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What did you do when you lost your parents 1
#21848894 - 06/24/15 03:28 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I was reading some really heart felt posts on the shroomery about loosing loved ones and I'm so close to my mother I feel that when she passes I'm just going to fucking loose it. She's always been the voice of love and reason for me and I have no idea what I would do without her.
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Rebelutionsssss]
#21848899 - 06/24/15 03:33 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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At the rate I'm going they'll probably be the ones that see me go. I'm sure whoever knows me will handle it fine..
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Rebelutionsssss] 1
#21848901 - 06/24/15 03:34 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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its tough man...but one day its going to happen. hopefully not anytime soon! you just have to give it time and it gets better. but yeah its no bueno for sure. one positive of family members dying is that it brings the rest of the family closer together though.
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Soulidarity]
#21848906 - 06/24/15 03:40 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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You keep living your life the way you should. You mourn their passing but keep going on. I know they are proud of me and that helped me to move forward.
You can't prepare yourself for those kinds of losses, you think you can but you can't.
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Citizen X] 1
#21848910 - 06/24/15 03:47 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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yeah like my dad went slowly which was lame. but when I knew he was dying I cried a lot. but after that I kind of got passed it and focused on looking after him and just doing what needed to be done.
but its scary how final death is. like in an instant theyre just gone and it doesn't feel real. like you wake up thinking it was all a dream and they'll be home soon : /
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Citizen X]
#21848913 - 06/24/15 03:51 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Citizen X said: You keep living your life the way you should. You mourn their passing but keep going on.
I dont think that's how it's going to work..
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Amanita86]
#21848920 - 06/24/15 04:02 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I can only speak for myself, that's what helped me..
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Citizen X]
#21848922 - 06/24/15 04:09 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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yeah I did the same. I mean you cant just shut down. life goes on and you gotta keep on keeping on. the distraction helps too
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Soulidarity]
#21848924 - 06/24/15 04:11 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I'm a little less stable than that. I tend to get angry.
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Amanita86]
#21848929 - 06/24/15 04:16 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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ehh im stable like a twolegged chair but I bottle up my rage. I gotta stop doing that though because im perma aggressive now ;/
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Soulidarity]
#21848936 - 06/24/15 04:27 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Yea I imagine when my grandma goes I'll probably give my condolences to everyone, go by the liquor store, get in my car drive down town and try to get jumped.. "therapy".
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Amanita86]
#21848946 - 06/24/15 04:38 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Great thread, OP, and something I think and struggle with on a weekly basis. I'm convinced I'm bipolar, just skewed like 99/1 manic to depressed. But that 1% always manifests itself in the form of some extremely sorrowful woes that come on - in an instant - and are gone a minute later. Just soul-crushing sorrow at the thought of not having that standing beacon of light in your life (parent X, parent Y, or both)
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: memes]
#21848964 - 06/24/15 04:58 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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My mothers liver enzymes are 3 times the normal and I'm starting to worry about her. As much as I want to help I cant. She's always been the one person I can turn too and without her I have no one. I gone down paths of self destruction but she's always been there to get me out of it. Really worried about this
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Rebelutionsssss]
#21848983 - 06/24/15 05:12 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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i am reminded sometimes how achingly beautiful and yet how rotten feeling life can be sometimes...actually more than sometimes...most of the time.
this thread is sorta a subject that comes up for me too from time to time, OP.
i honestly have no idea how i will handle the loss of my mom or dad. the memories and thoughts of them sometimes saddens me, and sometimes inspire me, even now, while they are still alive. when they are gone, i presume that those thoughts and memories will hit me ten fold.
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: akira_akuma]
#21849017 - 06/24/15 05:30 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I get panic attacks at night sometimes, there's only a few of us left and Im the youngest. The few that are still around are scattered all over the country. It's a cold feeling when you're walking around in this world alone... If I could just have one more phone call or back porch dinner you know.. I took that shit hella for granted..
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Amanita86]
#21849038 - 06/24/15 05:40 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Amanita86 said: I get panic attacks at night sometimes, there's only a few of us left and Im the youngest. The few that are still around are scattered all over the country. It's a cold feeling when you're walking around in this world alone... If I could just have one more phone call or back porch dinner you know.. I took that shit hella for granted..
I feel you on that one man. It's fucked up how life speeds by, one minute you're praying to be older and to be independent and the next all you want is your youth back and to have those family moments. I guess all we can do is cherish the time we do have with our loved ones and to remind them how much we care
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Rebelutionsssss]
#21849044 - 06/24/15 05:43 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Rebelutionsssss said: My mothers liver enzymes are 3 times the normal and I'm starting to worry about her. As much as I want to help I cant. She's always been the one person I can turn too and without her I have no one. I gone down paths of self destruction but she's always been there to get me out of it. Really worried about this 
Well I guess try to see to it that she gets the best medical care she can and make the most of your time with her. I'm no doctor but high liver enzymes, while it sounds troubling it isn't a terminal condition. So she'll probably be okay.
That's one thing I hate about illness too, Is that theres no retribution and nothing you can really do to help : /.
Whatever happens it'll be okay though dude. You'll get through it and find a way
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Soulidarity]
#21849068 - 06/24/15 06:02 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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The knowledge that death is coming soonish can ease the blow so that it's not outta left field, but it will still hurt more than almost anything else before. The pain is necessary unfortunately, because the parts in life that have insane amounts of emotions attached to them like births and deaths are that intense for a reason, you must not forget those moments in life. They hold in them some of the greatest lessons there are. We are all born, we all die. We all influence the lives of everyone we meet. We don't worry about the time before our birth and in the same mind set we shouldn't worry about the time after our death.
Trust me none of this will make it "easier" to deal with because to be honest nothing will except acceptance and time. Much love to you and you mom Rebelutionsssss. If things go south msg me I've been through a lot of loss in this life.
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Rebelutionsssss]
#21849294 - 06/24/15 07:56 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Rebelutionsssss said: I was reading some really heart felt posts on the shroomery about loosing loved ones and I'm so close to my mother I feel that when she passes I'm just going to fucking loose it. She's always been the voice of love and reason for me and I have no idea what I would do without her. 
Same thing.
Probably gonna kill myself.
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Re: What did you do when you lost your parents [Re: Rebelutionsssss]
#21849346 - 06/24/15 08:21 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Rebelutionsssss said: I feel you on that one man. It's fucked up how life speeds by, one minute you're praying to be older and to be independent and the next all you want is your youth back and to have those family moments. I guess all we can do is cherish the time we do have with our loved ones and to remind them how much we care 
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