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deadheadwsp
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My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! *DELETED*
#21805414 - 06/14/15 09:09 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: deadheadwsp]
#21805427 - 06/14/15 09:14 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Welcome!
The road to recovery is never an easy one traveled. Wish ya well!
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: deadheadwsp]
#21805429 - 06/14/15 09:14 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Good luck here, buncha assholes, you ask me.
But seriously, ever read 'In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts'?
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INTRODUCTION: The mandala, the Buddhist Wheel of Life, revolves through six realms. Each realm is populated by characters representing aspects of human existence—our various ways of being. In the Beast Realm we are driven by basic survival instincts and appetites such as physical hunger and sexuality, what Freud called the Id. The denizens of the Hell Realm are trapped in states of unbearable rage and anxiety. In the God Realm we transcend our troubles and our egos through sensual, aesthetic or religious experience, but only temporarily and in ignorance of spiritual truth. Even this enviable state is tinged with loss and suffering.
The inhabitants of the Hungry Ghost Realm are depicted as creatures with scrawny necks, small mouths, emaciated limbs and large, bloated, empty bellies. This is the domain of addiction, where we constantly seek something outside ourselves to curb an insatiable yearning for relief or fulfillment. The aching emptiness is perpetual because the substances, objects or pursuits we hope will soothe it are not what we really need. We don’t know what we need, and so long as we stay in the hungry ghost mode, we’ll never know. We haunt our lives without being fully present.
Some people dwell much of their lives in one realm or another. Many of us move back and forth between them, perhaps through all of them in the course of a single day.
My medical work with drug addicts in Vancouver’s Downtown Eastside has given me a unique opportunity to know human beings who spend almost all their time as hungry ghosts. It’s their attempt, I believe, to escape the Hell Realm of overwhelming fear, rage and despair. The painful longing in their hearts reflects something of the emptiness that may also be experienced by people with apparently happier lives. Those whom we dismiss as “junkies” are not creatures from a different world, only men and women mired at the extreme end of a continuum on which, here or there, all of us might well locate ourselves. I can personally attest to that. “You slink around your life with a hungry look,” someone close once said to me. Facing the harmful compulsions of my patients, I have had to encounter my own.
No society can understand itself without looking at its shadow side. I believe there is one addiction process, whether it is manifested in the lethal substance dependencies of my Downtown Eastside patients; the frantic self-soothing of overeaters or shopaholics; the obsessions of gamblers, sexaholics and compulsive Internet users; or the socially acceptable and even admired behaviours of the workaholic. Drug addicts are often dismissed and discounted as unworthy of empathy and respect. In telling their stories my intent is twofold: to help their voices to be heard and to shed light on the origins and nature of their ill-fated struggle to overcome suffering through substance abuse. They have much in common with the society that ostracizes them. If they seem to have chosen a path to nowhere, they still have much to teach the rest of us. In the dark mirror of their lives, we can trace outlines of our own.
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: SoupSandwich]
#21805433 - 06/14/15 09:18 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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does the wsp in yer name stand for widespread panic?
-------------------- I fucking hate you... God damn, I love you... But we both know if we stick together, we'll just tear ourselves apart You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are grey You are my heroin, but there's an abscess... God damn, I miss the vein!
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deadheadwsp
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: Detached]
#21805617 - 06/14/15 10:23 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Thank you! Sincerely
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deadheadwsp
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: SoupSandwich]
#21805625 - 06/14/15 10:27 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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No I have'nt,definitely gonna check it out though!looks right up my alley,thank you!
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deadheadwsp
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: sanchothestoner]
#21805634 - 06/14/15 10:30 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Ohh yea brotha!widespread mutha fuckin panic!
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lessismore
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: deadheadwsp]
#21805693 - 06/14/15 10:45 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Truth is rarely pleasant
So if you can learn to listen to yourself on the parts of life that are not exactly what you wanted, then you may learn
Your mind may say "i shouldn't do this" , "i shouldn't have done that"
But then you do it still, it was cheap, you got the rebate, you just had money for it, or the mushrooms were free as we grow them
Mushrooms do have a recovery time afterwards, there's a down to pay for every up
They can teach what we must do, but the recovery starts afterwards
We cannot escape into drugs, and if we have deaths in real life it is not a good time to do drugs, same if we just lost a good friend or two - or got fired from work
Psychedelic drugs seem to amplify our emotions, they usually only work good when we have had a good day
We cannot use them to escape, but we can use them to heal if we know what we want to heal or where we want to go
I got my own addictions healed with the help of LSD, they can all teach the same it seems. The best way I found to trip was to plan the trips on fridays or saturdays, then walk in nature. Mushroom chocolates is my best method by far (got a good recipe in journal)
The more you pay attention to set,setting,dose and your intent for the trip, the more you can get out of it. The more you learn from the trip and use in your real life - i.e. if the mushroom tells you to do something for others or yourself.
