Recently, I wanted to explore the "nature" of psilocybic mushrooms, and how the compounds within act upon ones psyche. Psychedelics, tryptamines, phenethylamines; After experiencing various doses of psylocybic mushrooms, (6 times) LSD (4 times) 4-aco-DMT (once) 25c-nbome (5 times) I have come to the conclusion that the psilocybin experience relies heavily on what I have only come to describe as "the epitome of distortion and abstraction). I noticed that with mushrooms, my thoughts, perceptions, and perceptions of my thoughts would shift so quickly and wildly, that I concluded there could not be any possible benefit to such a substance other than the recreation behind abstraction of normalcy. I know many will disagree with me on this. (This was analyzed during a 3g mushroom trip). It does not seem "divine" when you witness coherent thoughts systematically deconstruct themselves as if the brain is literally malfunctioning; thoughts oscillating through periods of rapid distortion only to repeat and return like a broken record. I love mushrooms, the feelings of insight and empathy are hard to top, however, i realized that these perceptions may very well be another distortion. Another distortion which happened to sync up with my normal seritonergic experience, albeit with psilocybin manifesting the experiences to me as something insightful of of divine nature. I am sharing because this realization has made me question the authenticity of all experience, psychedelic or sober.
All thoughts are welcome
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Not really sure what you are getting at exactly, but if I understand your correctly, I definitely don't agree with your conclusion. You've only done mushrooms 6 times. Learning to navigate through the psychedelic headspace is a skill no different than learning to play an instrument.
If you picked up a guitar and only tried to play it 6 times, of course you won't be able to make music. You are just making weird noise and string vibrations. Overtime, you can learn to harness (not control) the experience and take it in different directions. Like a championship rodeo rider isn't controlling the bull, rather just riding it for that 9 seconds.
And yeah, reality is a relative. Who's to say what we experience in our daily conscious lives is any more or less real than what we experience during psychedelic experiences. But I do agree with you in the sense that mushrooms are not the best apathetic teachers. They are strange and make our bodies feel poisoned. But I don't think the poison is of the mind, just the body.
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