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Astral Pain
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It's just so easy to settle the argument you have in your head about not using by getting high. It will always find a way to make sense to use, and instantly solving that battle in your mind. I know the feeling well.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Astral Pain]
#21927249 - 07/11/15 03:06 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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HOLY SHIT I just looked at the RIP thread that contains the list of all the dead shroomerites. I had no idea UncleLuke, Space Cowboy, and RandalFlagg died?!!?!? I've noticed I haven't seen a lot of the veteran members around as much lately.
One of his last posts on here:
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RandalFlagg said: You search for epiphanies. Me too. There is nothing more exhilarating than feeling that boost of endorphins from meeting that new person, being exposed to that new thing, or seeing that new place. It really is awesome. But, these things are rare and unpredictable. They are also not something to base long-term plans upon because usually the inspiration and novelty from them fade. I chased them for years, and while there were achingly beautiful moments of clarity and experience they did not fix the problems in my psyche.
Life and the goals associated with it take discipline and sacrifice. Every day is not going to be fun and sexy. When you don't get positive reinforcement it is easy to fall back into bad habits and self-pity (I, of all people, know this). When people aren't noticing and loving you it is very easy to get down. My vice used to be internet addiction and now my new vice is excessive alcohol abuse. Don't fall into a hole like that. Reality-escaping devices make things easier, but they do not make things better.
I want to be handed an awesome life, but I have come to the conclusion that this does not just happen. You either have the natural ability to reach out and grasp such things or you have to force yourself to do these things. It seems as if, that like me, you are going to have to force things. It is hard, but you can do it. Use something as your motivation; whether it is wanting a better life or wanting to avoid being a lonely and old weird dude. Whatever you do, you need to keep moving. Because when you stop moving you die (physically and emotionally).
Good luck and blessings of happiness and fortune.
Edited by Crystal G (07/11/15 03:23 AM)
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G]
#21927273 - 07/11/15 03:16 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Crystal G said: HOLY SHIT I just looked at the RIP thread that contains the list of all the dead shroomerites. I had no idea UncleLuke, Space Cowboy, and RandalFlagg died?!!?!? I've noticed I haven't seen a lot of the veteran members around as much lately.
One of his last posts on here:
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RandalFlagg said: You search for epiphanies. Me too. There is nothing more exhilarating than feeling that boost of endorphins from meeting that new person, being exposed to that new thing, or seeing that new place. It really is awesome. But, these things are rare and unpredictable. They are also not something to base long-term plans upon because usually the inspiration and novelty from them fade. I chased them for years, and while there were achingly beautiful moments of clarity and experience they did not fix the problems in my psyche.
Life and the goals associated with it take discipline and sacrifice. Every day is not going to be fun and sexy. When you don't get positive reinforcement it is easy to fall back into bad habits and self-pity (I, of all people, know this). When people aren't noticing and loving you it is very easy to get down. My vice used to be internet addiction and now my new vice is excessive alcohol abuse. Don't fall into a hole like that. Reality-escaping devices make things easier, but they do not make things better.
I want to be handed an awesome life, but I have come to the conclusion that this does not just happen. You either have the natural ability to reach out and grasp such things or you have to force yourself to do these things. It seems as if, that like me, you are going to have to force things. It is hard, but you can do it. Use something as your motivation; whether it is wanting a better life or wanting to avoid being a lonely and old weird dude. Whatever you do, you need to keep moving. Because when you stop moving you die (physically and emotionally).
Good luck and blessings of happiness and fortune.
This quote nearly brought me to tears . And thus is the shroomery.
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Astral Pain
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G] 1
#21927277 - 07/11/15 03:17 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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His last post was spot on.
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Enjoywho
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MilkdudTitties said: Enjoywho is right. Moving to a new area and creating new habits is the best way to stop. When you can't even cop, you have to stop anyways
Find a reason as to why you should stop. I bet you don't even enjoy it all that much anymore, its just like what you do now. What is the point in trying to constantly get a drug that just leaves you feeling shitty a few hours after.
When I was down deep, H only made me feel normal. And once it starting wearing off, paranoia, dread and anxiety about how to get my next dose would set in. My only emotions were anger and apathy.
Weed really helped me be able to see outside of the blanketing, warm hellish prison that I had retreated to inside my mind while using dope.
It was the fact i didnt really know anybody. I still dont know where to get it. The couple times ive done it it was completely random and i never asked for a number as i know i would be calling. The next day.
I just started drinking can buy 2$ steel reserves at any corner store. Which in Alaska beer is only sold at liqour stores.