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: deadheadwsp]
#21805716 - 06/14/15 10:53 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Why don't you consider mushrooms to be in the same category as other drugs, and why do you see other substances as inherently evil?
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deadheadwsp
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: Fletcher] 1
#21805867 - 06/14/15 11:45 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I didn't mean to say that I think "all" other drugs are evil,probably worded it wrong but I meant the category of drugs that I personally think are evil because they do soo much damage and soo little good like heroine and cocaine. And like all drugs they can be used as tools for good or evil but I think now days there are much better tools for the applications that heroine and cocaine where used for in the past.
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deadheadwsp
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: Fletcher]
#21805886 - 06/14/15 11:55 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Also by the category "drugs" i meant I don't think mushrooms should be put into same category with such bad connotations around it that where applied in large part by the Reagan administrations war on "drugs".
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lessismore
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: deadheadwsp]
#21806561 - 06/14/15 01:38 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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There are drugs that really mostly sedate the mind, and there are drugs that help renew the mind
But no drug helps renew a mind without the user being ready
Mushrooms must be respected as much as any drug, too much use can damage the mind - and after own use of them a bit, maybe 20-40 trips, don't quite remember, I have to agree with most other people that they shouldn't really be used weekly
If you use them weekly you should not use a very high dose.
High doses above 3.5gs may take many weeks to resolve in your mind. Or years likely...
4g-5g territory is not a lightweight territory, it may format your mind, you may spend a decade remaking your mind
With great power comes great responsibility. They have the power to destroy the mind completely, or to heal it completely
It all depends on the person,dosage,setting
I keep to max 3.5g or so, and the occasional high dose trip - I know my dose There's a price to pay with any dose.
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: lessismore]
#21806579 - 06/14/15 01:47 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I would much rather recommend lucid dreaming if you like exploring your spirituality
www.ld4all.nl www.dreamviews.com
Same precautions as LSD/mushrooms apply
The trips are usually much better than any lsd/shroom trip, better visuals too
No drugs needed, your mind can do it naturally Anybody can learn to fly in their dreams, manifest, teleport, see anything, go anywhere
You can go through walls, you can jump off buildings Love that , It's one of my favorite life activities since I was 4 years old or so
It's also connected to astral projection, out of body experiences etc. You can fly out of your body every night if you want
But there are severe precautions, as many as with mushrooms/LSD you can risk a possession in these realms - and you should read their safety guidance/FAQ
there is nothing to fear, in fact fear can let these demons in - fear gives them access to you, but like driving a vehicle you must know what you do and keep calm
Edit: the WILD method always works for me, but only works when not on other drugs - i.e. weed daily will give me 0 dreams, I need a body without drugs for this to work, else I get no dream control. With WILD I can trip a few times a month in my dreams, or once a week or so - and it is VERY intense, more intense than a high dose LSD, more real too
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deadheadwsp
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: lessismore]
#21806766 - 06/14/15 02:52 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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If what your talking about is being able to make those types of dreams happen then this is the first I've heard of it! Should be an interesting research project for me,thanks for the advice! I wouldn't find it very hard to believe that those of us that seek out psycadelic substances weren't all first inspired to do so because of the aww inspiring dreams we've had! Wether we realize it or not. psycadelic's and those types of dreams are the only real magic I've experienced in my life!
