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SleepyE
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Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much
#21901264 - 07/05/15 02:19 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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hey guys, i really need to vent to anything really, sorry to whine and stuff but it seems that events in my life have led me into a rough spot where im unfortunately forced into isolated from society, Im rarely with my friends who make me feel part of a community or make me feel loved and accepted.
I just want to know how i can ease this constant distress since i cant really fix my circumstance at this time. Ive had a lot of experience with social isolation but i havent started to really feel the burn until now
Being around friends who make me feel welcome centers me in reality and positivity and since i dont have access to that in this dark period of my life im forced against my will to spend unhealthy amounts of time by my self which is horrible for me because i suffer from delusions that i have to constantly remind and enforce that its not real.
The only thing keeping me relativity functional is working on art (advancing my skills in digital painting/drawing.) and as i mentioned before weight training.
Its pretty much the only hope i have in fixing my isolation, If i can advance my skill set enough then just maybe that will be my ticket out of what i feel is a prison, or a life sentence in solitary confinement, holy fuck i now know why solitary is used as a torture technique, shit really fucking works unfortunately. i notice when i make good art people actually are aware i exist and its a refreshing feeling to be honest thats why i feel i might find a community where i dont feel like a stranger if i can improve my stuff.
I just wish constant intrusive thoughts of inadequacy and eternal loneliness wasn't so bombarding, it would make it much easer to work without the constant weeping.
Like i have the constant thought that my youth is just being melted away as im confined to 4 walls for the majority of my life.
I really want a way out, and i dont really want to kill myself either so i think art is the only small chance i have to free me from prison.
Thanks for you time.
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: SleepyE]
#21901279 - 07/05/15 02:23 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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join a weekly league man. quick easy way to meet people.
billiards, bowling, something man.
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SleepyE
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: rackem]
#21901303 - 07/05/15 02:28 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Id feel better if i was with people i felt at home with, its quite difficult for me to cultivate that with strangers in a scene im not familiar with, But i appreciate the suggestion, Id have to think of some group or club that id feel id get along with.
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: rackem]
#21901315 - 07/05/15 02:31 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I've been isolated the past 4+ years and I doubt it will change. Honestly, I don't really mind, I prefer being alone and doing my own thing for the most part. Don't really have much advice other than do something to get out and be more social. You say you deal with delusions; what exactly are you talking about?
Also if you wanna chat and shoot the shit or anything send me a pm.
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: SleepyE]
#21901316 - 07/05/15 02:32 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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search the meetups in your area.. if you like it chances are there is a league/group of people meeting up to discuss share ideas about that doesnt involve the internet.
i assure you, if you put just an inkling of effort into it you will find something.. and hell, even if you dont like what you chose you can always find somethign else.
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SleepyE
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: luvdemboomers]
#21901338 - 07/05/15 02:36 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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delusions is putting it lightly, i have about 2 years of my life where its just a complete blur of confusing events.
I have decided to completely erase it from my memory for good and try to go on with my life like nothing happened, i really dont even want to bring any of it up.
its unhealthy for me to think about it because i just to figure out what it means and it really has no meaning.
I have no explanation for what happened to me but the delusions are pretty much just thinking about it at all. I have to train myself not to get sucked into the delusions.
Ive built a philosophy that everything is meaningless and useless from this reality so that i can keep myself sane. I suppose i dont 100% agree with that but i feel its the healthiest position i can have on the matter and just leave it at that.
The philosophy that everything is bullshit now works for me best
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: SleepyE]
#21901351 - 07/05/15 02:40 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
SleepyE said: hey guys, i really need to vent to anything really, sorry to whine and stuff but it seems that events in my life have led me into a rough spot where im unfortunately forced into isolated from society, Im rarely with my friends who make me feel part of a community or make me feel loved and accepted.
I just want to know how i can ease this constant distress since i cant really fix my circumstance at this time. Ive had a lot of experience with social isolation but i havent started to really feel the burn until now
Being around friends who make me feel welcome centers me in reality and positivity and since i dont have access to that in this dark period of my life im forced against my will to spend unhealthy amounts of time by my self which is horrible for me because i suffer from delusions that i have to constantly remind and enforce that its not real.
The only thing keeping me relativity functional is working on art (advancing my skills in digital painting/drawing.) and as i mentioned before weight training.
Its pretty much the only hope i have in fixing my isolation, If i can advance my skill set enough then just maybe that will be my ticket out of what i feel is a prison, or a life sentence in solitary confinement, holy fuck i now know why solitary is used as a torture technique, shit really fucking works unfortunately. i notice when i make good art people actually are aware i exist and its a refreshing feeling to be honest thats why i feel i might find a community where i dont feel like a stranger if i can improve my stuff.
I just wish constant intrusive thoughts of inadequacy and eternal loneliness wasn't so bombarding, it would make it much easer to work without the constant weeping.
Like i have the constant thought that my youth is just being melted away as im confined to 4 walls for the majority of my life.
I really want a way out, and i dont really want to kill myself either so i think art is the only small chance i have to free me from prison.
Thanks for you time.
Same.
Be true to yourself. Be honest.
Nice, I want to get into art. Didn't do it the past 15 years, fuck it it's time to start living 
What program do you use? I really want to start drawing with a pad. I'm using manga university at the moment 
Find people with likewise situations, meet up with them. Get on social media and actively look for things which interest you (mine being game development, programming, ICT, ...) Then meet with people you find on there.
