that of smoking a cig and usually are nonexistent. I don't speak from experience, but I imagine cravings for heroin are a lot more intense than those for a cig.
Please give these a look: Hindawi - DXM Erowid - DXM Bluelight - DXM
@OP: All that being said, the best thing you can do is stay sober. Find a hobby that makes you feel good. Maybe try and help others in need. The long term effects of helping others outweigh the short term effects of any drug, IMO. Stay safe.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: HuskyHonkey]
#21928438 - 07/11/15 11:25 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah, DXM somehow destroyed my craving for cigarettes completely and reduced my interest in drugs in general. You can't really be addicted to DXM because the trips build a lot of tolerance. The 2nd plateau (300-400mg) with cannabis is like the reset button I'd say.
If you do happen to use DXM with cannabis at those doses then it is always best to do it at night in the dark and just lay there and listen to music. I was blown away by my first 450 mg+ cannabis, like I couldn't tell if I was in my body anymore. I was on another planet flying through stuff while having psychedelic headspace.
DXM has a soft spot in my heart but I can't do it anymore, it had its use.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Mr.GuessWork]
#21928831 - 07/11/15 01:07 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G]
#21929080 - 07/11/15 02:22 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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crystal, its quite nice not going balls to the wall all the time. it can be quite relaxing.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G]
#21929091 - 07/11/15 02:25 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Crystal G said: Also whatever happened to Teragon? That guy was a genius chemist. Last I talked to him he was making oxymorphone with a home lab he built together himself. I'm guessing he either got busted or he died.
That guy sounds badass
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G] 1
#21929117 - 07/11/15 02:33 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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You relapsed because of the stress of your parents fighting with you and kicking you out. It's easy to stay sober when everything is going good. The hard part is staying sober when everything is going bad. That's the real trick, learning to not use even when everything in life seems to be going to shit and you feel that you have no reason not to.
I say this because in your first post, you were like "I relapsed for no reason." This isn't the case. You clearly relapsed due to stress involving the fight with your parents and getting kicked out. If you can understand that you relapse when you're under stress/your life is going to shit, then you can start to work on that.
Good luck, and remember: it's also important what you do after a relapse. Get back on that sober train. You're not a bad person, you just have an addiction.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: nooneman]
#21929142 - 07/11/15 02:40 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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nooneman said: You're not a bad person, you just have an addiction.

I wish more addicts realized this.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Acaterpillar]
#21929150 - 07/11/15 02:44 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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nooneman said: You're not a bad person, you just have an addiction.

I wish more addicts realized this.
try to get away from that stuff
if its your *devil* then I wouldn't go near it
My devil is *benzos* I will not have more than 10mg in pill form ever again of any benzo If I do, ill turn into a benzo devil
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G] 1
#21929153 - 07/11/15 02:44 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Burke Dennings said: Did your mom call your dope dealer? That's gotta be embarrassing. 
Anyway, good luck G. Addiction is fucking tough. Been losing people to opes left and right these days. I'd be pretty butthurt if you died for them too. Please be careful.
Man, she surpassed the embarrassing window a long time ago. It's flat out humiliation of the 9th degree.
clearly she hasnt done enough to humiliate you, you keep going back to the shit that has her worried so much, the shit that will possibly land you on the list of departed shroomerites
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: SunnyD]
#21929158 - 07/11/15 02:45 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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No more than 10mg's of any benzo? Certain benzo's will have you blacked out at 5 mg's....
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