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lessismore
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: deadheadwsp]
#21806862 - 06/14/15 03:14 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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or more like hearing how people can hallucinate on mushrooms
and then "the matrix" 1999 :-) , best movie ever
I always wanted to hallucinate, it's pretty cool
but deep down I think it stems from my dreams, and from wanting to know my reality due to philosophically minded all life, got the "hackers mind" - want to make new solutions to things or find out how things work with most things - that's why I run linux for many years and program all life too
but then I saw some Timothy Leary about how you could hack your program/brain ;-)
strange guy .. :-D
also heard Richard Feynmann/John Lennon took LSD, and I liked their mentality
so I guess you could say I researched everything I could research before I played with my mind, I never took a drug in my life before I took psychedelics (except alcohol). Not even cigs. First did psychedelics at 25.
but it would also be pretty cool to have a trip different from the usual alcohol binge 'every weekend', a hallucination trip that's probably where many people get the idea from, that there are other drugs out there and many people recommend them, say they are safe, Holland has legal psychedelic mushrooms etc.
lots of reasons but then there are also some downsides to taking psychedelics, the more you take them, the more solutions you see, the more philosophical you can be often too
it's just like with weed, weed can make everything in the world interesting same can psychedelics do...
not everything in the world is interesting, it must be nice to have stuff that sucks and is not worth researching... ;-) - so be moderate
- but in the end yeah.... I had 1-2 lucid dreams each year all my life, and 1-2 a month when practicing them, at least 100+ my whole life - very intense dreams, always flying on top of where I live, and I remember them subconsciously - they impact everything I do in my life, and make me view reality very alternative to most people. Everyone I have talked to except 1 has laughed at me when I mentioned flying in ones dreams...
Edited by lessismore (06/14/15 03:23 PM)
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: lessismore]
#21806901 - 06/14/15 03:27 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Lucid dreams get stored as real in your brain, so I remember at least 20 of them like yesterday in full color and feeling
I remember who I met, where I were, how it felt, what I thought etc.
just like if I had been there in reality
So they impact my day intensely, all those dreams I have jumped out of buildings in lucid dreams, that is very intense - happened before I took my first trip, 5 years before
Blew my mind completely, but I had forgotten for a few years
Fear there can be very intense - if you jump out, you have to process the fear of dying in this reality it seems
.. imagine.. waking up where you went to bed you live on 3rd floor in an apartment building
someone runs up the stairs / cops - they want to kick in your door and kill you you jump out on the frame to your window and thinki if you should jump
they kick in the door you jump you fly around for hours in the air outside, being chased by that "being" all the time, great fear for your life
- in the place you normally live
you wake up, not sure if it really happened, if someone visited you
Edited by lessismore (06/14/15 03:43 PM)
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: lessismore]
#21806915 - 06/14/15 03:35 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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(my dreams have never been pleasant, I have been haunted by shadow beings in my dreams from 4 years old to 25 years old)
another reason I might have chosen to face myself with psychedelics, to find the reason for my fear, the reason why I hated myself
it turned out there was a reason, I had lost my soul after a sleep paralysis experience I had forgotten 16 years ago
I have had intense fear 90% of my life in my dreams, just about every night fear nothing in this world has been nowhere near fear of something wanting to eat you up from inside and torment you so I always flew away from it in the air with it chasing me
later I learned to face it in my dreams, then I gained control
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deadheadwsp
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: lessismore]
#21807641 - 06/14/15 07:03 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Wow that's crazy,the only recurring thing I've had in dreams is a house that I've never seen in real life but I've gone to the same house in my dreams probably 4 or 5times! It's funny you mentioned sleep paralysis cause I used to wake up paralyzed or become paralyzed just as I'm falling asleep and all I could do was moan through my teeth and move my eye's but when I was paralyzed I would always sense a really evil presence beside me that was like a translucent black mist or like black static In somewhat of a humanoid silhouette with shape of head,shoulders and torso! Is this like what chased you in you dreams? Did you learn anything about them?
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: deadheadwsp]
#21807758 - 06/14/15 07:32 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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deadheadwsp said: Ohh yea brotha!widespread mutha fuckin panic!
-------------------- I fucking hate you... God damn, I love you... But we both know if we stick together, we'll just tear ourselves apart You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are grey You are my heroin, but there's an abscess... God damn, I miss the vein!
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Re: My introduction,my story as an opiate addict saved by the sacred mushroom,and I'm eager to meet you guys! [Re: deadheadwsp]
#21807839 - 06/14/15 07:50 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Yes, welcome to the Shroomery. It's great you beat an ope addiction using mushrooms. If you feel up to it, you might want to post on how you did it in our Physical and Mental Health forum. It could help a lot of people.
Edited by Le_Canard (06/14/15 08:10 PM)
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