That being said alcohol wds are 100x worse than heroin imo.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: HuskyHonkey]
#21927353 - 07/11/15 03:57 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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HuskyHonkey said: Have you tried DXM? I've heard that it helps curb cravings for opiates.
This could work, but it's definitely a bad idea. Could possibly start a new addiction and it's really bad for you in the first place.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Krazent] 1
#21927365 - 07/11/15 04:04 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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There is an insatiable thirst in all of us. Learn to calm your mind and observe yourself without reaction. Eventually the inner workings of your psyche will begin to reveal themselves.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Krazent]
#21927377 - 07/11/15 04:10 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Get on methadone. It sucks, but not nearly as much as a real dope habit. I'm finally able to function and be responsible. If you're serious about it and make drastic lifestyle changes, it can not only save your life, but give you a comfortable life that's worth living. Maybe give sobriety another shot once you build your life into something that's worth living for. Maybe not, who really cares. It's not about being clean and sober right now, it's about staying alive. We have a disease that increases our mortality 50 to 100 times that of the normal population. Opiates can be attributed to 4 out of 5 drug related deaths. Keep going for treatment has at best a 10 percent success rate, or join me on mmt that's associated with success rates from 60 to 90 percent and increase your quality of life.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Crystal G]
#21927394 - 07/11/15 04:18 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I can't believe I read all of that... Anyway OP, shit sounds like you're living with your parents and what not.. I think it's a good idea for you to take some DXM and smoke weed everyday instead. Dying young is retarded but you do you.
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Krazent
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Hayoxp] 1
#21927407 - 07/11/15 04:25 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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That's one of the worst ideas i've ever heard man... DXM is not good, it may feel like your safe when you're on it, but it really isn't.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Hayoxp]
#21927408 - 07/11/15 04:27 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Hayoxp said: Dying young is retarded but you do you. 
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Hayoxp said: I think it's a good idea for you to take some DXM and smoke weed everyday instead.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Krazent]
#21927411 - 07/11/15 04:31 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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If I was back in the Northeast, I would just get off subs and smoke PCP every day until the pain went away like I did before.
Edited by Crystal G (07/11/15 04:48 AM)
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Hayoxp
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Krazent]
#21927422 - 07/11/15 04:38 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Okay then she should just vape weed. Those drugs sound so bum, like come on. If you're gonna be addicted to something then be addicted to pure cocaine. I'm talking about that beautiful soft pyramid of greatness. A quick sniff and you're fucked up, wondering why coke just gave you a visual of a unicorn dancing on the rainbow. Yeah.. ANYWAY, OP, stop doing drugs and be a good kid.
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Hayoxp]
#21927443 - 07/11/15 04:54 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Hayoxp] 2
#21927481 - 07/11/15 05:20 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Get on methadone. It sucks, but not nearly as much as a real dope habit. I'm finally able to function and be responsible. If you're serious about it and make drastic lifestyle changes, it can not only save your life, but give you a comfortable life that's worth living. Maybe give sobriety another shot once you build your life into something that's worth living for. Maybe not, who really cares. It's not about being clean and sober right now, it's about staying alive. We have a disease that increases our mortality 50 to 100 times that of the normal population. Opiates can be attributed to 4 out of 5 drug related deaths. Keep going for treatment has at best a 10 percent success rate, or join me on mmt that's associated with success rates from 60 to 90 percent and increase your quality of life.Quote:
Hayoxp said: Okay then she should just vape weed. Those drugs sound so bum, like come on. If you're gonna be addicted to something then be addicted to pure cocaine. I'm talking about that beautiful soft pyramid of greatness. A quick sniff and you're fucked up, wondering why coke just gave you a visual of a unicorn dancing on the rainbow. Yeah.. ANYWAY, OP, stop doing drugs and be a good kid.

You're rather dense aren't you?
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Krazent
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Hayoxp]
#21927486 - 07/11/15 05:24 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Do you take nbome's often? lol
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Hayoxp
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Krazent]
#21927488 - 07/11/15 05:25 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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No, never heard of anything like that before.. Nbome??
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Rustifer
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Hayoxp]
#21927491 - 07/11/15 05:27 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Wonder why my phone made me double post like that. Way too lazy to edit.
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Krazent
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Hayoxp] 1
#21927494 - 07/11/15 05:29 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Why's it so hard for you just to have an intellectual conversation
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Re: I Got Caught Doing Dope Again [Re: Krazent]
#21927496 - 07/11/15 05:30 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Now he changes his title...?
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