Okay just gonna be straight up never posted on here, but I got a hell of a story, haven't slept in eehh 30 hours. Never thought that this would happen to me ever in a millions years, if it is what I think it is... Pretty new to acid, 2nd time taking it with Guy 1, Guy 2, first time taking it with the Guy 3(ex-friend).
Place: Guy 1's lake house(trailer), has outside roofed patio with walls(most of our trip was here, lots of windows with blinds), was stormy, rainy, very humid, not thundering, gray outside little bright still
We dropped acid at 4PM, about 2 hours later Guy 2 says hes like pretty much feeling his peak right now seeing fractals not really able to respond but like he could let us know he was okay and we all knew he is or would be okay, and he was a few hours later, thats when Guy 3 was not seeming right AT ALL.
We were sitting watching spongebob having a good time then I think we sat around the table and smoked a joint, all are here at this point. Joint was done, 3rd guy was I believe sitting on the floor and I could hear,"this guy was pathetic" "this guy was this, and that" talking 3rd person, putting himself down for no reason. We were just like okay, maybe hes just really tripping or somehting, hes always been a weird guy, awkward. He shot up quickly and was walking around a bit and said he was glad we were tripping so we could talk, sat down in a chair and just pronounced,"I'm gay." Okay whatever I wouldn't care if my friend was gay do whatever you feel is right. But, it just kept going darker.... next it was "I'm the pedophile...." "I'm the pervert..." Uh okay... what? Saying "I can see it," see what infinity? "... So there is a god!" which we know for a fact he doesn't believe in that. Just cut up sentences almost 100% incomprehensible come in for 2-5 sec go away in and out a lot almost like changing each time. I kinda kept putting connections in my braind like what... sounds like Donnie Darko shit or something.
The 3 of us just kept shooting each other glances like what were no where near where he was... We tried to calm him and like get him in bed or lie down he he just said,"No, that doesn't sound fun." "Fun?" what? I believe after that he just exlaimed,"So we can just fuck all the time!" "We can fuck whoever we want!" What??? WTF are you talking about dude thats not anyone we know. "We need to get into a room together so we can fuck." At that point I was looking at my eyes in the mirror tripping out then I heard, from Guy 2, say "GUY 3 WHAT ARE YOU SAYING YOURE FREAKING US THE FUCK OUT."
At that point I was like okay I need to get in there, then it just got worse(Lost a fucking lense, took my glasses off, at this point, what goddamn timing...). He was calling Guy 1 his dad, he was dad to him. I was dog to him, which he had a dog he fucking loved to death put down without him being there, ~5 months ago. Guy 2 was "the most beautiful womans hes ever seen." and "hes mom" We kept telling him like dude do you know where you are, Who are we, or are you? And he'd just kinda breathe and not answer the question just say whatever part of the loop he was in. He didn't know where he was, almost like what he was. Guy 2 told us he felt like Guy 3 could, or would want to hurt us. Then he started to aproach him up the stairs and he was freakin out slammed the door in his face. Then Guy 3 walked down and sat into the chair, I could see in his face he seemed confused as to why that happened. So it was me and Guy 1 with him like trying to talk to him like get something, anything, he would sometimes repeat what we would say, never really answer us. My Guy 1 said "Guy 3... do you want to hurt us...?" and he just kind of scoffed and chuckled, then he asked "3rd guy should be afraid for our lives?" (something close to that)....... He responded,"You should be." and just gave the most wicked grin I've seen. I fucking split I felt like I was next to death I turned opened the screen door turned the corner left and as I was running past a nearby tree I yell in a voice of death it did not sound like my own "I can see my life flash before my eyes." I could see a white bright star in my mind slowly expanding and I TRUELY thought I was going to die. I run through a wet marshy field of tall grass up to waist possibly higher, it was the worst possible place I could think of dying I just wanted to survive lol I almost got lost, I was waving my hands trying to get some kind of help I felt SO helpless at that point in time
But I collected myself and went back because I couldn't just run thats not usually me, but I guess that me when my life feels threatened. So i slink back slower than last time trying to somehow look normal pants soaked shirt soaked, I open the screen door to see whats going on and I see 3rd guy naked staring at the stairs I didn't recognize him at this point, it didn't feel like the guy we know. So we called Guy 2's mom shes a psychiatrist that'll help , we waited probly an hour in the house, then split left him in there we didn't know what he was capable of...we eventually got his dad to come down... We fucking slpit he was upsetting us so much it felt so unreal inside the house looking out at that thing. We got about 5 miles away to a gas station waited there in a complete panic and just like wtf is going on. Waiting waiting waiting, his dads getting close then we get a call from Guy 3... uh none of us want to pick it up and hear his voice, calls 8 times JUST wants to know if Guy 2 is okay and only him. So we were like yeah were good go home well explain it later, and he wanted and explaination and i didn't give it to him.
Watching that happen, if it was psychotic or just a fucking crazy trip, I don't want to go through that I don't want to see anyone go through that or anyone to experience that. Took us that to really realize not to fuck with hallucinogens theyll get you, sneak up on ya. We all agreed never to take anything but smoke weed and probably drink. I have no idea about Guy 3 he made us so terrified I don't think wed see him the same ever again. Guess its not for me, probably any of us now. Looking back on it now we all made mistakes, Guy 3 didn't know what to expect, doesn't remember ANYTHING he did. Guy 2 had a weird quick trip out. Just... absolutely nothing like our friend we pretty much just told each other "our friend died tonight." It seems pretty shitty to just cut him from our group , hes been friends with guy 2 for ~14 years, but what he made us feel while we were 4-5 hours in I couldn't face that sober or not like I can't none of us can. Maybe he was gay and couldn't accept it? I just can't figure it out was almost gross to see. And on top of that, we allowed Guy 3 live in our apartment thinking he'd pay rent, but we never saw a dime. He was still our friend Guy 1's parents wanted him out within 2 weeks if he didn't have money, but we gave him 2 months, but somehow it became 6 months. Looking at him now in a different light, all he does is use and have almost no remorse for anything, not afraid to ask for anything that wasn't his.
Sorry if its long post just wow... been reading some shit like this and I can't tell at all.
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