Share your art on somewhere! Where can I follow ?
Start slacklining!
I just join forums for all things i'm interested in. I've met the coolest people this way.
Going out and get FUBAR'd helps but i'm going sober so yeah :shrugs: .
All in all I don't really mind being alone so i'm sorry. I do get lonely sometimes aswell.
Edited by Beanhead (07/05/15 02:41 PM)
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MilkdudTitties
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: Beanhead] 1
#21901439 - 07/05/15 02:56 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Get used to being alone. Even when you are with others, its still just you inside your mind.
Learn to love what you hate
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Nitrous Monkey
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: MilkdudTitties]
#21901520 - 07/05/15 03:16 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I've been isolating myself more and more lately. I used to be depressed about it but now I don't care. I quit hanging out with all of my friends and haven't heard from them in over a year. Though they became douchebags so that's all good. I figure eventually I'll become social maybe after going and getting my head examined just to see how fucked up I am. I could have friends if I wanted them I guess, but I dont actively seek friendship. I'm better off alone.
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: Nitrous Monkey]
#21901568 - 07/05/15 03:31 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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im isolated but i have me best friend heroin to comfort me. Needy as she be, takes all the pain away and will be your friend for life.
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SleepyE
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: kakashi68]
#21901744 - 07/05/15 04:14 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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i dont like being alone though
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: Beanhead]
#21901761 - 07/05/15 04:17 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Same.
Be true to yourself. Be honest.
Nice, I want to get into art. Didn't do it the past 15 years, fuck it it's time to start living 
What program do you use? I really want to start drawing with a pad. I'm using manga university at the moment 
Find people with likewise situations, meet up with them. Get on social media and actively look for things which interest you (mine being game development, programming, ICT, ...) Then meet with people you find on there.
Share your art on somewhere! Where can I follow ?
Start slacklining!
I just join forums for all things i'm interested in. I've met the coolest people this way.
Going out and get FUBAR'd helps but i'm going sober so yeah :shrugs: .
All in all I don't really mind being alone so i'm sorry. I do get lonely sometimes aswell.
Thanks for the message dude, ive been using photoshop, i just started with it so im pretty newb at the tools and effects i can make but il take advantage of this loneliness and try to work on it as much as i can.
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: SleepyE]
#21901785 - 07/05/15 04:23 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Why don't you like being alone though?
Do you even know?
Have you even thought about it before?
When i really started to think about questions like this, i realized that what i was trying to get from others, i should have been getting from myself
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SleepyE
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: kakashi68]
#21901794 - 07/05/15 04:25 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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kakashi68 said: im isolated but i have me best friend heroin to comfort me. Needy as she be, takes all the pain away and will be your friend for life.
only thing i do is smoke weed, helps relieve the intensive anxiety i always feel, but sometimes it makes it worse if i get too high so i just smoke a little to keep my appetite and mood okay.
I dont use anything else and probably wont for a long time, weed might even be something i should get rid of if i can make due without it.
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SleepyE
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: MilkdudTitties]
#21901805 - 07/05/15 04:27 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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MilkdudTitties said: Why don't you like being alone though?
Do you even know?
Have you even thought about it before?
When i really started to think about questions like this, i realized that what i was trying to get from others, i should have been getting from myself
people need social interactions and friends otherwise they go insane, its just how we are built.
i want to stay sane but it seems luck(if there is even such a thing) has decided i dont deserve that luxury at this point and i guess i deserve that fate.
when im around friends the intrusive thoughts are less overwhelming.
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Edited by SleepyE (07/05/15 04:28 PM)
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: SleepyE] 1
#21901885 - 07/05/15 04:48 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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SleepyE said: people need social interactions and friends otherwise they go insane, its just how we are built.
ordinary men hate loneliness but the master makes use of it for he knows that he is alone with the entire universe
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: SleepyE] 1
#21901887 - 07/05/15 04:49 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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Have you ever practiced meditation and yoga? These 2 practices can change your life drastically. Once you realize that your thought habits control you, then you will think healthy habits, such as "This is truly extraordinary" or simply "Beautiful" instead of a negative response to a matter. In your case, I would start by noticing how beautiful in your solitary life is. Whether it's a butterfly flying, how you feel after yoga, or after you create a piece. Your art is truly very outstanding! If you ever get the chance, trip with a "spiritual" or conscious mindset, this has done wonders in improving my life. I hope this information helps you in some way, peace
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: ConsciousBird]
#21901897 - 07/05/15 04:52 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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i'm the same way then i fall asleep
i wake up and feel better
sometimes not but probably mostly when im sick
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Konyap

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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: Konyap]
#21901899 - 07/05/15 04:54 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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I feel like now since im 26 i have to be with a girl or they won't even pick up the phone
which is hard since i haven't dated since i was like 19...
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Re: Why does social isolation have to hurt so fucking much [Re: SleepyE] 1
#21901901 - 07/05/15 04:54 PM (8 years, 6 months ago) |
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People may need social interaction, but they also need alone time as well.
There is nothing wrong with being alone or isolated, its how you handle it that matters.
You can choose to view it negatively, or you can use it for something positive, the choice is yours
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