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So heres my dream "history"
As a kid I would have tons of really wild dreams. None that I remember based off life - other than seeing my little brother as a giant twoheaded fourarmed ripped dude in a coyboy hat who assulted me in the dream AND as I woke up and slightly after. So that "real" dream was hardly real, just had to do with some real life inferiority concerns (worries that my little brother would surpass me)
In high school, not only did I start smoking weed but my dreams started to go away/become more "real." Mostly I just couldnt remember them.
Right now I'm 2 years out of HS. Around the end of HS I started to dream more - but still not often and still couldnt really remember dreams. More recently, I started having crazy dreams again. I then tripped SUPER hard - and for a while after that I think I only dreamed about real life issues for a while. I would get close to lucid too
Now, out of no where, every night I'm having dreams about girls. Girls I don't know, in many different situations. It SEEMS that I'm "dating" all these girls in my dreams, maybe a few get explicitly sexual (fingering at the most) but theres always the "love" feeling
This relationship thing and my dream history have been concerning me. They've been going off in direction opposite to where I'm trying to get them. The concerns started when I started having dreams about real life again - when I got a peek of amazing fantasy dreams and then all of a sudden back to reality.
Before I started having these dreams about girls though, I had this one dream where I was sledding on the highway. I just knew that the sled would make it up every hill, and would keep up with the cars. I was driving a sled on the highwas and it was HILARIOUS!
I went down this creepy path on the side of a hill, and this giant brown spiderish thing with round furry balls at the end of each leg (which it had like 5 of) climbed up a tree in a fucking creepy way - but I was far enough away and I woke up.
My GOAL is to 1. Bring my dreams to fantasy 2. Get over the edge of lucididy - going past stupidly saying "am i dreaming" within a dream and forgetting. (I can see in mirrors, read, tell time, count my finger, reread stuff, etc. Most dream signs don't apply to me) 3. Become lucid while sober and awake 4. Growing further in spirituality
Can anyone help me get over this phase of dreaming? I'm in an empty town where I have a shitty reputation - I'm not going to find a relationship here. I might where I go to college (cuz i'm dorming this year) but theres no point in me worrying about it until then
How can I get back on track?
TLDR: My dreams went away -> came back with realism -> came back MORE and became fantasy -> Cold switch back to pure reality dreams -> Sledding on the Highway dream -> week of dreams about realtionships
How can I get back to fantasy dreams?
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