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TheGreenArrow
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Re: Any of you turned your life around? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#21788407 - 06/10/15 01:45 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Pergaps the most insightful thing I've seen you post on these boards BC. 
I never know what to make of you guy.
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TNK
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Re: Any of you turned your life around? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#21788422 - 06/10/15 01:48 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Bitter Cactus said: The nice thing about being an addict is that you have a purpose. It is to get that drug. When you are sober and doing nothing you just kind of exist.
That is so true and a great way to describe the feeling of early sobriety (early as in less than a few years lol)
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Enjoywho
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Re: Any of you turned your life around? [Re: Acaterpillar]
#21788427 - 06/10/15 01:49 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Acaterpillar said: I'm still in the process of reforming my life. Was addicted to Heroin 2 years ago, addicted to etizolam last year after quitting heroin. Now I just take a little kratom on occasion for pain management and to quell cravings.
I still hold the belief that the problem is the user and not the drug. The way that drugs change me is relieving in the short term; but counterproductive in the long run.
I have ulcerative colitis, and recently my condition went into remission; but as a result I got really bad internal hemorrhoids from the sudden changes in my bowel movements. Now I'm living back home; had to cancel the contract I was working on and am just letting my parents take care of me.
I'm probably going to put the private contracting on hold for some time and get some accreditation via school and other credible programs for my field. That way I can just act as a manager rather than having to act as contractor and laborer; in case my condition starts giving me problems again.
The hardest part for me is to swallow my pride and admit that I need help; in any form. Kinda comical that quitting heroin and benzos was no problem; but those damn hemorrhoids got me.  Luckily now I'll be getting the tests done that I should have gotten when my symptoms first started presenting themselves. Hopefully my condition stays in remission. It'd be nice to not be so fatigued all the damn time.
I view no drug as inherently evil. It's all about moderation. Will I ever truly quit? probably not. Drugs are fucking fun. But I'm 2 years clean of heroin June 15th but I am an alcoholic and have an extremely addictive personality. I vibed with a lot of what you said as I can relate.
The thing about me is I never deny it. Especially when I start to date pretty girls. This is who I am, and who I used to be. I always tell them. Because I want to be honest and usually when i'm with someone I Want to impress I feel like I can finally be better. I'm not ashamed of it it's what had a big part of who I am today.
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Beanhead
IS IRONIC PARADOX


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Re: Any of you turned your life around? [Re: Bitter Cactus]
#21788441 - 06/10/15 01:51 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Bitter Cactus said: The nice thing about being an addict is that you have a purpose. It is to get that drug. When you are sober and doing nothing you just kind of exist.
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Bitter Cactus
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Re: Any of you turned your life around? [Re: Beanhead]
#21788464 - 06/10/15 01:54 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Beanhead said:
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Bitter Cactus said: The nice thing about being an addict is that you have a purpose. It is to get that drug. When you are sober and doing nothing you just kind of exist.
Deep 
I thought most people see it that way. Even though I am sober and on the right track, I do need some kind of drug. For me that is sometimes nicotine and kratom. I remember my friend who was addicted to heroin saying it was so much better to do a shot when he was sick.
I understand that because I really like the process of going into slight withdrawal then getting relief and feeling great. Which is why I like kratom because you feel low without it in the morning then you do it and feel better. Something about that I like cause being sober is just feeling the same all the time.
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Re: Any of you turned your life around? [Re: Beanhead]
#21788465 - 06/10/15 01:55 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I was kinda stuck working night shifts and getting high (on the job). Then I got fired and now I have an awesome job.
It was like an instant career. Never worked this hard in my life but it feels great!
-------------------- Ach en wee ben ik de klos, met mijn boog schoot ik een albatros... A philosopher is a person who knows less and less about more and more, until he knows nothing about everything.

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Acaterpillar
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Re: Any of you turned your life around? [Re: Tripsurfer]
#21788524 - 06/10/15 02:06 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Sounds like you could use a hobby.
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Tripsurfer
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Re: Any of you turned your life around? [Re: Acaterpillar]
#21788846 - 06/10/15 03:25 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I have plenty of hobbies and two small businesses. Just got stuck with easy money and the opportunity to get high and sleep on the job
-------------------- Ach en wee ben ik de klos, met mijn boog schoot ik een albatros... A philosopher is a person who knows less and less about more and more, until he knows nothing about everything.

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Acaterpillar
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Re: Any of you turned your life around? [Re: Tripsurfer]
#21788862 - 06/10/15 03:30 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quick reply fail. Meant to reply to the post where Bitter Cactus was talking about addicts having a purpose. My brain was not working this morning.
-------------------- Aaa...E I O Uuu...A E I O Uuu..A E I O uh Uuu.. *Cough* *Cough* Ooo...U E I O Aaa...U E I Aaa..A E I O Uuuuu... At first sight, The Perfection of Wisdom is bewildering, full of paradox and apparent irrationality.
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