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skitsofrantik75
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i need somone to listen
#21912759 - 07/07/15 11:58 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Listen guys Im mmarriedto a great woman and have a child that I love more than anything in this world. I'm currently seeking disability from a car wreck that further included a spinal fusion. I have a lot of pain and am prescribed meds for said pain. I have been seeking disability for 4 years and it seems like this is never going to end. My wife has supported me in every way conceivable. My little boy loves me with all of heart he is 9 and I have been married 15 years but we dated for a year and a half before the marriage. She is a christian and holds tightly to the christian standard, me I've strayed from the path, I used to have a rock solid unshakeable faith, then I had to quit work due to the pain level I was experiencing. 15 years of hard physical labor will finally take its toll. So now I don't hold the christian belief so close. Anyway...I've had it. I tried the right way for close to 20 years now and got dick to show for it. I'm thinking of just going back tto the way I lived before, which was partying and drugs primarily MJ. truly that's all I want is a doob here and there, but my wife thinks I can't handle Just a doob here and there. Now for the rub of the whole thing, I love my life, my wife, and certainly most of all my little boy, so why do i feel so determined to have the life that she thinks will only lead to my self a destruction and in her own words she won't be there for it? Her I could make it without, but not my little boy, if she took him away from me I would self-destruct, so why do I want it so bad. I don't want beer, hardcore illicit drugs, Ijust want to smoke a llittle doob here and there to take the edge off life. Can anyone help me with this. Personally I see the good in marijuana, all my wife sees is a gateway drug that will eventually lead to my self-destruction. In my 20's yes it would have. But I'm much older now and have so much more going for me than I had then. I wouldn't let it me get to me this time around, I have to much to live for. I just don't know what to do. I really don't want anyone to psychoanalyze me I have a psychiatrist for that I just want someone to listen and possibly give me some real world advice.
Any who thanks for listening I know it was a long post.
Skitso
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jsncrs
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Watch a documentary called "The culture high" together. Impossible to be anti-marijuana after watching.
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skitsofrantik75
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Re: i need somone to listen [Re: jsncrs]
#21912925 - 07/08/15 12:37 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Hmm that's not a bad idea.
Thanks
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gcs
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Well, I think whatever you do it's important that it shines some positivity onto your wife. Maybe take cannabis in a different light? Suppose you both associate it now with partying and all that, and the hedonistic self-indulgence part of that is what your wife is mostly opposed to. Perhaps you could use it in a different way, only once a week as an experience to share with your wife?
If you can use cannabis in a way where you're both on the same page, and you both have something positive to think about (each other), and your goal is to strengthen the relationship you have, then you have everything to gain from using it. You need that willpower though.
I think before you do any of that, though, you need to ask yourself, honestly, whether you would prefer to be with your wife or use cannabis.
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drugs are not the answer. maybe to help manage pain but that is all. if i had to live in chronic pain id kill myself, but i dont have a kid so you're kinda stuck. sorry man.
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skitsofrantik75
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Re: i need somone to listen [Re: sprinkles]
#21914245 - 07/08/15 09:56 AM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I have no interest in killing myself. I live in chronic pain that is my reality. I have a spinal fusion from L2-L4 with osteoarthritis to boot. I don't have depression, I suffer from anxiety. I have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. So I guess I'm stuck as you say.
@gcsi don't think there is a positive way for her to view cannabis in. She is one of those that even though caffeine is a drug she drink soda, even though chocolate is a drug when she wants chocolate she gets it, when she has a headache she reaches for the aspirin. I've been on narcotic painkillers and benzos for my nerves for the last two years and they haven't taken me over, but i guess that don't count for anything. And I think cannabis could take care of both problems. I really do love my family and want to be with them, and I love my wife but I think she needs some enlightenment.
Thanks for the ideas and keep em coming Skitso
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Your wife thinks you can't handle a joint now and then? Why do you tolerate such disrespect? Tell her she can't handle herps and spices and flush all the herbs in the kitchen. Then tell her to make you a sandwich. You don't need those fucking herbs for that.
Maybe then, once you demonstrate that your balls are good for more than producing little sperm blossoms of joy, she will learn to respect you again. Or she might just leave. Either way... A court isn't gonna take your kid for flushing culinary spices and telling your wife to make you a sandwich. Seriously, in some states it's grounds for divorce if she refuses!
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Lucis
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Genesis 1:29 bro, tell your old lady about that and ask her to explain.
This Rasta told me about several verses in the Bible which back up use of herb, I think all Christians should know these verses.
Peace
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skitsofrantik75
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Re: i need somone to listen [Re: Lucis]
#21939533 - 07/13/15 09:54 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I knew about genesis 1:12 genesis 1:29 I hadn't paid as much attention to. Anyway I'm sorry to report its a lost cause, she's caught up in the whole legality of it all. Maybe it'll be legal here before long and then when it becomes legal I'll be hell on wheels lol
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jsncrs
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Does she understand that the only reason it's illegal is political corruption?
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m4dScientist
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hey dude.
you said your wife is a great woman, and you love her, but how much do you actually love this woman if youre actually considering losing her over a couple of joints here n there?????? this is just my opinion, but "smoking a little doob here and there to take the edge off of life" never works. the edge of life will always be there. and that's how things always progress, not doing something because you genuinely enjoy it, but because youre trying to escape something instead.
I don't know, if a couple joints are that important to you, I would say follow your heart. but it seems like the potential problems it could cause really aren't worth it in the end. in my opinion, it seems like if you can fix the OTHER issues youre experiencing, the allure of smoking weed will probably wear off.
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You have to draw the line somewhere. She can't control your life for you.
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Edibles my friend. Whats the harm of injesting marijuana food? You arent smoking it so it seems less like a drug. Just imo, maybe if you arent smoking it and are eating it, it will seem more medicinal.
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skitsofrantik75
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Back up a second I never said I was going to or even thinking about leaving my wife for her beliefs Who said I don't genuinely enjoy cannabis. What I said is a joint here and there to take the edge off, that was not meant to be read as I would just be doing it for the sake of doing it. I firmly believe in cannabis and everything that it is men at to help guess what anxiety is one of the things its used for. My aunt used it when she was in the final stages of lung cancer. I was made to feel by her that she thought ccouldn't control it, and when I said a doob or two here and there to take the edge off I was meaning I wouldn't let it control me. No one can judge how much I love my wife except me. Before someone else calls the morality police let me say that no one knows what I've been through in my life. You make a valid point that the edge will always be there sure I can accept that, but until you have walked the road I'm walking now don't judge me. In all fairness I truly value everyone's input if I didn't I wouldn't have come here asking for it. And in all fairness to my wife she has opened up a bit on the matter, its not a open and shut case anymore. I appreciate you taking the time to write out your thought on the matter, but I truly believe more was read into than what I wrote it was a simple misunderstaning . cannabis has so many uses, chronic pain, depression, anxiety, cancer just to name a few and I believe in it with my whole heart, but no I'm not considering leaving my wife for it. I just don't see it as the ultimate evil she was brought up to believe it is. Sometimes I do feel like I'm self destructive, but now I'm 40 and I have sooo much more going for me than Ihad in my 20's, and that alone mmakes me know I can control it.
Please excuse my typing these android tablet keyboards suck.
Thanks again for everyone's input and i want to hear more of it so keep it coming.
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