I've had this stuff sitting around for years, but all the reviews on it say it sucks, so I've never actually tried it. I decided to try a super small dose just because I was curious. I was especially curious because stimulants have effects at doses as low as this. I've wondered for a while what empathogens would be like at these doses.
t+0:20: Feel something happening. Body feels slightly off, touch slightly weird.
t+0:40: Touch is still slightly off, lights and colors are brighter, I have better vision in the dark. I start to feel stoned, though. My mind is hazy. I also begin to feel sleepy. This is supposed to be stimulating, but it's having the opposite effect.
t+1:00: This is almost entirely mental. It is almost as good for social anxiety as a benzo. In a social situation, I find myself with almost zero anxiety. Not as good as a benzo, but close. Colors are more colorful, lights are brighter, but there is no feeling of euphoria/etc. I am still very sleepy and getting more sleepy all the time. Everything feels hazy. I have little desire to be mean to people, but my mind is lazy enough that I have little desire to do much of anything. I watch some porn because I'm curious about the effects there. It's hard to get it up, but easy to reach orgasm.
t+1:20: I am so sleepy that I resort to taking a stimulant to keep awake. Probably not the best combo, but otherwise I would lay down in bed and pass out. I play a competitive online game. At first, I have little desire to play because it is competitive and violent. This for some reason seems unusually unattractive to me, but I continue to play anyway. My play is enhanced as if on a stimulant, but the stimulant has yet to kick in.
t+2:00: The stimulant kicks in, and most of the subtle effects are overwhelmed by the stimulant. My ability in game decreases even though it should be increasing because I've taken a stimulant. I still feel stoned, and have a hard time thinking. Colors are still enhanced, but there is no euphoria. My emotions are flat. I have little desire to do much of anything despite the stimulant. Touch feels weird/different but not good, just different. Social situations are still affected as if I'd taken a benzo. I wouldn't feel comfortable holding a conversation though because my mind is so hazy. Despite the stimulant, I am still sleepy.
t+2:15: I write this report. Yeah, I'm still in the middle of things, but I wanted to write it so here I am.
Overall, at this dose there are effects, but they're almost entirely mental. Social situations bring out the most noticeable effects. Not only is there very little to no anxiety, but things that would normally provoke emotions just don't. Again, it is as if I'd taken a benzo. Not quite that strong, but close.
I dislike how hazy my mind is, though. I feel stoned. It was not expected, and I don't like it much. I'm also still sleepy despite taking a stimulant, which is just odd. This stuff is supposed to be stimulating on its own. Apparently not at this dose.
I'm somewhat surprised that this dose has effects at all, but it makes sense given the similarity between stimulants and empathogens. This would be a good dose for someone with social anxiety, but it's so stoning that I don't care to repeat the experience. There is no euphoria or other good feelings. Emotionally, I feel a bit numb, on the happy side of numb, but numb none the less. I have trouble recalling memories, and major trouble giving a fuck about anything. I am strangely comfortable, but not amazingly so.
It would be interesting to try a strong empathogen like MDMA or 6-APB at this dose, but I have no desire to try ethylone again at any dose.
Edit: Update, I've had several social interactions in the last few hours (still under the influence), and all have gone better than normal. I'm more confident, I feel more connected to myself and the other person, I feel more friendly and better able to communicate. This is unexpected because my mind is still a little foggy, but never the less my social interaction is definitely seriously improved.
Edited by nooneman (06/25/15 08:32 PM)
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